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    Second time newbie

    I have been on this site before but been away for a while but need to get back on track. I have just had a nightmare week travelling in a foreign country alone and ending up in a hotel room with 2 young girls and all my money that I had just drew out the cash machine gone. The 2 girls told police that I had collapsed in the hotel bar and they were helping me to my room. I can remember sitting in the hotel bar but nothing else after.

    I want to do some serious AF this week. I know I won't be able to do AF today as will not be able to sleep tonight and have work in morning. Will gradually cut down to AF later in week.

    I'm in desperate need of a buddy if anyone else needs one.

    Cheeks
    (38/F/UK)
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    #2
    Second time newbie

    HI , im 33/f/uk

    I am new too but like you i have lost hundreds of pounds whilst in a blackout, its got to the point now that i have no income, big debts and have had to take my youngest son out ofth e nursery he loves because i cant afford the fees so i know how you feel. I don't know what im going to do about the money situation but im just trying to get well

    I'm here if you need to chat

    Louise

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      #3
      Second time newbie

      Hi Cheeks....good to see you again!!!!

      You know the drill here....keep reading and posting my friend
      Tuck those AF days under the belt....you're right to slow down gradually if you're worried about detox .....
      Sending you a melonhug of re-welcome:h:

      I've lost my wallet, clothes?, friends.......many times.....all when I have been under the 'fluence...not to mention the thousands of dollars I have wasted on booze over the years.
      It's not good is it...

      Plenty of buddies here for you treasure
      Weemelon xx

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        #4
        Second time newbie

        Hi Cheeks!

        Hang in there. Little steps. It does get better. Losing things....ugh...I shudder to think.
        :flower: Change a life; make someone feel important. ................. ........................ ..................... ........................ ................. ....... sigpic

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          #5
          Second time newbie

          HI Cheeks, yes to all the above but the greatest thing I lost was self respect and the respect of people close to me which unlike 'things' takes a long, slow process to rebuild. I have been robbed while drunk too, by people I thought were 'with' me, the feeling of self disgust coupled with them thinking that little of me is overwhelming and can still bring me to tears if I dwell on that times. We are all in this together, the more I read the more I realise that and am slowly coming out of my shell on the MWO site.

          Louussie, read Southernbelle's post in What We Believe I think it was on Friday which refers to helping ourselves.

          Take care.

          Lornaxx
          Rather die standing, than live on my knees, begging Please..... No More.......

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            #6
            Second time newbie

            Thanks all. I have not managed AF yet but have cut down. Felt normalish for the first time since coming back off hols today. Been a mixture of hangover, anxiety (fuelled by alcohol )and stress.

            I also worry about what I can't remember. Mihgt have had the best time of my life and can't remember a thing.

            Cheeks

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              #7
              Second time newbie

              Hi cheeks. maybe it was your wake up call...awful to blackout. at least you are alive and hopefully will be feeler more positive about getting fit and healthy...summer is on the way.. why not plan a goal of AF this week an get your mind and body back ion shape!!

              We all feel crap about "blackouts"..maybe that will be for the last time?Good Luck..dont look back...just go forward today //you can do this..cant say it was a great holiday if you cant remember it can you???god it could have ended up in a tragedy...see it as a newar miss.
              good Luck....welcome home and heres to your AF days!!!!

              Regards cassy

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                #8
                Second time newbie

                Oh Sweetheart,

                I pm-d you, I'm here if you need a buddy xxx
                sigpicXXX

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                  #9
                  Second time newbie

                  Hi Cheeks,
                  Glad you came back. Keep posting, as you can see there are a lot of people here who want to help.
                  Black outs are the worst. Just keep doing what you are with cutting down that those times will be a distant memory.
                  Take Care.
                  "Keep your eyes and heart focused on the end goal at all times, and never settle for less."

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                    #10
                    Second time newbie

                    Hello Cheeks and welcome back:

                    Sometimes when I look back I swear I think I am lucky I am not dead. Scary, but it is true. The places I have been when I blacked out, and the people I have been with at the time. Or the fact that I was by my self, drunk as hell, and got myself home. Hate to think about that stuff!! Glad you came back and glad we can all get better together.
                    Learning to live life on the outside of a bottle. :flower:

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                      #11
                      Second time newbie

                      Oh ya...44/F/USA...teehee
                      Learning to live life on the outside of a bottle. :flower:

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