I don't feel so alone now!

[Live_Love_Learn]

I don't feel so alone now!

Thanks everyone!! I'm surfing the net to see what is happening, my mood seems really melancholy but it must be just the AF adjustment!
I dumped the sugar after THAT day of being sooky and yesterday was just a stress but I'll get through- I looked at the bottles last night, felt like drinking BUT didn't 'feel' like drinking, probably sounds stupid but its more my brain thinks I want a drink but my body is just going 'nah, I like waking up sober' so I didn't even come close to drinking anything!!!! I can't help thinking how strange it is though, I just feel blue but it could be just adjusting to being aloine after having company for a few days!!!!!
Here's to an exciting Friday for me, getting ready for a week away at work, BIG test! AF tripo, can't say I have EVER achieved that!!!!!!!!
SLEEP IN TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!! What is about sleep at the moment?!?!?!?!??! I'm struggling to wake up!!
I ordered some tinctures last night to help my body since I feel like I'm not losing any weight, the tinctures are supposed to help cleanse the liver and clean your blood so it should be interesting. My mum is taking one of them for her cancer too AND it has helped shrink her tumour...... I bet ots going to taste horrid!! BUT if my body starts forgiving me then it will be worth it!!
Do you think your body hears you when you look at your belly and say 'sprry for being so mean and filling you full of booze, now shrink already!!!!!!' HAHA, phew, my sense of humour must be emerging again after a few dark days!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Have awesome days/ nights peeps- see you tonight on MWO, that's my Friday night sorted and I like it like that XO

[free at last]

I don't feel so alone now!

Dear L3,
Hope you are feeling better -- we all get the blues every now and then, yes? But AL doesn't help that we know.

I travel a lot for my work -- my suggestions for life in hotels -- get to know the gym, pool, whatever you can do to stay away from the hotel bar!

Also, I didn't lose any weight durinig my first 30+ AF days. I am focusing on remaining AF and figure the weight will come off in time.

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I don't feel so alone now!

I am so upset for my fur kids, I hate leaving them, I drank tonight. Back to the start, I really stress leaving them though, they don't help, they cling to me!

[free at last]

I don't feel so alone now!

Dear L3,
I think you know the drill -- drink lots of water, eat something, get some sleep, and start tomorrow committed to your goals. I read how good you were feeling on days 20-22. Getting that back can be yours, if you want it enough. Stay close--we're pulling for you.

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im getting back to AF! Yuck! It was something I think I had to get out of my system though?
Thanks FAL, maybe the moods thus week didn't help, damn the sooky emotions!!!

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I don't feel so alone now!

Well there you have it, a couple of wines but thank god I'm back in track!! Phew, thanks to MWO it's good to get back here and straighten up xo

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I don't feel so alone now!

I understand about making a choice to drink as I have done it several times since late Feb when I really started working toward sobriety. I hear people say it can take several times for a quit to "stick." I also think a plan, exercise, regular healthy meals, and posting on MWO or other accountability threads/meetings are essential. When these items are not part of my arsenal (usually due to travel for work), I have more cravings. Glad to see you are back and ready to work toward your goal. Best wishes for a joyous weekend and successful work trip.

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I don't feel so alone now!

Never mund live-love-learn least your back again

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I don't feel so alone now!

Hey everyone! I'm on the road so posting from my iPhone will mean really bad spelling and grammar!! BUT this is my first work trip AF so I'm sticking close! I'm at work now so onwards and upwards, hopefully I'm not going to go through terrible withdrawals again, surely not?!?!?! OH well, about to find out!

Take care XO

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I don't feel so alone now!

Sorry I'm not posting or messaging on the road. It's hard writing on the iPhone!
I'm starting at day 3 afain but hey, today would have been a month but no looking back, I gotta get their tubby gut off me, that's my motivation!!!

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I don't feel so alone now!

Day 5, would have been 30 but hey, not looking back, a bit disappointed but boy am I loving my sleep and not having a problem with AF at all, a little bit worried from my last experience that I'm going to be hit with enormous headaches but hopefully I'm through the worst of detox!
Not feeling so disgusting today, not touching sugary things, bought chromium tablets to fight sugar cravings if I have any and only having fruit and veges with a small amount of turkey. man I want to get rid of this belly so please universe, be kind to me, don't make me constantly find things to hate about myself, let something nice happen like my gut getting smaller, it will give me some hope that I'm on the right track!

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FAR OUT I FEEL BLOATED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm HUGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don't expect anyone to want to read this,, I need to get it off my chest- sorry guys if you have started reading
Seriously dudes, I don't eat take away, lollies, bread WTF is making me so huge?!?!?!?!?!
Anywho, not having a problem being AF on the work trip, I'm pissed I drank on Friday, this would be my 31st day AF but you know what, I'm just going to stop for one moment beating myself up and trying to run myself and down and look at what I do have and be so excited about my life;
I have an amazing job that I wouldn't have if I didn't work hard/ study hard
Within weeks my house will finally be in my name only, I will nop longer even have to look at the last name of the ex and think about him
I live on an acreage
I LOVE my animals, they have made me feel loved and protected from all the heartache and stress I have had at times
I'm healthy and can do anything I set my mind to
I have the chance to longer accept second best and to love myself and make sure that the people I have in my life love me

sorry for raving!! Have a great day everyone XO

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YAY!!!!!!!!!! Back to my fur kiddies today!!!!!!!! missed them SOO much!! my BF is coming home next week but I'm more excited about seeing my babies!!!!!!!!! I know I will be excited by next weekend to see him though, so excited to spend time with him AF!!!!!!!!!!
Its actually been easier than I thought doing AF away, I am going through deep sleep phases at the moment so I like getting home, getting into daggy clothes and sitting on the couch chilling before bed.
one more week down WOOT WOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I don't feel so alone now!

good for you
L-L-L (shortened it 3L's )

hey don't look back
yesterday was history
to-morrow is a mystry
to-day is a present so enjoy

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I don't feel so alone now!

I think it was Jenniech who said "look back, but don't stare at it." Made me think about driving a car -- I check the sides and rearview window, but for the most part, I'm looking forward. That's how I have come to treat my AF journey. Onward.