:My son has tried suicide many times. Been in jail numerous times. Won't take his meds for ADHD other issues he has. So he self medicates with alcohol. Last time he tore the ligaments in his hand & fingers going thru a glass store window. His alcohol level was 3.999.
It took him 12 hours to sober up in the hospital almost didn't make it, plus by the time he was found at 1:30 am he had lost a lot of blood from the injury. Police took him to the hospital thank God.
Fast foreword he is in jail again. I will not bail him out I pd for his surgery. He had just got out of rehab for 3 weeks ago began drinking again.
The cycle goes over & over. I don't know if I am torturing myself by hoping when he hit bottom he will ask for help. 20 years is such a long time to watch my son suffer thru so many unspeakable things. I can't talk to him is usually unreasonable out of control so I never know what is true. He is a master manulipulator uses others to find places to live, till the police are called. usually drunk & domestic charges. He has been out of contact many times. I have no support from family they all hate him including his own father. I accept he is a alcoholic with mental issues that doesn't make him any less worthy of my love. I tell him as often as I can too! I get so much flak from family it's so unnecessary.
They can't see beyond their own hate.
Well I guess u get the idea. The whole mess is co convoluted its impossible to ever know the truth. Other than he drinks to excess.
I love my son very much yet he is treated by police like garbage. He is not, he deserves a better life. A homeless dog has more hope for survival and a better life than my son.
It's so painful & there is nothing I can do he is an adult. He has too many emotional problems. He had a good contractor business at one time. Now he can't get a job, especially with only one functional hand.
Sorry didn't mean to rant on & on....
Yankee
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