Hello all!
Just a quick post. After trying to drink myself into oblivion since my father died in December of last year, I have decided to quit. Just cold turkey quit. (though I had some Xanax to take at night to prevent the nighttime seizures I can sometimes have. I also had phenobarbital on hand just in case).
I am on day 6 or 7, (past seizures and age have wrecked my memory). At the same time, I have GREATLY modified my diet. I have been eating nothing but veggies/fruit.
The times that are the hardest, of course, are during that "witching hour" right after work....when I would normally have a 6 pack of 16 oz beers....and have all 6, (which is really 8 beers), drunk within a few hours. Since stopping, my fingers don't hurt, my liver doesn't hurt and the pain in my legs and gut have lessened. I have dropped a few pounds and my belly is no longer sticking out like I am 12 months pregnant!
I am reading a book someone mentioned on here about addiction and helplessness. I have always known that anger and low self esteem have been a factor...but the hardest one to overcome is the desire to "self medicate" away my memories and my discomfort at life....I SO wanted to drink yesterday when I heard from my lawyer about my dead father's gold digger wife and the case I am involved in where she is trying to steal my brother and my inheritance. It was good I didn't give in to that strong urge as later in the day I got great news and there seems to be light at the end of that tunnel. Two weeks ago, I would have drunk myself into a coma, (or with my head firmly planted in the toilet!).
The hardest will be when I attend functions with family and friends as I have managed to surround myself with a LOT of heavy drinkers, (I also married into a Polish family who LOVE their beer!). One thing I have been told that helped me was to NOT worry about if I were going to drink tomorrow....but concentrate on not drinking today....so far...so good.
Trying for 90 days without beer...and then I'll see where I stand.
Just a quick post. After trying to drink myself into oblivion since my father died in December of last year, I have decided to quit. Just cold turkey quit. (though I had some Xanax to take at night to prevent the nighttime seizures I can sometimes have. I also had phenobarbital on hand just in case).
I am on day 6 or 7, (past seizures and age have wrecked my memory). At the same time, I have GREATLY modified my diet. I have been eating nothing but veggies/fruit.
The times that are the hardest, of course, are during that "witching hour" right after work....when I would normally have a 6 pack of 16 oz beers....and have all 6, (which is really 8 beers), drunk within a few hours. Since stopping, my fingers don't hurt, my liver doesn't hurt and the pain in my legs and gut have lessened. I have dropped a few pounds and my belly is no longer sticking out like I am 12 months pregnant!
I am reading a book someone mentioned on here about addiction and helplessness. I have always known that anger and low self esteem have been a factor...but the hardest one to overcome is the desire to "self medicate" away my memories and my discomfort at life....I SO wanted to drink yesterday when I heard from my lawyer about my dead father's gold digger wife and the case I am involved in where she is trying to steal my brother and my inheritance. It was good I didn't give in to that strong urge as later in the day I got great news and there seems to be light at the end of that tunnel. Two weeks ago, I would have drunk myself into a coma, (or with my head firmly planted in the toilet!).
The hardest will be when I attend functions with family and friends as I have managed to surround myself with a LOT of heavy drinkers, (I also married into a Polish family who LOVE their beer!). One thing I have been told that helped me was to NOT worry about if I were going to drink tomorrow....but concentrate on not drinking today....so far...so good.
Trying for 90 days without beer...and then I'll see where I stand.
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