Well, That Didn't Take Long
good Evening everyone!
I went to bed early yesterday with a terrible head cold, was awakened at 330am by a little one who'd had an accident then had quite a stressy time at work. So I've really enjoyed relaxing here, reading all the wonderful people on this thread.
As usual, many things said have touched me-- the advice given about posting when the thoughts to drink come forward hit home. After being sober for awhile, be it 4 days or 2 months, I give a lot of thought as to whether or not I want to drink again. I go back and forth in my mind, back and forth out on the street in front of the shop, I stare at the wine section for tens of minutes, turn around and head back. At some point a curtain drops and I completely black out the rational part of my mind. I turn a cold shoulder and don't look back until the next time I've had enough. This scares me very much because I don't know when it will or occur or why I allow myself to give in. So... I will also promise myself to post before making any decisions. I also liked the idea of the 15 minute rule-- getting out of the physical space you're in when you think of drinking and wait for 15 minutes, trying for distraction. Though I'm not sure this would work all on its own. I need a whole list of tools to have on hand at all times.
I love all the wool talk. I don't know the place you're all talking about to buy wool -- but my whole family wears a nice silk/wool mix which is definately worth the investment. I . also love the autumn and winter-- This will be a fall of change, won't it, mylife? great stuff-- We're working hard at it.
UN did I understand correctly that you are moving to Colorado?
And there are quite a few from the Midwest?
I still don't have all the names matched with the stories, so forgive me--
but I so enjoy getting to know you all through your posts and honest words.
I like being here.
Time for me to crawl into bed--
see you tomorrow--a wonderful evening,
life
good Evening everyone!
I went to bed early yesterday with a terrible head cold, was awakened at 330am by a little one who'd had an accident then had quite a stressy time at work. So I've really enjoyed relaxing here, reading all the wonderful people on this thread.
As usual, many things said have touched me-- the advice given about posting when the thoughts to drink come forward hit home. After being sober for awhile, be it 4 days or 2 months, I give a lot of thought as to whether or not I want to drink again. I go back and forth in my mind, back and forth out on the street in front of the shop, I stare at the wine section for tens of minutes, turn around and head back. At some point a curtain drops and I completely black out the rational part of my mind. I turn a cold shoulder and don't look back until the next time I've had enough. This scares me very much because I don't know when it will or occur or why I allow myself to give in. So... I will also promise myself to post before making any decisions. I also liked the idea of the 15 minute rule-- getting out of the physical space you're in when you think of drinking and wait for 15 minutes, trying for distraction. Though I'm not sure this would work all on its own. I need a whole list of tools to have on hand at all times.
I love all the wool talk. I don't know the place you're all talking about to buy wool -- but my whole family wears a nice silk/wool mix which is definately worth the investment. I . also love the autumn and winter-- This will be a fall of change, won't it, mylife? great stuff-- We're working hard at it.
UN did I understand correctly that you are moving to Colorado?
And there are quite a few from the Midwest?
I still don't have all the names matched with the stories, so forgive me--
but I so enjoy getting to know you all through your posts and honest words.
I like being here.
Time for me to crawl into bed--
see you tomorrow--a wonderful evening,
life
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