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[daisy45]

hi...it has been a while since I have been here. My past year has been happily spent doing all I could to help my mum and dad. My lovely dad passed away last Monday.....
It has been a roller-coaster of a year. Good news, bad news, good news, bad news........
I have learned a lot!
For those of you that remember me, my dad was diagnosed with liver cancer in June last year. He, thankfully, after so much suffering, had a peaceful death. It is a strange feeling - I know he is in a better place.....
I find myself reflecting and questioning all that I am and what I am doing in my life. I, yet again have been drinking too much, falling asleep nearly every night in the chair.
I want more for me and feel like I don't want to waste any more time.....
just thinking out loud......

[Turnagain]

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Daisy....

I am sorry for your loss. Your Dad was sure special to you and it must have meant so much to him to have you spend caring time with him this past year. Hugs....

It's good that you are back here seeking support. Daisy, you CAN break this addiction. And that will give you what you want out of life....control...confidence...and contentment.

I'm pulling for you...

[jenniech]

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Hi Daisy
:welcome: BACK
I was at the same spot as you not too long ago. Drinking way too much and falling asleep on my couch every night. My life was becoming very very small and I was losing all joy in life. Now, life is certainly not perfect but instead of drinking over life's problems (and not solving a damn thing) I am investigating and figuring out how to either solve the problems or learn how to live with them without medicating myself over them. It isn't always fun but it is SO MUCH BETTER than just drinking myself into a stupor and not being good to anyone, including myself.

I am so glad you are back!!! And I am so sorry about your dad. Losing a parent is so very hard.....:h

[sweetpea29]

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Hey Daisy :l

So very sorry to hear about your Dad xx

It's good to see you back.

Sending you hugs and strength to find your way out hun xx

[3June2013]

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Hi Daisy I'm so sorry to hear about your Dad. What a stressful time it has been for you. Good idea coming here to voice your thoughts. I think this is the place for support and for soul searching. My heart goes out to you.

[Byrdlady]

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Daisy, I'm so sorry that you lost your dad. Words are so empty and meaningless, it certainly is a loss that shakes us down to the core.
A better life for yourself is possible and within reach. I am thinking of you and wishing you strength in every way. Hugs dear lady...we are right beside you. Byrdie

[RunningCourage]

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Hey Daisy,

Sorry to hear about your dad - i know from your previous posts that it's been a tough year. As Byrdie says, we're right by you, and what you desire is within reach, just one day at a time. Wishing you all the best in the days and weeks ahead.

RC

[Wildflowers]

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daisy45;1521781 wrote: hi...it has been a while since I have been here. My past year has been happily spent doing all I could to help my mum and dad. My lovely dad passed away last Monday.....
It has been a roller-coaster of a year. Good news, bad news, good news, bad news........
I have learned a lot!
For those of you that remember me, my dad was diagnosed with liver cancer in June last year. He, thankfully, after so much suffering, had a peaceful death. It is a strange feeling - I know he is in a better place.....
I find myself reflecting and questioning all that I am and what I am doing in my life. I, yet again have been drinking too much, falling asleep nearly every night in the chair.
I want more for me and feel like I don't want to waste any more time.....
just thinking out loud......

Dear Daisyluv,

I've thought of you from time to time. Knew you must have been helping your folks. Hurting terribly. I'm glad you were able to be there for them with a happy & giving heart. Your such a love! :h That you are assured your Dad is in a better place now!... No more suffering!...

It's so natural to just want to curl up with the bottle, find comfort and hide there for many of us. This is what this disease ~ addiction imo wants. The depression and grief that also accompanies great loss can bring further isolation. Mixing addiction with this added grief ~ loss doubles the pain & isolation. There are loving people here who've also lost loved ones who understand this deep pain. They understand why we numb with alcohol. They also have learned a better way, a healthier way to not hurt themselves any more!

Like Turn said, you can overcome to. Many have found a "Way Out" You know about the Newbies Nest. One Steppers. Nora may be of help & comfort. Then the Army. Spidywoman I believe is going thru her first yr sober with the loss of her hubs & mum. Mollers is in Ireland. I saw my FIL pass with cancer. My neighhbor ( like a papa ), Byrdie lost her daddy a yr ago. I'm sure there are others.

You can do this when your ready hun. You've been thru so much with your friend as well in the last yr!.... Just know it's possible.... Know matter how hard & rough life gets its better this way!!!... The sun will shine again one day Daisy.... Try your art & swimming again when you can. Anything that will help... I'm so glad that you've learned a lot, that you know time is so valuable..... It's not to be wasted..... My thoughts to... We aren't promised tom, that's what they tell me.

I may not be around much, or just reading.... I know I can't isolate to much either.... Going to go be near the healing waters tom..... I will say a prayer for you! I've missed you!..

Love, :h

Wildflowers :l

PS. My daisies look lovely.