Day 1

[BNRS]

Hi I am a newcomer now starting out. I have drank for 20 years and have lost 1 marriage 2 kids to my alcoholism. I recently lost another loved one . This is my first day of sobriety. I have not drank for 24hours and feel like hell. I used to be up to 750mls of 100 proff Vodka per day.

Struggling but determined to beat this. I have a good job but afraid this will be in jeopardy if this drinking continues.

Hoping to find support here.:thanks:

[Cinders]

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BNRS,

:welcome: If you need to go to ER for withdrawals, please do.

Otherwise, we are very glad you are here and are willing to give you all the support you need.

Weekends can be fairly quiet with so many busy with friends and such but people will log in and post from time to time today.

Poke around and see if you can find a thread you feel comfortable with. The Newbies Nest and the Tool Box are two we usually recommend to newbies.

The Newbies Nest is a thread for those such as you who are new to MWO and new to sobriety.

The Tool Box is a thread that has some very good wisdom about tools to help us stay sober. I visit it frequently, myself.

I am sorry about the loss of your family and loved ones from alcohol. You will find you are not the only one here to have that happen.

You can turn your life around and find good purpose in living without alcohol.

Cindi

[mlisa]

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Good luck BNRS. I'm only on day 2. I was drinking beer in the day, would start on wine at 5pm at the very latest & would get through at least 2 bottles every day. Never remembered going to bed, always felt awful & tired, depressed, low self esteem....all the usual things. Here's to us all in our journey to sobriety!

[3June2013]

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BNRS hello and welcome to the first day of the rest of your life! We are all in this together, I'm two weeks AF today and feeling pretty strong. Just emptied the house of AL this morning, on advice from others here. Out of sight out of mind? Not really but it helps knowing it isn't easily accessible. You're feeling like shit physically? Mentally? Emotionally? All three? Talk to us, we want to help.

[witts end]

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bnrs welcome
we all felt losey in the beginning but it gets better ......trust us
I'm at day 18 and I also drank wine of a night and would blackout and not have any recolection as to what I did or said
Like 3j says it helps to talk and let others know how you are feeling so they can help

[hazeleyes]

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Welcome BNRS

Read lots on here, and keep posting. This helped me to get to Day 7 today. It's worth the struggle...

cheering you on!
H

[Byrdlady]

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BNRS, Welcome aboard!
Weekends are quiet, but you'll always find some activity over in the Newbie's Nest! The link is in my signature line below. We have folks in all stages of quitting there. Also, spend some time in the Tool Box (link also below) there are 100s of tips and coping skills to help you thru the first challenging days. My best tip for this day is to keep your belly full, stay hydrated and keep reading and posting. You are in great company here, I have a long history of drinking...25 years or so, and I have been able to find my way out here. I learned to check my ego at the door and listen to others who have gone before me and it has worked! We are so glad you found us! Jump right in!!! I'll look for you over in the nest! Byrdie

[BNRS]

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Day 2 - Made it through

Thanks so much to all of your posts. It means so much to get this support and advice.

Yesterday fathers day I had to look at one of my daughters 10 years of age who I have not seen in 3 years and try to explain my absence and my drinking. I broke down . I could only say that I was sick and that there was no medication for what I had.

I can't tell you the shame I felt . It was hard because after that I felt resolve and now today the shame and difficulty I am facing trying to reestablish that relationship has me feeling depressed. Counting down the hours to say I made it through day 3 today.

Never thought in my lifetime I would be one of the people who could bring sufferage and grief to an innocent child. :thanks:

[Byrdlady]

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AL robs us of so much. That is why it is paramount to keep in the front of your mind that AL is the ENEMY and not your friend. AL has caused all of these problems and only by severing your ties with it can you move forward and repair these relationships. It is never too late to repair them! I'm seeing that in my own life. If you keep moving forward AF your life will improve by leaps and bounds. Self respect returns and forgiveness of your past will follow. You are making the positive steps today and that's all you can do. One day at a time...one moment at a time. You can't step into the future carrying the burdens of the past. All the best is yet to come. Byrdie

[kdog]

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BNRS, wanted to welcome you to a great site! Please be careful and seek your doctor if needed. How are you feeling on day 2?
I know, I have been a fairly heavy drinker mostly in the past 10 years, but have always had a few in the evenings to relax, then the next thing you know, it lead to 1 more etc etc. The first few days are hard, drink lots of water, and I felt gator aid helped me too!
I also want to add, I have tripped and fallen several times, but hope this last one was my last! Cause I sure as hell don't want to go through those first ugly days of withdrawal again! Good luck on your journey!:welcome:
Kdog

[Phin]

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Welcome!

I'm on Day 1 for the millionth time. I'm really hoping this is the end of this crazy merry-go-round, that's not too damn merry!

I'm sorry for all your pain and suffering, but hold onto how it makes you feel, and next time you feel yourself being sucked back into that bottle, remember that feeling. Hopefully it will be enough to say NO!

xo

[Live_Love_Learn]

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Hi BNRS! Welcome to MWO, it's awesome! without it I would have a lame excuse to keep drinking whatever had alcohol content in my house, well, luckily didnt get THAT bad, but OMG could I consume booze! I could quietly sit there and drink 2-3 times more than anyone else at a party and just be thinking 'god I want to go home so I can drink in private and don't feel so self concious'
People here are an inspiration and they can help you! Stay close XO

[RitaNow]

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HI BNRS!

I have just completed day 4 myself. I still have a headache - but had a better day today than the previous 3! From past quitting (yes ... here I am again .... after having quit before) I know by day 10 I feel fantastic. (also about when I start drinking again). We get feeling good and suddenly forget why we CAN'T drink! I suggest posting a note about how you are feeling each day on this thread- so in the event you listen to that addictive voice calling .... you can RUN to this site and READ first. We want to FORGIVE ourselves. NOT FORGET why we are not drinking. EVER!

Just be easy on yourself right now ... there will be plenty of time for sorting all of those feeling out once you have some Alcohol free days behind you. Something that has helped me in these early days is telling yourself ... "THINKING IS NOT YOUR FRIEND RIGHT NOW!". Once our brains come out of the ALcoHoL fog .... we RACE to try to sort it all out in our minds. It's to overwhelming this early. Just EXIST in this cleaning it out of your system stage. Focus on NOT putting the poison gas into your body!

Keep the thread going with your thoughts. It will help you - and it helps me!

[3June2013]

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How was day 3?

[BNRS]

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Now unto day 4 !!

I got up this morning full of energy, it feels GREAT !!

I remember getting up every morning being in that suspended state between sleep and wake and always saying I have to stop this you're destroying yourself only to do it again. It feels like a real weight has been lifted. Ohh and a quotation from a movie came to mind i had what alcoholics called "a moment of clarity" and suddenly the burdens I had carried are gone. I know its still early in the game and have read about being wary of these moments but for now I just feel great !:thanks:

Thanks for all your posts they are really an encouragement. I love you all.