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[anemone]

:new: Not really...I have been lurking about for a while now.
It is so interesting that so many of you have your own soundtrack, just like me. Sometimes mine is "Life in The Fast Lane, don't it make you lose your mind" Sometimes it is "I've got friends in low places where the whiskey runs and the beer chases my blues away."
I am a "late onset alcoholic". When I was young, I didn't drink, or do drugs. I didn't care if others did, I just prefered not to. I didn't like the way it felt. How I wish I was still in that space in time.

[Bella]

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Hello, thanks for sharing a small sample of your life. If you want something badly enough you mast take the plunge. I have found that by not drinking I am better able mentally and phsically to cope with the problems life brings. The problems are still there of course but rather than bury myself deeper into the bottle and hide, I can see things more clearly and try to solve them. I also have a husband who doesn't understand and gets angry; I think we just have to push them aside and get on with the job in hand, getting sober, getting a decent life back.

You Anemone, are not alone here. Use every ounce of strengh you have to fight your way through this. Good luck. Bella xx

[betty boop]

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Ditto the other posts,

Read the swimming pool post by Louise, and then let all of our hands help you xx

[anemone]

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Thank you!

:thanks: Thank you so much for welcoming me so quickly. It's really hard being alone with this horrible drinking problem. I just can't see myself in a group like AA. I am simply too private a person to stand up and say "I am an alcoholic". And there is such a stigma attached to a woman drinker...
I hope to find my way here. The swimming pool post was great.
Anemone

[lushy]

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Just wanted to say welcome. You will get all the support you need here!!! :welcome:

[rudemama]

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Welcome. I have found solace here when i was hating myself. i have found strength here when weak.laughs when down.:h I hope you can too. Rudemama

[julie001]

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Welcome. I'm only a little over a month into this program and people here have been the best therapy that could be offered in regards to drinking issues. I don't miss a day of coming here and reading and reading and reading. Look forward to hearing from you! Good luck.

Julie

[mustdobetter]

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Gosh - it sure sounds like you have had a lot of hard knocks. I hope that you have had as many and more beautiful experiences in your life that you can look back on and simply remember... that there is a place you can go again that is harmonious and blissful, and free of this battle we must fight daily. I understand what you mean about being afraid to give up your good friends, wine and vodka, who have kept you such good company for so long. I feel that way also. They are hard friends to replace, even though they take over and control everything and bleed me dry of any feeling. Still, they have been there, so giving them up is a hard notion to come by. I think they will be better friends to me when I am in charge of them instead of the other way around. Thank you for making me see that as I have just realized it as I was typing the words to you.

I wish you the best in your journey and I hope sincerely that you will keep coming and posting. This forum has been a life saver for me and it can be for you also.

[marcel]

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Anemone,
Welcome. You have come to an incredible place for support and understanding. Keep coming back. Post all your questions and concerns and there will be some one here to help. Best of luck to you.

MDB, I am thrilled to see that 19 in your signature! Rock on, girl!

[Piddypat]

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Hi,
I truly understand what you mean by not knowing if you can live without your escape hatch. The people on these threads offer hope and support and understand. Like you, I just can't do the AA thing. Hopefully we will both find solace and as Bella said, push forward!!
Piddy

[msadventure]

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Welcome anemone! You have come to a place where there is always someone to listen. To some degree or another, all of us have felt (or perhaps are still feeling) much as you do. However, please never give up hope, as there is going to be a better day. I know you're a beautiful, loving person who is capable of enjoying life ... anyone with dogs has to be! We are here to help you.

Ms

[Piddypat]

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Can someone tell me how to find the swimming pool post?
Piddy

[marcel]

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Trying again

:welcome:

Nothing but support and understanding here. I never did AA. My Dad did, but that was all there was back then, he is 86, and still sober. MWO is a much better place for me. :h And a lot of other people. You, too, I hope. Stick around, read a lot, post a lot, and ask all the questions you need. See ya!

[ScoobyDoo]

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Boy oh boy... you've been dealing with a lot. What an understatement!

I am so glad that you've joined in here. One day at a time sounds like it might be a good thing to think at th moment. Have you tried the hypno CD's? They are really helping me and I find them a much greater relief from stress than what alcohol has been providing me in the past.

Hang in there sweetie, and I look forward to getting to know you more.

*hug* from Australia
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[anemone]

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Well, I am a day and a half sober. I can't say it's a thrill. In fact I am somewhat cranky and couldn't wait to get to the computer to publicly pout. I started the kudzu. Interesting fact about kudzu. It was introduced to the United States as a ground cover from Japan. It loves it here and has blanketed the entire south. Seems the Japanese actually garden and it never gets out of hand. So if it works all us drunks will never run out because you can't kill it.


Thanks for the support
Anemone