I don't feel so alone now!

[spiderwoman]

I don't feel so alone now!

Well done LLL on seven whole days without the poison - it just gets better now. You wil be due an award in the Newbies Nest.

[Live_Love_Learn]

I don't feel so alone now!

Thanks Spiderwoman! I'm feeling 100% on what I was 7 days ago! What a change! And I know the best is yet to come!! I don't know if I could have done it without having MWO and the Campral, I feel like fate stepped in last Monday, I couldn't be more excited now, each day when I wake up sober I'm excited about what I can achieve!

[Live_Love_Learn]

I don't feel so alone now!

Well I had a tiff with my long instance boyfriend, I don't normally carry on, damn these emotions!! So then I hung up in tears, now this is where I normally skull some alcohol, but, I skulled water instead!! Decided instead to cry and then calmly rang him and said I don't want to fight or go to bed angry so WOW!! That's a prize for myself for that effort!! I'm going to take myself to the movies this weekend as a prize!!!
Damn stupid emotions, I hate being weepy but stuff it, I'm going to sit here and have a cry, I haven't cried since I became sober and I think it's due!!

[spiderwoman]

I don't feel so alone now!

LLL all sorts of emotions emerge as you get used to being sober, its a bit unsettling but things to settle down. Many of us have some crying fests but they ebb away in time leaving the most amamzing sense of calm and peace, beats the sh*t out of being hammered all the time

You're well on your way and have done brilliantly.

Sylv

[Live_Love_Learn]

I don't feel so alone now!

I just hope I don't ruin my relationship because I'm so emotional right now- probably a good thing its long distance and we wont be seeing each other for a few weeks!!
I tell you what is good though, its like you have more control when you are feeling raw and cranly and depressed..... when you are drunk you just 'think' you are saying what you normally don't have the courage to say but more often than not the words can be said in haste and then they can't be taken back........
Now I can breath in, think about it and let myself be upset and just think about how my body is recovering from so much abuse so I'm allowed to be fragile..... for now...... normally I'm one tough bitch that doesn't like to admit she's hurting!!!!!!!!!!!
So day 11 for me, OMG I'm nearly 2 weeks sober :H
Can't wait to read about how everyone else is going today, it's great getting to know you all XO

[Live_Love_Learn]

I don't feel so alone now!

Since I'm bursting with excitement and I'm not one to Facebook things.......... I realised today is 12 months free of an abusive, free-loading, gambling, drug and alcohol addicted idiot!!!!!!! Took me 8 years to pluck up the courage but now I'm not looking back!! To top it off my loan to pay him out just got approved- what a wonderful anniversary present!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now I'm in a managerial role, living with beautiful healthy fur kids on an acreage and SOBER!!!!!!!!!!!!
Maybe if next I deserve to find love ,arriage and a family but I wont get to high in hopes there!!!!!!!!!!

[Live_Love_Learn]

I don't feel so alone now!

each day is getting easier BUT I'm staying vigilant with my medication, I would be so disappointed if I sabotaged my AF life!
Busy weekend coming up though, lots of yard work, have to clean every room in the house and get ready for my mum and dad to visit next weekend so I'm pretty excited! By then my emotions should be more in check and I should be able to not get stressed, overthink or panic.......... oh the joys of detox
I still look and feel like a fatty though, I wasnt going to beat myself up about diet this week, I'm not going into the secind week being emotionally wrecked and being strict with food, it wouldn't have been pretty for those at work so this weekend the preparation comes................

[Live_Love_Learn]

I don't feel so alone now!

Day 12 AF!! A bit bored but that's because I'm living in a house with hardly any furniture, it's a new beginning and at least I did some gardening, I'm getting ready for family visitors next weekend and bought a whole heap of fresh fruit and veges so I'm making a real effort to get better!! I hope my body starts feeling the same way and becomes kinder to me!!

[Kradle123]

I don't feel so alone now!

Hi LLL,

You are doing sooooo great!
:goodjob:
Don't know the specifics but extricating ourselves from the quagmire of our past can be so incredibly hard.

Sounds like you're pulling yourself up and out of the La Brea Tar pits!

:bump:

Stay close, :l

[Live_Love_Learn]

I don't feel so alone now!

I'm ready to get out rather than sit in my house so I'm going to see what classes I can join and get out there and make friends. I've been in a new city/ state for 2 months now and I'm not going to stop being lonely until I put myself out there!
Tomorrow is 2 weeks AF! I'm starting strict diet tomorrow and I'm ready for positive change..... I accept I'm not even close to being out of trouble with my old buddies scotch, vodka, rum, wine or apple cider BUT I'm going to find things to do to distract me!!

[NoSugar]

I don't feel so alone now!

You have a great attitude, LLL - that is one of the main keys to success !

Are you going to take classes for fun or towards a specific goal?

All the best to you -:h NS

[Siren136]

I don't feel so alone now!

Hey L^3! You sound strong and you are making healthy choices for yourself. Great job!!

I am also facing loneliness and thought I'd mention to you that you can go to Find Meetup groups near you - Meetup and find groups of people in your area to do things with. Whatever activity you enjoy, I bet there is a meetup group for it. I recently joined a couple in my area. One is for recreational sports/pick-up games, one for people who like to travel, and another just for ladies who are looking to make friends and have people to do things with.

Thanks for the tip on taking classes - I love learning but mostly just on my own reading/internet. I hadn't thought to take classes so I will look around and see what's out there. I'm not very artistic/creative so maybe something that helps me develop there - painting or drawing.

[Live_Love_Learn]

I don't feel so alone now!

Siiren136 I forgot about painting!! I have moved several times oner the last couple of years and threw my paints out!!!!! I'm going to start collecting again, I'm in a barely furnished house so wall paintings would be perfect!
NoSugar its funny, I was sitting at home relaxed after my housework was done and for some reason started looking and I think I'm going to take a beginners pole dance class!!!!!!!!!!! I thought, hey, it looks challenging but it also looks like your legs, butt and tummy get a workout!!! Perfect!!! OMG I hope there are people as spaz as me there though or I can see after 1 class I'll be outta there!!!!!!!!
I'm going to look at the Meeting Groups though, I'm wanting to get out of my comfort zone ALTHOUGH with all the information I'm reading I know moving to a new pkace, being AF, starting a diet is going to wreak havoc with my emotions so at least I;m conscious of it now and just have to know what I can comfortably handle!!
2 WEEKS TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[kambob]

I don't feel so alone now!

You little BEAUTY LLL. Just reading your posts in this thread alone have given me the proverbial kick in the arse to get out and do stuff too. Dunno about pole-dancing....might break every bone in my geriatric body! :H

But thank you and keep on rockin'.

kambob

[Live_Love_Learn]

I don't feel so alone now!

Well, day 1 of super strict diet!! Maybe it's not so hard since I'm recalling the awful headaches and general unwell feeling of giving up alcohol 2 weeks ago!! Pole dancing classes are booked but I'm waiting to drop a dress size which hopefully won't be long!!
Going through problem sleeping phase at the moment but I'm already taking a tonne of vitamins so I'm not getting more!! Sooner or later I'm going to crash I hope!!
Hope everyone has a great day and we are 3 days into AF June woohoo!