7 MONTHS OF SOBRIETY BLOWN

[K9Lover]

7 MONTHS OF SOBRIETY BLOWN

UW - I missed you!!!

Sorry to hear what happened...BUT...I am thrilled to have you back. Stick close to us! I missed you my friend!

:l
K9

[Nelz]

7 MONTHS OF SOBRIETY BLOWN

Welcome back you.....we've all been wondering about you. Now jump back up on this crazy train with us, and lets Kick it!!

[Unwasted]

7 MONTHS OF SOBRIETY BLOWN

Tipps, so glad you're still here and have finally gotten that critical first 30 days under your belt! I totally agree with you that there's no comparison of a short term buzz that wreaks havoc with our bodies to the peace and amazingly good feeling of being free of all the detrimental effects of alcohol. I was so sure that I had beaten it after 7 months. I think my biggest issue is convincing myself that I don't really have a problem. I'm past being able to ever say that again. Anyway, congrats on your 30 days!

K9 I've missed you too and look forward to hearing how you've been doing!

Hey Nelz, glad to see you still here and cheering people on. It really means a lot when you long-termers stick around for support.

xoxo,
UN:l

[Cinders]

7 MONTHS OF SOBRIETY BLOWN

UW,

I don't think we "talked" too often but I do remember you and your success.

Welcome back.

I agree, while seven months of continuous sobriety was "blown," the valuable lesson you learned when you started to drink again is invaluable.

Hold that lesson close.

Cindi

[FreeFly]

7 MONTHS OF SOBRIETY BLOWN

Unwasted;1508082 wrote:
FreeFly - hi sweetie. It's so good to know you're still here. I didn't see the post you're referring to, but thanks for letting me know. When I first left it was because I was having wrist problems. I couldn't type without a lot of pain. Thankfully, that's disappeared (turned out to be a cyst). I'm so lucky I didn't have to have any kind of procedure - it seems to have gone down or disappeared on its own. Then, after that I didn't want to post and be a negative influence on anyone. I'm back, though, and look forward to keeping up with you all again.

I remember now your wrist problems - very happy to hear the cyst disappeared of its own accord in its own right time. Just for the record, I don't think it possible you could be a negative influence but appreciate what you're saying. I need to get back on board too. Had a good run and huge changes since arriving here at MWO but last couple of weeks my mindset is not in the place I'd like it to be. I'm aware of it though so looking to get the head in gear again :l

[Unwasted]

7 MONTHS OF SOBRIETY BLOWN

Hi Cinders - thanks for the welcome back and good advice. You're so right about remembering the lessons - seems to be at the crux of my downfalls. It feels different this time - I'm going to do my best to make sure it is!

Freefly - nice to see you again and great for seeing that the bad thoughts are creeping in again. Well, let's go hang out in the nest and make them go away! Too bad there's not a chip we can implant in our brains to make us remember our last hangover!

Thanks again to everyone for "being here." It's a great place and I'm thankful for it. Life is better sober but we need reminders of that when we have to function in a world where alcohol is EVERYWHERE.

[kuya]

7 MONTHS OF SOBRIETY BLOWN

What works for me is not remembering the hangover but the total compulsion EVERY night to go and buy booze that I DID NOT WANT..........it was a living hell.

Waking every morning with the new promise to myself and getting to 6oclock and being dragged by my messed up brain chemistry to buy a liquid that made me poor and ill and only gave me an hour, maximum, of pleasure.

That, and the look of fear, confusion and disgust on my daughter's face as I lost cohesive thought and started chatting shit. I NEVER want to see that look again.

[Unwasted]

7 MONTHS OF SOBRIETY BLOWN

Kuya, your comment about the short term buzz in exchange for mountains of horror is right on. I truly believe this is my quit and there's just something about reading how others experience the exact thing we do that's truly empowering. Thanks for your comments!

[K9Lover]

7 MONTHS OF SOBRIETY BLOWN

kuya;1508923 wrote: What works for me is not remembering the hangover but the total compulsion EVERY night to go and buy booze that I DID NOT WANT..........it was a living hell.

Same here Kuya...I was on auto-pilot pulling up to the liquor store every day. Then I was on auto-pilot smoking a cigarette with each and every beer. I felt the compulsion to go smoke whether I wanted to or not, same way I felt the compulsion to crack beer after beer. My right index finger had a permanent indent from twisting off the bottle caps. Yes, it was a living HELL!

[Unwasted]

7 MONTHS OF SOBRIETY BLOWN

K9, not sure if you'll come back to this post, but I'm so happy to hear you were able to quit smoking! That's wonderful. I think cigarettes are as damaging as alcohol - maybe more. GOOD FOR YOU!!!!! I used to smoke too but find alcohol a much tougher nut to crack. Think I'm there, though. :l

[allswell]

7 MONTHS OF SOBRIETY BLOWN

Hey Un,

Welcome back. I can definitely feel your pain. I went all the way to the middle of December last year which would have been almost a year then fell hard. I've been steadily trying to get back to where I was but haven't gotten back the success I had last year. We can do this!

[Unwasted]

7 MONTHS OF SOBRIETY BLOWN

Alls, I'm so happy to see you here! I remember you well.

Sorry that you're struggling but, hey, there's strength in numbers. Let's make up our minds and stick to it this time.

:l:l

[scottish lass]

7 MONTHS OF SOBRIETY BLOWN

kuya;1508923 wrote: What works for me is not remembering the hangover but the total compulsion EVERY night to go and buy booze that I DID NOT WANT..........it was a living hell.

Waking every morning with the new promise to myself and getting to 6oclock and being dragged by my messed up brain chemistry to buy a liquid that made me poor and ill and only gave me an hour, maximum, of pleasure.

True words Kuya - true words - I am sitting here in a mess, I am getting my knickers in a twist about lots of stuff including my trip home - I foolishly went to the store last night, even sat outside it and knew I didn't wnat to do it, but went inside, bought a bottle of wine, drank it and had a little enjoyment followed ny a hell of a night and a c*#p day - why, oh why did I do it....
I wasn't going to post, just lurk today, but read this and it was as if you were in my brain last 20hrs.
I have to get thru June.....and I am not sure how I am going to....

Hey UW, FF, allswell, Cinders, K9, Tipp and everyone....

[treetops]

7 MONTHS OF SOBRIETY BLOWN

SL - sorry for you about the wine. Keep posting and don't loose contact. You can do this and you can survive the trip home. The latter can be approached differently sober. You can set some ground rules for yourself. Walk away from the AL and the family stuff that goes with AL. You can still love and see your family - just try to make the 2013 trip different. In the meantime get through each day, baby steps - sober

[Unwasted]

7 MONTHS OF SOBRIETY BLOWN

Hi Treetops. Good to see you!

SL, how can we help? I'm not the strongest card in the deck right now, but if you just want to talk it out, we can listen. :lUN