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    #46
    Sweating it out .... I'm quitting this insanity

    Ya, RITA, it's like I forget WHY I quit. Strange.

    Ya, thanks for putting out what's on our mind - made me giggle to hear you say that.

    -S-

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      #47
      Sweating it out .... I'm quitting this insanity

      LostSoul33;1522865 wrote: Congrats RitaNow! Looks like weve had a similar week. I am right there with you sister!
      :goodjob: Lost Soul .... I think I need to start calling you "Soul Sister" .... I can help your "lost soul" condition!!!! :l

      -S- (Last Straw) ... Hope you had a good weekend! Someone gave me the advice that when you are in early recovery ... (I actually hate that word ... I'd rather call it redemption!) ... that a person shouldn't "think" to much. So when you aren't "expressing" it's okay ... just turn off the "think" button!! :H

      My Update:
      Today is the first day I feel some relief of fear. Just getting past 10 days eases my fear of having a withdrawal crisis. Now I am at the point where detox is done, and now I can focus on the business of healing ... Mentally, Spiritually and Physically. Whew ... breathing easier!

      Today was such a good day overall. The weather was perfect ... after getting some work done this afternoon DH and I took a drive and a walk on a beautiful bike path that we had never been on. HAVEN'T DONE THAT IN YEARS. He didn't want to take the walk when we first started, but after we were done ... he thanked me several times for insisting. The AF life is going to be healthy for my marriage.

      Something I need to work on .... more sleep! This past 10 days have been poor quality sleep. So I should start tonight by turning the computer off!

      Nite!
      Put your hands over your heart - and tell yourself that you are going to guard this essence of who you are with everything. Alcohol opens us up to darkness and depression instantly. You choose love today. Guard it by keeping the poison out of your body. It IS poison.



      NF - May 2, 2013 (cig free Jan. 25, 2013)
      AF - July 31, 2013
      :lordhelpme:

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        #48
        Sweating it out .... I'm quitting this insanity

        RITA, I love, love, love your signature.

        -S-

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          #49
          Sweating it out .... I'm quitting this insanity

          thelaststraw;1523171 wrote: RITA, I love, love, love your signature.

          -S-
          Thanks -S- ! I didn't actually go to bed like I said I was going to ... I went over to the 'What We Believe' section and got wrapped up in the "I Believe in Jesus" --- Woza ... Proud of you for holding your ground! Jesus IS Lord - and One Day 'EVERY KNEE WILL BOW AND CONFESS JESUS IS LORD" ....

          Makes me shutter to think of some of the words spoken over there ringing in their heads for a very long and horrid eternity.

          Anyway ... Now I am closing it down for the night!! Later!
          Put your hands over your heart - and tell yourself that you are going to guard this essence of who you are with everything. Alcohol opens us up to darkness and depression instantly. You choose love today. Guard it by keeping the poison out of your body. It IS poison.



          NF - May 2, 2013 (cig free Jan. 25, 2013)
          AF - July 31, 2013
          :lordhelpme:

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            #50
            Sweating it out .... I'm quitting this insanity

            RITA, I hope you had a good sleep....I did.

            How are you doing this morning? Do you have plans for today?

            I plan a "deep vacuum" at my house after the gym - should take all day. Gotta get in and out of town before the bottle stores open so I can succeed on day 11.

            -S-

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              #51
              Sweating it out .... I'm quitting this insanity

              Hi Rita!!!!

              Just wanted to let you know how much I enjoyed reading your thread...your taking this head on like a champ and were all rooting for you your determination, enthusiasm and conviction will get you through. Keep fighting that mental battle every day, and remember that every time you have that converation in your head and don't drink you have won yet again.

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                #52
                Sweating it out .... I'm quitting this insanity

                Hi Rita,
                Been away from internet for several days so just now caught up on your thread. You are doing so well. Keep going!
                Free at Last
                "What you seek is seeking you." -- Rumi

                Highly recommend this video
                http://www.ted.com/talks/brene_brown_on_vulnerability.html

                July 19, 2013 -- the beginning of being Free at Last

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                  #53
                  Sweating it out .... I'm quitting this insanity

                  Day 13 Complete

                  Hey .... How's everyone doing??!! I've been crazy busy these past couple of days and haven't even on the computer!!! Ikes!!! But I'm doing pretty good! I was super crabby ((((AGAIN))))) yesterday ... but today I was to busy to be crabby.

                  I just wanted to check in - I'll write more tomorrow. Just so glad to have 13 AF days behind me. Hope you are all right here running beside me!!!! :h
                  Put your hands over your heart - and tell yourself that you are going to guard this essence of who you are with everything. Alcohol opens us up to darkness and depression instantly. You choose love today. Guard it by keeping the poison out of your body. It IS poison.



                  NF - May 2, 2013 (cig free Jan. 25, 2013)
                  AF - July 31, 2013
                  :lordhelpme:

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                    #54
                    Sweating it out .... I'm quitting this insanity

                    Hi Rita tomorrow is two weeks that's fantastic! Don't worry about being crabby, it goes away.
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                      #55
                      Sweating it out .... I'm quitting this insanity

                      2 weeks!!!! Yaaahooo!

                      RitaNow;1519392 wrote: I sit here, after another day (of many) telling myself ... "tomorrow" ... tomorrow I will stop this insanity.

                      Well - the insanity must stop right now. Right this second. And for every second that I have from this moment forward.

                      I pray this journey is one where I can look back and mark the evening of June 13 as the day that the insanity was left in the past.

                      Good night and good bye to a habit that brings me nothing but misery. Hello to tomorrows of sunrises and hope.
                      I can't believe it was 2 weeks ago - I will never forget that night. I had been DRINKING ALL DAY. I took a nap (passed out) mid afternoon - and woke up horrified. I felt like my life was melting down the drain. I was so depressed. The rest of the day I had a couple of drinks (I think ... I really can't remember). I was exhausted, but coherent when I was sitting in bed with my computer - and got on MWO website. I KNEW if I was going to stop .... I needed this community. Because you are a GREAT community.

                      I know I have a LONG way to go ... just to heal my liver, my brain, my emotions ..... But I have HOPE like I haven't had in a loooooooog time.

                      Here is a shout out to all the awesome peeps here!!! :thanks:
                      Put your hands over your heart - and tell yourself that you are going to guard this essence of who you are with everything. Alcohol opens us up to darkness and depression instantly. You choose love today. Guard it by keeping the poison out of your body. It IS poison.



                      NF - May 2, 2013 (cig free Jan. 25, 2013)
                      AF - July 31, 2013
                      :lordhelpme:

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                        #56
                        Sweating it out .... I'm quitting this insanity

                        What a transformation in a mere 2 weeks! I'm so happy for you! :h NS

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                          #57
                          Sweating it out .... I'm quitting this insanity

                          RitaNow;1524972 wrote: I can't believe it was 2 weeks ago - I will never forget that night. I had been DRINKING ALL DAY. I took a nap (passed out) mid afternoon - and woke up horrified. I felt like my life was melting down the drain. I was so depressed. The rest of the day I had a couple of drinks (I think ... I really can't remember). I was exhausted, but coherent when I was sitting in bed with my computer - and got on MWO website. I KNEW if I was going to stop .... I needed this community. Because you are a GREAT community.

                          I know I have a LONG way to go ... just to heal my liver, my brain, my emotions ..... But I have HOPE like I haven't had in a loooooooog time.

                          Here is a shout out to all the awesome peeps here!!! :thanks:
                          Big well done to you Rita on 2 weeks:goodjob:

                          Like you, I've a long way to go but at least now am on the right track with hope and with the priceless support here

                          Best wishes to you xx

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                            #58
                            Sweating it out .... I'm quitting this insanity

                            YAY, RITA,
                            You are past 2 weeks now, yes? Thanking God. I know I am for you.

                            I am working on day 15, with 14 behind me. AIN'T IT GRAND????

                            Awesome turn around from fuzzy and hazy to bright and clear. huh?

                            -S-

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                              #59
                              Sweating it out .... I'm quitting this insanity

                              Day 16 is about to be put to Bed!!! Thank you Lord! Last Straw ... you should be done with day 16 yes?!!!!!!!

                              OK peeps -- we have almost made it through 3 full weekends. I am looking for that 30 day. I just don't think I'll breath until then! But things are going so good. I really feel like I'm in a groove with my diet ... eating a high Protein diet now feels great. I really think it makes all the difference in my AF days. If I'm not craving carbs ... I'm not craving AL. Maybe I'll have to stay off carbs for a lifetime .... :H

                              I've also been taking a walk ... every day. I'm not breaking any speed records - but the fresh air has been healing, and the endorphins must be waking up because I'm looking forward to it each day. Maybe my new addiction could be endorphins through exercise ... ya. That's the ticket.

                              DH and I went to the movie tonight. White House Down. It was a nice Saturday night distraction. It is the FIRST time I've ever gone to the movie with no popcorn.

                              Today was also the first day that my crabby button didn't get pushed. I guess I had a couple of "annoyed" moments - but at large they were less than the usual. 3June - I think you are right - it will eventually go away!!!

                              Hope everyone else is enjoying this June evening - Clean and Sober and Hopeful and Happy.

                              R.
                              Put your hands over your heart - and tell yourself that you are going to guard this essence of who you are with everything. Alcohol opens us up to darkness and depression instantly. You choose love today. Guard it by keeping the poison out of your body. It IS poison.



                              NF - May 2, 2013 (cig free Jan. 25, 2013)
                              AF - July 31, 2013
                              :lordhelpme:

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                                #60
                                Sweating it out .... I'm quitting this insanity

                                Yes, RITA - 16 is done and over. Congrats on your 16. We are over 1/2 way to day 30 ! ! !

                                -S-

                                RitaNow;1525994 wrote: Day 16 is about to be put to Bed!!! Thank you Lord! Last Straw ... you should be done with day 16 yes?!!!!!!!


                                R.

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