Starting Today Accountability thread

[NoSugar]

Starting Today Accountability thread

hazeleyes;1520362 wrote:

So onwards to week 2 more positive that this is a good path to be on. Hope I can make it stick.

Thanks for reading!

Forget Hope - you can make it stick. This is totally your choice and you have made good ones for 7 days! :goodjob:
CONGRATULATIONS!!!

[free at last]

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Great progress hazel eyes -- keep going.

[hazeleyes]

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Thanks no sugar, and free at last.

Day 8
I have started to think Al masked the problems in my life that I don't want to face. They are sharply in focus now and I feel afraid, as they feel soul destroying. Things like never being a mother, having no contact with any of my family, having no friends...

I am sad, but Al is not the solution. What is? I don't want to end my marriage!

[thelaststraw]

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yes, difficult stuff. Keep on here, you will like it.

-S-

[NoSugar]

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hazeleyes;1520704 wrote: Thanks no sugar, and free at last.

Day 8
I have started to think Al masked the problems in my life that I don't want to face. They are sharply in focus now and I feel afraid, as they feel soul destroying. Things like never being a mother, having no contact with any of my family, having no friends...

I am sad, but Al is not the solution. What is? I don't want to end my marriage!

Hazeleyes, count US as friends. We are!!

Strange as it sounds, some of my friends here know much more about me than my real life friends. The anonymity of a forum such as this allows us to drop all the poses and pretensions and just be ourselves. It is a very comfortable and supportive place to be.

A forum such as this is not equipped to do the type of counseling you might need. Therapy can be a powerful adjunct -- dealing with the reasons you drank will help you stay committed to not drinking. Now that you aren't self-medicating them away, they probably are hitting you full force. I'm sorry you are facing tough things. Please feel free to come here and write about all that. We can't fix it but we can listen and will understand much of where you are coming from.

Stay with us!! :h NS

[free at last]

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Hazel eyes, agree with NS. You are among friends here.

My emotions have been all over the map since I started this journey. I can say that regular, healthy meals helps me keep some kind of perspective on things.

We are here for you.

[RitaNow]

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Great start! I am on day 4 and could have written your post. I've been here before. To many times to count, but unlike before ... I am planning on using my thread to log my journey. From day 1 I felt accountable to the darn thread! I translate that to accountable to the voice in my head that says STOP IT. (Not the AD voice that says ... DRINK!)

Take it easy the next few days. Yes ... drink lots of water and eat a lot of protein.

Will look forward to seeing you move PAST day 7. You Can do it.

[3June2013]

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Hazel Eyes maybe in time you can rebuild your relationships with your children and your family. You are taking steps to improve yourself and once they see you are serious I bet they'll start to come around!

[hazeleyes]

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Thanks 3june, Ritanow, freeatlast, and Nosugar. I appreciate your comments, support and advice.

Day 9
Still AF, the voices inmy head are quieter today. Working on acceptance and being grateful for my life as it is. Visiting a friend in hospital, so glad I have my health.

[Live_Love_Learn]

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Hey everyone! Its great to be here and AF! This is my FIRST EVER work trip AF!! 3 days in and not even the slightest not interested, I go back to my room, get in my daggy pyjamas and sit in front of the tv with the heater on!!!!! LOVE IT!!
Hazeleyes- I hope you have a better day today, sometimes I have moments like yours and tell myself its my body adjusting to actually letting myself 'feel emotions' rather than dull them with alcohol. I'm not ashamed to say that I've even had a cry!! It's sometimes been over the littlest thing like a small text saying hi from a friend!!
I hope you are ok XO

[jenniech]

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hazeleyes
you are doing great...the saying goes: one day at a time.....that can be difficult when you are swimming in emotions that don't feel good and you are doing this one minute at a time....BUT stay the course because once you get to the other side you will be so HAPPY you did!! Slowly but surely, with each AF day your life changes....you might not even notice it at first....and then all of a sudden, you will look at your life and realize you have so much to be grateful for that you would not have if you were drinking.

Life is not easy and life is not perfect and being AF will not make your problems disappear. But being AF will give you the POWER to deal with problems head on!! It is truly that simple and that amazing.

When I was in your stage of being AF and those voices were screaming at me, I tried to look at myself objectively (meditating is really helpful for this). why is my head screaming? Analyze it. Pretend you are a doctor curing yourself. It may not be comfortable but the worthwhile things in life are worth the struggle.

Good luck and keep posting!!!!! We are here for you friend!

[hazeleyes]

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Thanks Jenniech - now that's some good advice that hits home. Sounds like you know where I'm at...!

Day 10
Great to be AF. Feeling like I am getting stronger and able to reach out to other people with less fear. Having some good talks with my husband about life and that's important to me. Great to see so many others on here progressing well with many days, weeks etc AF. It's certainly helps to read about your successes.

I love being AF because its worth the struggle, on the other side.

[3June2013]

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hazel eyes how are you doing these days?

[hazeleyes]

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Hello 3june

Thanks for asking. I am doing great. Still AF and loving the new life. Discovered that I needed to address a lot of fear in my life about dealing with people, and being rejected. But with a clear head this has been easy to work through, or more accurately I have had the courage to face it honestly.

I have has a few arguments with my husband as I explain how I deserve to be treated with respect, but we have both come out the other side with a better understanding of each other. It has been a long time since I haven't had a hangover and I thing my emotional maturity stopped awhile ago. I have let things slide instead of addressing them with my husband.

My husband is amazed that I have stayed off the AL for so long but doesn't want to ask too many questions in case he ruins it for me.

Life is definitely a lot better, but still challenging. A challenge I now feel I can start to beat...

I wish you well in your own journey...

[3June2013]

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hazel eyes I'm so happy to hear you're doing well. Does hubby drink? I think I avoided talking about quitting at first for a couple of reasons. First because I wasn't sure I could do it. Second because it drew attention to the fact that I wasn't a normal drinker. I still don't think my hubby gets it ( he never drank) but I asked him to be patient and see how my not drinking changes our relationship. We seem to be getting on better than we were. I guess drinking made me say things I might not have when sober. But being sober I have to learn to talk all over again. Does that make sense? Anyway keep talking to hubby, it will only help! PS congrats you are AF over two weeks now right?