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[FreeFly]

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Hiya Nursie,
Don't judge yourself, just be kind to you. Grief is a long process. Gotta take it with the rough and the smooth. Some days good, some days not so good. One thing that'll get in the way of that process is fretting over alcohol. It's topsy turvy. Hold on to the sober days and forgive yourself for the not so sober. Whatever you do, be a good friend to you :l

[MossRose]

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So very glad to hear you are doing better. Your new home sounds lovely. Hang in there. Thinking of you.

[spiderwoman]

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Sorry you've been to a bad place Nursie, hope things are happier for you in your new home

[3June2013]

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What a difference a day makes! So good to see you feeling happier nursie! Welcome back!

[witts end]

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Nursie;1544507 wrote: I have had so much sober time. But I give in when the going gets tough. I have been drinking for 7 days straight. I keep saying I will finish the last of the bottle and then I go buy more. Yesterday I walked to the liquor store to buy liquor. And proceeded to get more drunk.
I am grieving my brother and moving to a new house has killed me because all of my memories are at the old house with him.
I'm no angel, I'm not special, I can't do his alone and now I am detoxing.
I have a sauna and I'm going to start there.
I am crying.
I finished the vodka this morning. (Never ever have done that)
I am not a victim, I am better than this. I am hurting my family.

Why do I choose to drink when the going gets tough? Why do I not have control? Why do I do this to myself? It is maniacal. I am doing everything I hate and I don't feel like I can control it.

I am so ashamed.

I am not one of those people who start and stop and write crazy messages on here. I want to be sober. I want to take control.

This is me, raw and honest. And I'm glad I have you all to come to.

Hello nursie
sorry about your brother .... it's hard accepting a death ......

when we are grieving it's very hard to concentrate on other things and I know I did the same as you when my mum died it was just to much and found I was drinking to much to block it all out .....

don't be ashamed..... we are all here to help and we all know how hard it is......it will take time and we will all help ........ do you want to start the 365 days again I'll join you

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Nursie;1544507 wrote: I have had so much sober time. But I give in when the going gets tough. I have been drinking for 7 days straight. I keep saying I will finish the last of the bottle and then I go buy more. Yesterday I walked to the liquor store to buy liquor. And proceeded to get more drunk.
I am grieving my brother and moving to a new house has killed me because all of my memories are at the old house with him.
I'm no angel, I'm not special, I can't do his alone and now I am detoxing.
I have a sauna and I'm going to start there.
I am crying.
I finished the vodka this morning. (Never ever have done that)
I am not a victim, I am better than this. I am hurting my family.

Why do I choose to drink when the going gets tough? Why do I not have control? Why do I do this to myself? It is maniacal. I am doing everything I hate and I don't feel like I can control it.

I am so ashamed.

I am not one of those people who start and stop and write crazy messages on here. I want to be sober. I want to take control.

This is me, raw and honest. And I'm glad I have you all to come to.

Hello nursie
sorry about your brother .... it's hard accepting a death ......

when we are grieving it's very hard to concentrate on other things and I know I did the same as you when my mum died it was just to much and found I was drinking to much to block it all out .....

don't be ashamed..... we are all here to help and we all know how hard it is......it will take time and we will all help ........ do you want to start the 365 days again I'll join you

[MossRose]

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Nursie - just wondering how things are going. Thinking of you.

[K9Lover]

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Hi Nursie! :l

[Kradle123]

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Hi Nursie,

I have a terrible head cold... .:yuk:
Can you come over? I need a nurse! I promise not to hug you!...well, here's a 2D hug :l
Hope you are feeling better,

:h