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[bgg]

well im back too square one , last week i managed 4 days , then went back to my down ward spiral , then two days this week , how ever today is another day and will keep my goal in sight .... I want to really beat this problem and im sick of passing out in a stupor!!!!

[Guest]

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I know what you mean, sometimes I do soooo well, and other days I feel like I crash and burn. Thankfully since I've been on here I have learned that tomorrow is a fresh start and a time to start a new. You will beat it! I have confidence in you!

[betty boop]

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bgg, Pick up yourself up and start again, at least now you have 4 af days under your belt xx

[Arial]

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Hi bgg - never feel it's back to square 1 as it's all part of the same journey - you're not going backwards, just forwards - you're now more determined than ever so you learn from it, and as Betty says, pick yourself up, brush yourself down and today is a new day! You can do it and you will do it if you want to - you'll also find it easier as you go along so keep talking, posting, sharing - and keeping positive - TODAY IS A NEW DAY - it is yours to do with as you choose!

Happy Friday - maybe make some plans for over the weekend to make sure you're busy over that 'drinking hour'

[Beaches]

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Hi BGG
I agree you're not back at square one. Just keep moving forward. We all have our slips at the beginning. You will get it, just keep at it.

[Popeye]

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Hi bgg,
Good attitude.
Well done.

[AAthlete]

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Bgg, little story for you that (I think) has me on the right path for life - at least that's my mindset right now.

Last week I decided to take take Wednesday off from work because I had been putting in so much time over the last couple of weeks I wanted a day off. On that day off, I decided to have 'a couple' of drinks to help unwind because I was just planning on taking it easy. I had been AF for the most part of two months but you know how these desires pop up...

Now, keep in mind that also over the last two weeks I had been battling serious sleep problems along with the stomach flu, so I was down on sleep, water, food, and weight (about 10 lbs). After a couple of drinks I decided that, dammit, I was sick of not sleeping (I knew part of it was now anxiety from simply thinking about it) so I decided to start back up on my Lexapro that night.

From that point on, Thursday is pretty much a blur. I know that I had a 'perfect storm' interaction from the drinking, meds, dehydration, etc. but I could not get up on Thursday and pretty much slept the whole time. I also realized my mistake by going on the Lexapro - and of course NOT taking it made Friday even worse! There was a point in time where I seriously considered checking into the hospital because of the anxiety.

I was able to work from home at least that day, but don't know that I've ever felt that bad in my life. I wasn't able to eat until Sunday, and my that time was down 14 lbs. I made a promise to myself that I would never do that to myself again. Flash forward one week, and I haven't had or desired one drink. I've exercised every day since then and have watched my diet, and as bad as I felt last week, I feel 100% the opposite this week. Not exactly a weight-loss plan I would advocate, but have kept the majority of the weight off (in part I think by my unplanned detox) and am in a completely different frame of mind. That desire can certainly change but after that episode - as low as I had to sink - I don't see myself drinking again.

The moral of the story??

Don't ever give up on the battle. I know it is hard and making it to the next day can seem impossible, but give yourself credit for the small battles that you win and don't beat yourself up too hard when you lose one - it's the war you're looking to win. I truly believe that if you try to learn something from each stumble that you encounter, you will eventually succeed.

I wish you nothing but the best.

[Breez]

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bgg~

No one got it right the first time. It took me 4 yrs to go thru many trial & errors to finally get my mind, body & soul in synch. Never give up your goal. It's so worth it.

[Guest]

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It's a process, do yu know who many time they launched rockets before they got a man to The moon?!! You are not a failure. None of us are. Just keep trying.
Aim for the stars

Mary

[DidItForMe]

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4 days are great! One day is great! They are all days that can add up and help you beat this thing. Don't get down on yourself for slip ups, just get back to doing what you know is best for you.
We are all here for you and we will always be behind you.