I am finally ready but I need help.

[Byrdlady]

I am finally ready but I need help.

Bahaha.....once you get this disease under control, then we'll tackle The Disease to Please! You are going to feel great after we are finished with you!!! :H:H:H
I'm so glad you're here! Byrdie

[spiderwoman]

I am finally ready but I need help.

Hi MossRose

You're doing incredibly well and should be proud of yourself. You'll probably get several things happen that you wouldn't have coped with drunk. Shortly after I quit my dog was sick and I had to drive to a vet 15 miles away, that would have been impossible a couple of months before and being able to handle things independently is very empowering, especially early in the process.

I've found it a bit of a rollercoaster in as much as you have the odd bout of misery as memories come flooding back but they are just that, memories, you can't do anything about them other than have a good cry if you need one then file them in the archive of your brain, dwelling on past misdemeanours will serve no purpose.

Looking forward to reading more from you in the future

Sylv

[Live_Love_Learn]

I am finally ready but I need help.

Hi MR,
You are doing great and being truthful to yourself and writing it down will help you get through the tough days!! I still wont tell my family or friends that I can't drink again, although, I doubt they are that stupid- my parents used to stress me out no end so I would be throwing back the wine and scotch to numb myself while peope around me would sip on one or two drinks!!
I've realised that I have been so lucky nothing truly serious has happened to me or my pets while I have been drunk, don't worry, I've got injuries but it isn't until ypi are sober the next day the pain kicks in and you take yourself up to the hospital!! Now being 15 days AF I feel so happy that I would handle an emergency without any problems since I have a clear head!
I refuse to dwell though and so should you MR, what we are doing takes strength and that in itself makes us deserve to be proud of what we are doing, not everyone can do this, it may take a couple of attempts for others but look around us, be blessed we have gorgeous people here who know exactly what we feel and have felt crappy about themselves too- but we are all CHOOSING to change!! Thats got to feel good yeah? that alone has to make you smile

[bcp2013]

I am finally ready but I need help.

We all probably started the same,socially drinking ,than poof,we drank all the time,or almost every evening,now we are free of the demon,alcohol,we can be hangover free,and in it,anyway just thought 'd put my 2 cents in.have a great night,we are all on the same path now,recovery from alcohol,we can do it,nice to have our wits about us aye.

[free at last]

I am finally ready but I need help.

Dear MR, your honesty and clarity are wonderful. Sending you thoughts of strength across the net.

[MossRose]

I am finally ready but I need help.

We have a family tradition. Potato pancake night. It started with my German grandmother, and passed down through the generations. I haven't had the energy or desire to host one in many years. Tonight, I decided it was time. Both my sons, my nephew and their girlfriends came for dinner. There was laughter in my home again. It has been so long since my home has been a happy place. A very good night.

[Byrdlady]

I am finally ready but I need help.

That is just a wonderful note!! It is amazing how much better everything can be when you aren't being led around by a dang bottle. I am so happy for you!! Thanks for sharing this story....Byrdie

[NoSugar]

I am finally ready but I need help.

MossRose;1516124 wrote: We have a family tradition. Potato pancake night. It started with my German grandmother, and passed down through the generations. I haven't had the energy or desire to host one in many years. Tonight, I decided it was time. Both my sons, my nephew and their girlfriends came for dinner. There was laughter in my home again. It has been so long since my home has been a happy place. A very good night.

WOW, if you feel that much better after 1 week, what in the heck are you going to be doing after 2 weeks? A month? and more :H !?! I'm really impressed! At 1 week I was still wrapped in fleece blankets and going to bed by 8 pm!

So, how do you make potato pancakes and what do you eat with them?

:h NS

[MossRose]

I am finally ready but I need help.

NS - not doing so well. Truthfully, I feel like I'm constantly on the verge of a panic attack these last few days. But I have to stay busy. Super busy, or I'm afraid I will drink again. I do better when people are around. It's when I'm alone that I struggle the most. Luckily, the apple fell far from the tree and neither one of my sons nor my nephew drink. Isn't that a beautiful thing.

My grandmother's potato pancake recipe:

Peel and grate raw potatoes. I usually use my food processor. Approx. 1-2 medium potatoes per person.
Grate 1/2 to 1 whole onion (depending on how many potatoes you use)
Add 1 egg, and sprinkle a small amount of flour into potato mixture to thicken.
Salt

Heat oil over medium high heat in a skillet. Fry pancakes until brown on both sides.

This is so completely unhealthy. But so delicious.

[Kradle123]

I am finally ready but I need help.

Moss I love your Avatar! And thank you so much for your recipe. I was going to ask for it. :chef:

:l

[NoSugar]

I am finally ready but I need help.

MossRose;1516153 wrote: NS - not doing so well. Truthfully, I feel like I'm constantly on the verge of a panic attack these last few days. But I have to stay busy. Super busy, or I'm afraid I will drink again. I do better when people are around. It's when I'm alone that I struggle the most. Luckily, the apple fell far from the tree and neither one of my sons nor my nephew drink. Isn't that a beautiful thing.

My grandmother's potato pancake recipe:

Peel and grate raw potatoes. I usually use my food processor. Approx. 1-2 medium potatoes per person.
Grate 1/2 to 1 whole onion (depending on how many potatoes you use)
Add 1 egg, and sprinkle a small amount of flour into potato mixture to thicken.
Salt

Heat oil over medium high heat in a skillet. Fry pancakes until brown on both sides.

This is so completely unhealthy. But so delicious.

Thanks for the recipe, MossRose! YUM

How are you doing today? I'm sorry you suffer panic attacks. That sounds like a hard thing to deal with on top of the work involved in getting over an addiction.

The good news re: dumping AL is that the physical aspects don't last very long and then it is a matter of getting your head in the right place. As I've typed so often that you guys are probably sick of hearing/reading me --- read and post and read and post. Different parts of your brain are involved in these activities and somehow, it helps us make the necessary transformation from feeling deprived because we can't drink to being relieved that we don't have to.

I wish I could bottle and distribute how I feel each day when I remember that I don't have to go to battle at ~ 4 pm any longer. It used to be that I was completely aware of what time it was beginning the minute I finished lunch - just waiting... waiting... til it was "late enough" to have a glass of wine. Now I get involved in what I'm doing and sometimes don't even get dinner started until my husband walks in about 6:30 or so and I realize how late it is! I'm no longer a slave to the clock or to alcohol!

Stick with it you guys!! Get enough AF days behind you that cashing them in is just too big of a price to pay.

Love, NS

[K9Lover]

I am finally ready but I need help.

Whenever I am out at night, I look around and can't believe that other people are out and sober. I guess I thought what I used to do was "normal". I'd start drinking at 5:30 or 6, which meant I was stuck at home all night (in theory, don't get me wrong, I drove drunk TOO many times to get more beer). But to go out and see people at the gym at 9pm or at Walmart...huh...that was all new to me! So yes NS, I completely relate to your comment about not being a slave to the clock anymore...I actually have ALL night to do what I want now...and I can drive (legally) any old time too!

Moss - Sorry you're battling panic and anxiety...I know that sucks! For me, it went away completely after a few weeks of not drinking. Alcohol was CAUSING it. I know that may not be the case for you, but I do hope that it starts to ease up soon. Not sure if you've been to the doctor, but if not, can you go? I'm glad you had a fun night at home with your family...and the food sounds deeelicious!

[kambob]

I am finally ready but I need help.

Yep, funny about that anxiety thing. I was just a couple of days in when I noticed it had all but disappeared...there I was all those years justifying my drinking as a way to alleviate the nervousness and free-floating anxiety, and it just went POOOOF.

That's not to say that everything is sunshine and roses, but when I'm worrying or anxious about something now, there's an actual reason for it. And 'cos I don't have booze playing funny buggers with my brain, I'm in a better position to deal with it.

kambob

[witts end]

I am finally ready but I need help.

hang in there moss rose have you been to the doctors to help you
I take liquid st jhns wart (gets into the system quicker )
plus some vitamins especially vitamin b

[MossRose]

I am finally ready but I need help.

I drank. Dammit!

I'm sorry,
MR