My name is Will, I have cocaine and alcohol dependency problems. I also suffer from depression which i take Citalopram 40mg to treat. I feel low a lot and i use drink to hide from myself, when i drink i want to use cocaine. After these binges i feel low and take more medication to bring myself up again. I'm fed up of the guilt and the pain im causing my family, I'm sick of who i am. I dont keep drink in the house because my mum wont let me, but when i go out and drink i cant stop, every time.
On Sunday was an example of one of these nights, in which i ended up getting arrested for affray (using unlawful violence) and spent 15 hours in a cell and now face a court case at magistrates. 2 Years ago i wud never have done this and to make it worse i dont remember what i did and why i did it.
When i got out of the police station i looked at my positive drug test and my injuries and felt the guilt and despair and the massive depression wave over me. Its all too much for me. I cant carry on like this. I'm going to the doctors this afternoon to seek help. I was just wondering if anyone else can offer me some advice?
I'm 22 years old and at the minute i feel like i cant have a drink because i know where it will lead.
Please help.
Will
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