I first found MWO in 2008 when my life was in turmoil and I felt I had to get a handle on my drinking before it got a handle on me! I got the book, CDs, supplements and medication (that really didn't agree with me!) - somehow it's 2013 and nothing has changed - in fact it's got worse.
I'm now drinking about 2 bottles of wine per night and it's affecting my whole life. I don't sleep well, I don't exercise because I'm too tired (or I'd rather come home & pour a glass of wine) & I have put on 4 stone in weight over the last couple of years & can't shift it. I joined Weight Watchers but they don't really factor in the calories from 2 bottles a night so unless I stop eating (which of course I can't - wine = big, unhealthy dinners, takeaways & lots of snacks) that's not going to work. I'm in my 40's, divorced & very lonely but, 4 stone heavier than normal, I have no self-confidence so no way I can do the dating thing.
There's a chance of a big promotion at work coming up which I'd really need to study for but how can I do that when I spend my evenings in a fuzzy haze?
Both last week & this week, due to travelling, I had an alcohol free night - how great did I feel in the morning? I actually slept without sweating and woke up feeling great and ready for the world. Why can't I do that all the time?
Why today, why now though?
Last night was spectacular. My mum phoned upset about a relative who's really ill. She accused me of having been drinking (she was right) and I hung the phone up on her. I only know this because I spoke to my sister this morning & she told me. My two teenage children had beans on toast because I dropped their dinner (a lovely casserole) on the kitchen floor. I went to bed - well, passed out - about 8pm but not before my daughter had shot me a disgusted look around the bedroom door.
I am utterly ashamed of myself this morning. Profuse apologies have been given to chidren & mum but I think I have really, really, really had enough of this.
Sorry, that was an outpouring but, I suppose, really helpful to remind myself why I'm on here.
I've dug out the book & CDs and ordered all of the vitamins & supplements I don't already have. Any suggestions as to where to go from here would be really good?
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