365 Days of Being Thankfully Sober.

[Nursie]

365 Days of Being Thankfully Sober.

Thanks Witt. This is not my first time being sober, so I feel pretty good about where I am at right now. It's when I get over 90 days that I really want to drink. (I do experience cravings but I am strong until that point. I have to watch for that this time. I have been to the doctor and therapy and I do have the help I need for depression and the nerves. Thank you for all your kind words and support!

Day 10-
The fog has lifted and my moods have evened out. It is amazing what alcohol does to our brain chemistry. I particularly noticed that every time I drank, my depression and grief were multiplied the next day and it seemed to take days to feel normal again. I don't feel so vulnerable today and I'm tippy toeing a little easier because I am carrying out what I know is best for me. I am packing up my house, getting rid of lots of unnecessary clutter, and getting more exercise. I am doing well at work and in my college courses.
Today I am thankful for feeling like myself again.

[Unwasted]

365 Days of Being Thankfully Sober.

Nursie, you sound great. Hope this is your quit! I can relate to it being harder down the road. I started again after seven months. Not hard to figure out where that got me

Best to you,

UN :lilheart:

[Guitarista]

365 Days of Being Thankfully Sober.

Go for it Nursie!

I'm rootin' for ya.

G bloke.

[gyco]

365 Days of Being Thankfully Sober.

Congrats to you Nursie

[Nursie]

365 Days of Being Thankfully Sober.

Feelin' the love, feelin' the love!

[mylife]

365 Days of Being Thankfully Sober.

You sound great Nursie. I have read (in my extensive readings here) that several long term sober's have run into rough patches around 3-4 months. I know you can get through it this time and achieve 365 days!

[Nursie]

365 Days of Being Thankfully Sober.

Oops! I forgot my thankful post yesterday!
Here it is:
Day 11-
We have been looking for a new home for two weeks. I think I mentioned earlier that our rental was sold so we have to move pretty fast. It's scary because we have to get in before school starts and there is so much to do. We found a house that we love but it was too much money. We told them what we could afford and kept looking.
Yesterday those people called us in for a meeting and said that because we are such a nice family they would like to let us rent the house for what we can afford because they don't know what they are getting into with someone else. We said we would keep looking because they should get the money that they need from it. Then they were astonished and said we want you to rent our house until you can afford it. Then we will hold the mortgage for you.
Although we are still looking at 3 more houses today, I do think we will take that one because we had such a strong connection. Her husband died and my brother died and we just adored one another.
Today I am thankful for new friendships and honesty of the heart.

[Nursie]

365 Days of Being Thankfully Sober.

Falling behind in my posts!

Day 12 and 13:
We found the home we will be moving into. It is wonderful and scary but we now have a place to settle for awhile. Could be a couple of years, could be forever if we choose to buy it at the end of the lease.
These last two days have been trying because everyone wants to celebrate with us. Our friends, or realtor and even the people we are renting the house from.
Everywhere I turn people want to toast to the new house.
I would LOVE to toast to the new house if I could, but I can't!

I don't want to have a housewarming because I don't feel strong enough to have alcohol in my house.
Today I am thankful for not celebrating with alcohol.
I am moving to a house that I have never drank in and pray that I never do.

[Nursie]

365 Days of Being Thankfully Sober.

Cripes I can't even keep up with my own daily posts!
Ugh, busy packing, working, school and kids.
Days 14 and 15-
I have energy. I am sleeping better. I feel stronger. I have a lot to pack in a short amount of time so I have to stay focused.
My brother's headstone was placed and I don't like it. His father did not go to a memorial place, he went to a bluestone quarry and told them he wanted a cross with his name on it. He's a wasted drunk too.
I don't like the headstone and I don't think it is good enough for my brother. I am upset about it.
But I'm not drinking. Maybe someday I will get him a better one.

[Nursie]

365 Days of Being Thankfully Sober.

Day 16-
Busy day, work and packing and cleaning for the move.
Good day. Today I am thankful for accomplishing things on my to do list.

[witts end]

365 Days of Being Thankfully Sober.

good for you nursie

[Nursie]

365 Days of Being Thankfully Sober.

Day 17-
I have had a lot of day 17s. But this time around I am not struggling as I was in the past. Maybe because it was a short binge but I like to think it is the quit that will stick.
Moving into the new house is stressful but the most stressful part is literally everyone wanting to celebrate, go out, bring wine, etc.
today I am thankful that I don't have to drink to celebrate. Celebrating with alcohol is like bearing my head with a hammer and being sad that it wasn't fun.

[Gardener]

365 Days of Being Thankfully Sober.

Nursie - I love your quote:

"Celebrating with alcohol is like beating my head with a hammer and being sad it wasn't fun". And, it is true!

I'm on Day 17 today and can't remember feeling this good, I plan on staying AF to continue this good life.

Good luck in your new house, build lots of good memories there.

[witts end]

365 Days of Being Thankfully Sober.

keep it up both of you .......Nursie.. and gardener ...... your both doing great

[Nursie]

365 Days of Being Thankfully Sober.

Day 19 (fell asleep last night)
Today I am thankful for my job that I love and all of my co-workers. I was complimented on how well I'm doing and someone mentioned that I've grown tremendously in the past year. Losing my brother did that to me. It puts everything else in perspective and I just don't get excited about the little stuff.
Hope everyone has a great day!