I am hopeless.

[little beagle]

I am hopeless.

Mrose I am so glad you are here. You are my friend. I need you. I understand what you are going through. Al seems like a friend when no one else is there for you. But we all know that is the great lie. Your son will help you and forgive you. You are working so hard on changing your life. This episode really proves it.
Yes when we make bad choices time really does seem to slow down. I have had that feeling many times in the past.
I am so glad you stopped when you did and came here. That is huge.
:l
Have a great af Sunday.

[Byrdlady]

I am hopeless.

Moss, I am just seeing this. I tell you, if there were a limit to the times a person could post Day 1, I'd have reached it. I got sick of posting it myself! I really thought I was hopeless.

Love is stronger than any other bond there is....people live for it, die for it and kill for it. When it finally came down to a choice between my husband of 24 years and AL, I had to make a choice. The love for my husband won. The love you have for your son will win, too.....AND the love you have for your life. Do we always get it right on the first try? Sadly, no. BUT WE DO GET IT!

I just posted in the 100 day thread that a thought took me by surprise yesterday, too. It was STRONG and grew legs before I knew it. But I used the tools I learned from right here....get to MWO and plant myself....and that's just what I did. That's what you did, too. You were able to stop the bleeding! That is huge!

If we held executions for everyone that took a fall, this would be a lonely place. Hop on back up, and this time, we'll get there! Much love and admiration, Byrdie

[MossRose]

I am hopeless.

Yes - I do love my son more than AL. In fact, I hate everything about AL. It brings me nothing but sorrow. I am determined to make it this time. I never really posted in the roll-call, but that changes starting today. It's inspiring to see others numbers going up!

As an aside, I highly recommend visiting the newbies nest. Byrdie just posted something that is a must-read: If alcohol had a name. Profound!! And Free has a link to a TED talk about shame & vulnerability that gave me a whole new perspective on how to live an authentic life. Thanks, Free. Those two things, and the love and support you have all given me, helped pull me out of the pit of despair I was wallowing in this morning. I actually feel hopeful again. Thank you.

[Miley]

I am hopeless.

Moss.....I blew it last night too. I know what my trigger was and have found a different way to deal with it this time. You and I seem to always be right there together, so let's stay together and be sober this time. I will post in the daily roll call as well.

I listened to the TED talk videos and it really helped me as well.

[MossRose]

I am hopeless.

Miley, sorry to hear that you slipped too. We do seem to be on this journey together. So let's lean on each other for strength and just do it this time. I have said it a million times, but I am done with AL. Last night really disgusted me. I let something precious, my son's respect, slip away yet again for a stupid glass of wine. Enough is enough.

Staying very close to MWO today. See you in the roll call. And if you need me, I am here for you.

[Unwasted]

I am hopeless.

Miley and Moss, just sending you guys support. Let the fall be the reminder that you want out and keep it in the forefront of your minds! I just went through this too, so I totally understand how we get taken by surprise. I'm trying to think of my fall(s) as a reminder that it is SO NOT worth it!

Best to you both,
UN

[Miley]

I am hopeless.

Ok...me too. We should probably stay close everyday.

How old is your son?

[Miley]

I am hopeless.

Thanks for the support UN!

[witts end]

I am hopeless.

miley and moss we all know your having a hard time quitting but remember we have all been there and your still here thats the main thing don't go away ......we are all here for you don't stop trying
don't go away we will miss you.......we are all in this together ......the ups and the downs

[MossRose]

I am hopeless.

Yes, Witts. Since the beginning, we have been in this together. I honestly don't know what I would do without all of you now. You are like my family and I am grateful every day that I can come here, be honest - just be me - and still get the love and support I need.

[NoSugar]

I am hopeless.

Hi, MossRose. I've read some of your posts today. Your empathy with new people is so clear. It is the opposite of arrogance when you welcome them .

[MossRose]

I am hopeless.

Miley - I'm sorry, I never answered you. My sons are 23 and 21. My oldest son still lives with me, but has a big life and I don't see him often. Good for him. He is a very happy young man. My youngest son moved out almost a year and half ago. It wasn't on very good terms. The odd thing is that he and his girlfriend just moved into the apartment complex where I live. They are a couple buildings over but we don't see each other often, but I get comfort from knowing that he is nearby. We have been estranged for quite some time. That's why he just stopped in last night. He was taking his extremely cute puppy for a walk. I blew it last night, but never again. Next time I will be sober and proud. And cooking! He loves to eat.

[MossRose]

I am hopeless.

Thanks NS I needed to hear that. After last night...well, you know.

[Miley]

I am hopeless.

Sounds like a good plan! My daughters are 27 and 21 and I have a step-son that lives with us that is also 21.

[free at last]

I am hopeless.

Moss Ross and Miley, a quick break from work duties to say that I have read your posts and thinking of you both. The two of you, supporting each other, is a powerful combination against that creep, alcohol. You know the drill, stay close to MWO, post often, especially post when you are having a thought about having any alcohol, and take strength in each other.

You both can do this. Your children want you to succeed, to be the mother they want to look up to.

Warmest