Sweating it out .... I'm quitting this insanity

[TheSunFlower]

Sweating it out .... I'm quitting this insanity

You are simply living on a very low level when you are full of poison or trying to rid it from your body. Part of reinventing myself is filling myself with all kinds of stuff. I look at how people live that I want to be like. You simply would not find them filling themselves with poisonous stuff, whether it be al or negative stuff. They spend their time creating the life they want.

Just watched the TED talk by Bene Brown.....wow!

I am creating a life where al just does not fit in. Just being AF was never enough for me. A big case of the poor me I can't drink! Even being AF....I wasted so much time! Now I can't drink in the knowledge I was missing out on fast enough

[NoSugar]

Sweating it out .... I'm quitting this insanity

Hi,

I do read your posts and really enjoy the love and support you offer one another :l.

SF, I just watched both of Bren? Brown's TED talks that you referred to. They should be required viewing for everyone on MWO! Thanks so much for bringing her to my attention.

Have a good day! :h Stalker NS

[TheSunFlower]

Sweating it out .... I'm quitting this insanity

NoSugar.....great to hear from you. You had poked in awhile go. I know that many do not share the religious beliefs.....heck if you told me a year ago I would be thinking along these lines.....Never would have believed you!

Yes, the Brene Brown Ted Talk is great. My yoga teacher mentioned her. I was blown away.

Yesterday, I saw three things where addiction was mention by big people in their field....I think people nod along.....but when it comes to alcohol addiction.... Shame is still at the forefront of blocking people to get help....which aids in denial.

Not too long ago I saw a movement encouraging people to stop being anonymous. Put a real face on this. By stepping up and out...people would see that "normal" people are affected by this. Does not make us weak willed or bums under the street. Quite the opposite.

Rather....I see alcoholics as very strong people. To be a drunk takes a lot o work. Strength to function through hangovers. That just keeps pace with peers, sober watch out....because once we direct that energy into positive things...nobody can stop us. Creativity.....who else can come up with better excuses to drink, call off work or why we are not drinking. I was doing a 50 hour work week in possibly 20 productive hours. Weak willed my behind

And to have the courage to stand up and fight this thing head on.....one needs to be fearless.

[Miley]

Sweating it out .... I'm quitting this insanity

NS-Good to see you in the thread and you are not a stalker...LOL (you have been my angel).

Sunflower.....I love the way you look at things...it takes the self-pitty out of this whole thing and is very empowering.

[RitaNow]

Sweating it out .... I'm quitting this insanity

TheSunFlower;1544696 wrote: You are simply living on a very low level when you are full of poison or trying to rid it from your body. Part of reinventing myself is filling myself with all kinds of stuff. I look at how people live that I want to be like. You simply would not find them filling themselves with poisonous stuff, whether it be al or negative stuff. They spend their time creating the life they want.

Just watched the TED talk by Bene Brown.....wow!

I am creating a life where al just does not fit in. Just being AF was never enough for me. A big case of the poor me I can't drink! Even being AF....I wasted so much time! Now I can't drink in the knowledge I was missing out on fast enough

Love this! I needed a "Theme" to motivate me and REINVENTING MYSELF is it!!! I love the attitude of "creating a life where Al just does not fit in".

Tell me how to watch the TED talk ... is it on YouTube? Tell me more!!

Well - I am feeling my mood lifting after being really mellow since getting back from Vacation. I think I felt a little let down after all of that planning. So how did I deal with it instead of drinking? Eating and shopping. I know .... that is a recipe for disaster.

Tonight I feel better. I was suppose to go to a family gathering (where I knew there would be lots of drinking). I drug my feet and kept delaying leaving. I finally decided that I had to take care of myself by not subjecting myself to all of the drinking. I love my family very very much - but I find myself stressed when I'm with them - even though I love being with them. So I bailed and didn't go. Instead of feeling my usual guilt ... I felt empowered for taking care of my sober health above all else. Right now, I just need to recognize that I'm my own worst enemy when it comes to putting myself in situations that I know are triggers. I know I'll gain the strength with reinventing myself to be able to handle these gatherings.

I'm working all weekend, because of taking time off last week - so next week the routine will get back to normal and I can spend more time with you all! I have loved reading the conversation here and know that anyone who reads along with us will be Blessed. Were like a reality TV show! Real life ... play by play.

I have a great prayer book called "Prayers that Avail Much". If you all don't own it - it's a MUST. It prays scripture over various situations. I believe you are so correct Sun Flower when you mentioned that God has a plan for us and so does Satan. Praying for God's protection against Satan's plan for us is so important. When people call Alcohol "Spirits" ... I believe that's LITERAL. It opens our minds to really dark things. That's why there are so many ALcohol influenced crimes committed.

Hugs to you dear ones -
Time for bed

[TheSunFlower]

Sweating it out .... I'm quitting this insanity

Rita when you said "spirits" it made me laugh...I posted this about a week ago in abs...we can not say "spirits" in the ad either....I remarked to my manger later..."why does it cause you to see dead people or cause you to become one?"

My work has me in a (good) nutty mood about al. We had to shoot a commercial for my wine client today. Due to new network rules here are the notes I had to write down for the shoot.

Beer and wine are ok. No distilled liquor, it promotes al abuse. (Apparently they never saw me with a 12 pack of miller lite)
Can't have person holding a glass of wine, because it gives the viewer the impression the person is going to drink it. ()
Drink responsibly has to be in the ad, so the viewer thinks the store is looking out for their best interest.
Don't drink and drive....needs to be in the commercial. (I could never drive and hold a beer at the same time anyways). I always thought it should be "Don't drink and then drive"....but then I guess no one would ever leave the bar

Today I was out with the producer and a group of people were joyfully drinking in the office. No spittoon today. It started to awaken cell ways I was uncomfortable with....so I checked with the producer and left.

Busy day tomorrow....

[TheSunFlower]

Sweating it out .... I'm quitting this insanity

Rita good for you taking care of yourself. Why do we fret over these things? Go or not to go. Usually if you have to ask yourself that "not going" should be the simple answer. But, yet we fret.

Miley....only another alkie has any clue of what we endured. But, honestly I find ex-alkies the most productive people. All that enery is now directed at positive things.

Reinventing yourself is awesome....recently a co-worker said to me...."we will chat over water". Someone commented...."water???".....he just looked at them matter of factly and said..."well she does't drink". Amazing that I am becoming known as a non-drinker.

For me that is the highest compliment. Being a non-drinker has so many positive attributes to it. And implies that I am strong enough to handle life without a drink

[Miley]

Sweating it out .... I'm quitting this insanity

Rita....Good to see you back! Hope you are recovering from vacation. I just went in July and I need another one! You guys are cracking me up with the Spirits thing....it is so true, if you think about it.

I am getting ready to get into a situation similar to Rita's. My Step-Sister's baby shower is in September. I am VERY stressed around my family. I haven't seen my Step-Dad in 4 years. I am afraid that by being around them that it will be a trigger for me. I am thinking about skipping the shower and sending a gift. They will be mad but then even if I showed up they probably would find something to be mad about anyway.

Rita....intersting what you said about our mind being open to really dark things when we are drinking. It's like opening a door to all kinds of stuff. I have done and said things that I would NEVER say or do, if I had not been drinking.

Keep praying for protection and strength ladies!