High Risk Behavior and Bingeing :(

[yellow cayenne]

High Risk Behavior and Bingeing

Wow. Thank you so much Byrdie. I would really like to read something of that sort. Could use some stories to make me seem like less of a louse...or at least a louse that is not alone...ugh. Patterns...just so sickening to make the same mistakes over, and over, and over...to varying and usually worse degree...no self respect...

[Byrdlady]

High Risk Behavior and Bingeing

Yes, sadly, I know what you mean. Forget the everyday embarrassments of not remembering conversations, or FALLING ASLEEP in a restaurant, but I was at our National Sales Meeting, in a roomful of 250 of my colleagues...the VP of sales gets up and makes his intro..."You know how you are socializing with everyone at dinner and you look at a person and say to yourself, there's NO WAY that person is going to make it to the 7:30 a.m. session? Is Byrdlady here? And all eyes turned to me.....I could have melted. They were clapping, for god's sake!!! UGG! This was second only to the humiliation of falling into a ditch of water in an evening dress on the way to our awards dinner (a different year, thank goodness). You are NOT alone. But I'll tell you, time heals a lot of things....you CAN get your good name back...but you gotta get AL out of the picture...it is a lot more do-able than you think. I couldn't imagine socializing without it, until I did. It's like your other muscles, when you use them they get stronger! Byrdie

I've bumped up that thread for you....look for 'You know you're an alcoholic when......' under new posts!

[yellow cayenne]

High Risk Behavior and Bingeing

Recovering emotionally ... Why did this have to happen at an office outing?

Wow Byrd. Thank you so much for the work related embarrassment anecdote. I always feel like around friends or family ... I can pretty much move on and recover emotionally. But when it comes to career and co-workers those people/standards are less forgiving. You have made me feel better thank you. I would love to hear about anything awful MW0 posters have done related to career, work, co-workers, etc. I just want to know what this is going to get better and that I will get my good name back if gossip ensues. Thank you a million all.

[Mom21961]

High Risk Behavior and Bingeing

Embarrassing ones self at work

I was at a conference once, well into the wine that our primary vendor was supplying. He came up to talk to me and I belligerently said 'who the hell are you!?' He said, I'm the one supplying you with all that wine youve been drinking'. Yikes. Surprised I remembered that. I fell in the bathroom later and messed up my face. People laughed about it, and I resolved never to drink at work functions again since i cant have just one. Go to the bar and get a seltzer or tonic w a twist and no one will know the diff. just say its a gin and tonic. Sadly, my family still sees it. My dh will say 'that's the Kendal Jackson talking' when i get rude. That's my favorite brand of Chardonnay

[yellow cayenne]

High Risk Behavior and Bingeing

Oh Mom2J - know that type of situation too well. I am in a position where I "should" be setting a good example. But I am always the last to leave. I also get very direct, pompous and negative, condescending. My newest thing is slapping people. I went from being a suggestive, rude drunk to straight up aggressive. Blast.

I once "dirty danced" all over the school chancellor late night after a conference. With a bunch of tenured faculty looking on. (Sh*t!!!) I even started dancing like that with a random lady! Everyone was drinking and dancing on the rooftop bar of a jazzy hotel. Everyone else was dancing in a normal way, but of course I had to bust out with the sexy moves. Ended up drinking in a senior members room that night...nothing happened...but that is how rumours began. Gross.

I have not even mentioned all the spills I have taken. I am a clumsy drunk....eew

[MossRose]

High Risk Behavior and Bingeing

YC - how are you doing today? I have done some incredibly embarrassing things at work parties and conferences. Some so bad that I would wake up the next day and think, "time to look for another job." I just couldn't face my co-workers the next day. Probably the worst (and I'm still embarrassed to this day) was at a Christmas party many, many years ago. It was an open bar, and the booze was flowing. I had a terrible crush on one of the men I worked with. He was a big wheel at the company. I was a peon. I openly flirted with him all night. Not at all subtle. The cocktails made me stupidly brave. I was making a complete fool out of myself. Then to really top off the evening, his wife confronted me - in front of everyone. She had every right! But in my drunken state, I said some very inappropriate things to her. I was suicidal when I sobered up. The shame was unbearable. He stayed far away from me after that and I don't blame him. That is one job, I did need to leave. My career there was over that very night.

You think I would have learned, right? I was still young. But no, I continued on and now unfortunately have hundreds more stories just like this one - personally and professionally. Oh, and I'm a very clumsy drunk too. Thankfully, I have never done anything like this at my current job - which I love. I work in K-12 education, so the culture is a bit unforgiving about this sort of thing. But it was only a matter of time. Thank God for MWO!!

Hope you are having a good weekend.