Today is my first time looking over this site. I'd say I've been drinking daily for the past 6-7 years. Like many others on here, I haven't missed work due to drinking, never miss a family function, or anything that my kids are involved in, and most people would not have any idea that I drink a bottle of wine each night-sometimes 2 bottles on a weekend night. I have a high tolerance to alcohol, can mix liquors and beer and wine, and not think a thing about it. I've never had a DUI or even been stopped on suspicion of drinking. I work in a highly busy office-often putting in 60-70 hours a week. I'm 34, have 3 children, 9, 13, and 15, and am happily married for 16 years. I don't smoke and I don't use drugs. My husband actually supports my drinking, as does my own mother, both often telling me not to worry when I mention that maybe I should quit. Both tell me "You have a stessful job, and a hectic schedule, so what if you have 3 glasses of wine a night?". Did I mention that I have also been in college for 6 years? I'm currently enrolled 12 hours and carry a 3.8 gpa. My husband does drink on occasion, but usually just a couple of beers maybe on the weekend while he watches a game. So, what's the big deal, you might ask? The big deal is the feeling that I NEED to have a drink. That feeling of it being Saturday and knowing the liquor stores are closed on Sunday and that I need to make sure to stop so I'll have a bottle for Sunday. I am also sure that drinking my red wine every evening has contributed to my 30 pound weight gain. (Well, that and the snacking while I study) I feel like if I could stop drinking that I would lose weight, get a better night's sleep, look more refreshed and not have the occasional headache I get from the wine. Everyone tells me wine is cheaper than prozac and that if all I do is have a few drinks and it's not having a negative impact to stop worrying. Personally, I think I'm a functioning alcoholic. Also, my father is an alcoholic-in the worst form. He's had multiple DUI's, and when he falls off the wagon, everything goes to hell. He is self-employed and often shuts his phone off for weeks and doesn't follow through on the committments he makes.
Thanks for letting me get this off my chest.
~Winelover~
PS-For anyone in Indiana, my wine of choice is Oliver Soft Red. I love it. I just wish I didn't!
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