Hi All,
I have been 'googling' for a forum such as this today.
I am 25 and tbh just completely fed up of my drinking. I feel immature, irresponsible and a bad friend/son/brother to my friends and family.
I had my first drunk experience at the age of 16. All good fun at the time.
I have been socially drinking since 18 - often out once a week on Saturdays with friends. Most of these outings would end in ridiculous levels of alcohol consumed and suicidal hangovers the following day. It was part of being young, free and single.
That pattern has continued since then. University had the same, yet higher levels of alcohol problem. Holidays with friends revolved around getting smashed too.
The problems have worsened in the last couple of years. Instead of getting drunk and going home, I would (with low inhibitions) pay to go up to London and 'rave' and take drugs. I would be places that I would not want to be if I was sober.
I have put myself under massive financial stress over the last couple of years - easily spending ?200 in a night on travel, alcohol and drugs.
I thought I was over it, but all it takes is more than two drinks and I am game for anything. It's like I do nothing or binge. Drinking turns me into someone I am not, when not under the influence. And I feel it takes a week or two of no alcohol and better living to start coming out of my fog that alcohol puts me in.
I feel I have to tell white lies to protect myself and others. I would not tell work colleagues what i had been up to at the weekend. I would not tell my family that I had in fact been an all nighter when arriving home at midday - instead saying I had stayed around a friends house.
Having just turned 25, I want to change my life now for the better. I want to improve my relationships, my job, my health and body. Alcohol, it appears, if it is present in my life just keeps me spinning my wheels and going around in circles forever.
I am fed up of feeling like a kid at the age of 25 and creating this false illusion that everything is okay when it is not.
I felt my best after 3 months of no drinking, a good eating and exercise regime and no dopamine highs. I was feeling the real feelings of life.
It's time to grow up and stop this cycle. How do I become more accountable for my actions?
I am off work today with another white lie because a few quiet drinks on Saturday resulted in a high spending binge through to Sunday afternoon.....
I have been 'googling' for a forum such as this today.
I am 25 and tbh just completely fed up of my drinking. I feel immature, irresponsible and a bad friend/son/brother to my friends and family.
I had my first drunk experience at the age of 16. All good fun at the time.
I have been socially drinking since 18 - often out once a week on Saturdays with friends. Most of these outings would end in ridiculous levels of alcohol consumed and suicidal hangovers the following day. It was part of being young, free and single.
That pattern has continued since then. University had the same, yet higher levels of alcohol problem. Holidays with friends revolved around getting smashed too.
The problems have worsened in the last couple of years. Instead of getting drunk and going home, I would (with low inhibitions) pay to go up to London and 'rave' and take drugs. I would be places that I would not want to be if I was sober.
I have put myself under massive financial stress over the last couple of years - easily spending ?200 in a night on travel, alcohol and drugs.
I thought I was over it, but all it takes is more than two drinks and I am game for anything. It's like I do nothing or binge. Drinking turns me into someone I am not, when not under the influence. And I feel it takes a week or two of no alcohol and better living to start coming out of my fog that alcohol puts me in.
I feel I have to tell white lies to protect myself and others. I would not tell work colleagues what i had been up to at the weekend. I would not tell my family that I had in fact been an all nighter when arriving home at midday - instead saying I had stayed around a friends house.
Having just turned 25, I want to change my life now for the better. I want to improve my relationships, my job, my health and body. Alcohol, it appears, if it is present in my life just keeps me spinning my wheels and going around in circles forever.
I am fed up of feeling like a kid at the age of 25 and creating this false illusion that everything is okay when it is not.
I felt my best after 3 months of no drinking, a good eating and exercise regime and no dopamine highs. I was feeling the real feelings of life.
It's time to grow up and stop this cycle. How do I become more accountable for my actions?
I am off work today with another white lie because a few quiet drinks on Saturday resulted in a high spending binge through to Sunday afternoon.....
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