I don't feel so alone now!

[witts end]

I don't feel so alone now!

good for you live_love_learn ....3 weeks great fabulous you go girl I'm sure the boyfriend will be glad and proud of you

[Live_Love_Learn]

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Thanks Witts End! Day 22, I'm excited!!!!!!!!!!!
So it's day 22, my paremts last day here, I'm kind of sad but also excited to have had them help fix things up and get me settled so now I only have 2 more weekends until my man comes home
I go away for a week to work next week though- MASSIVE SCARY TEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! In all my years of working I have NEVER EVER not drank when living out of a crappy little hotel room............... this is going to be really trying but hell, I've made it this far and I really don't want to ruin my progress....
Metter get to work- have a great day everyone XO

[Live_Love_Learn]

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OK, WTF?!?!?!? I am having an anxiety attack, sitting in my office, wanting to bawl my eyes out and I have NO IDEA WHY?!?!?!??!
Give me a break already or I swear to god I'll go swig a mouthful of beer or something and see if that helps................ this is so weird and I don't get why, I'm looking at my legal document to sign the house over to me but it was always mine, I've always paid all the bills and repayments so i don't see why that is bothering me and the emotions started before that anyway so it must be just a life is crappy day......... great.......................

[NoSugar]

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Are you ok? Beer won't help but regular breathing will. You will be fine after you give this time to pass. It is so great to read how enthused you are about your new AF life. So, just give yourself time to breathe normally and feel better. Post when you can, ok?

[Live_Love_Learn]

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Thanks NoSugar!! I I spent the afternoon getting stuck into my work, still AF but did gorge on chips so I have to not beat myself up and get back on my diet AF horse tomorrow because my family leave so I'm coming home to an empty house I've made it this far though so I have to just get over my dismal mood and hope tomorrow I'm back to being happy.....

[free at last]

I don't feel so alone now!

Hi L3, a quick note to follow up on NoSugar's suggestion about breathing. A good meal is also helpful. When I eat junk food (and I have turned to Pringles on many occasions rather than wine), I get more cravings. If I eat protein and vegetables, I find I can deal with the raging voices telling me wine will solve the problem. So eat up! We are pulling for you.

[Live_Love_Learn]

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Thank you so much for caring, it's really nice to have support I'm thinking today was bad because I ate sugar which I've avoided for over a week and my mood was starting to come good. I'm staying off the stuff tomorrow, god knows I don't want to spaz out again like today!! Protein it will be!!

[NoSugar]

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Hi, again, LLL.

I feel awful when I eat too much sugar, as well as it sending my blood sugar into the diabetic range (hence my screen name) so if you feel poorly when you consume it, then by all means, don't!! We don't need it at all -- it just tastes good. For me, AL and sugar have very similar bad consequences in many ways and I'm just much better off without either.

I hope by the time you read this you are having a wonderful day!

:h NS

[gofig07]

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Live_Love_Learn;1507931 wrote: Thanks!! I've been wanting help so badly but way too embarrassed to tell anyone around me! At leat here I can be honest and there are so many great stories here, I'm looking forward to posting my af days!!

I think this site is great for those like us who need support and help but do not want to go "public" with their drinking issues for various reasons. I like the roll call !

[gofig07]

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Live_Love_Learn;1517049 wrote: Big day today, working around the yard and house getting looking nice!! Loving making my home look nice, better than being drunk woohoo day 19

That is awesome !!!:goodjob:

[witts end]

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It is goood to be able to talk to people who are going through the same thing for different reasons
keep up the good work all of you and thank you for your help

[Live_Love_Learn]

I don't feel so alone now!

I'm home alone for the first time in a few days, it was so nice to have company, really great that they helped me around my home but it's lonely. I'm ok though, there's beer and wine in my fridge that they left behind it I'm not the slightest bit interested in drinking it!! Safest thing is going to be getting rid of it though, it can't stay here with me, we can't be together anymore!!! It's not alcohol, it's me, I need to be alone right now!!!
I go away Sunday and leave all my fur kids, that's where my anxiety is sky rocketing right now, I am scared leaving them, my little girl still isn't better and she still needs me but I have to go away for my job there's no two ways about it, if something happens I'm going to fall apart, I guess this is where I need to focus on positive thinking.

[Live_Love_Learn]

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Well thank god I checked my bank account today and discovered my rent hadn't transferred!! EEK!!!!! Eviction, that would have been awkward! Now instead I have 2 weeks with not a cent to my name, hope I can scrounge food for my fur kids as I have JUST ENOUGH dollars and cents to cover their pet sitter while I am away at work and thank god I am away that week, at least they pay for food I suppose I could be worse off. Will be glad when my settlement with my ex is sorted so all the debts he racked up are paid off................ gotta say I'm feeling stressed, that wine in my fridge is whispering to me which is downright SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
At least I have a roof over my head and if I pull apart my freezer I'm sure I can scrape up food for all of us until July 1st........................
OK- Time for me to snap out of oit and think happy thpughts- 24 days AF, nearly hitting 30 AND I have 16 more sleeps until my boyfriend is home, I think I'm desperately in need of a hug from him!!!!!!!

[NoSugar]

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It would be best if you dumped the wine, LLL. I know you don't want to lose what you've worked so hard for!

I'm sorry your situation is tough but you are tougher. :h NS

[free at last]

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Dear L3,
Am sorry to hear of your situation--and sending thoughts of strength your way.
Please dump the alcohol -- all of it. You have worked so hard and, given the stresses in your life right now, you don't want any temptations. I know, I've had to dump several bottles of wine!
Sending you a cyber hug.