I am hopeless.

[K9Lover]

I am hopeless.

Moss :l
You are not hopeless or weak. If you were, we wouldn't have heard from you! Whenever I messed up I would disappear because I didn't have the strength that you have to come here and fess up. I would even start distancing myself before the binge because I knew it was coming. Until one day I decided to tell everyone that I was getting ready to drink, and Lav and Byrdie and the other Nesters talked me through my difficult 40 day mark (that's where I always fell for some reason!). I am so glad you are here...maybe you and Miley can exchange numbers and send reassuring texts when you need to? It does help to have a friend that can get back to you in "real time". You are a strong woman, we're proud of you!
K9

[MossRose]

I am hopeless.

Free - that's exactly what is keeping me going this time. I want my sons to be proud of me.

K9 - thanks for the kind words. When Bydrie posted that my love for my son would win in the end, all I could think was, "I love my son more than alcohol." I knew that sounded familiar. Now I remember where I first saw it. So true.

On a very personal note - my divorce was finalized this morning. It was much harder than I had anticipated. My emotions are all over the place. But I intend to stay strong.

[3June2013]

I am hopeless.

Moss I'm sorry today is so rough for you, but remember drinking isn't going to make it better, you need to go through this painful time and ride it out. Being on the other side will make you stronger. Often one door closes and another opens. Staying AF is the best thing you can do for yourself right now. Stay close, we want to help.

[NoSugar]

I am hopeless.

Hi, MossRose

I'm sorry this is such a sad and hard day for you. Stay close this evening, ok?

You've been dreading this day, I know. I hope you have the experience that having a difficult event behind you frees you to move on. You've got Big things to do, you know .
Becoming permanently AF requires a lot of attention and determination. I'll bet you'll be able to really focus on it now.

In one of the many books I'm reading, one of the quotes that really stood out to me was "You can't give to others what you don't have yourself" in reference to qualities such as self-esteem.
I think this is also the case: Your sons will be proud of their mom who is proud of herself!

Hang in there, MossRose and always remember you have friends here who really care about you and want you to succeed.

:h NS

[Miley]

I am hopeless.

Moss....sorry you had to go through signing your divorce papers today. I remember when I did mine (10 years ago) and it was a very difficult day. Stay strong and you and I will be posting Day 3 tomorrow on the Roll Call. We will not be defeated by a measley old glass of poison!

[MossRose]

I am hopeless.

See you in roll call tomorrow, Miley. And that's a promise.

[available]

I am hopeless.

Hi Moss, like you i love my children very much although my eldest is getting sick of her mum being drunk all of the time and I can see she is distancing herself from me which is sad. She gets married in November and I have really contributed nothing much so I have decided that I am going AF until November 10th at the least and even then I really want to make her proud by not drinking and being the fool. I dont want AL to take my children away from me when they are my life.

I am sorry to hear about your divorce and stay strong. I will be on rollcall tonight with Day 3 done and dusted.

[witts end]

I am hopeless.

how are you doing now miley

[Miley]

I am hopeless.

WE....I am doing much better today. I am really discovering a lot of things about the difference between dealing with addiction and dealing with issues. I will try to write a thread about it later but it seems that in a way, they are almost two separate issues that I have been treating as one. I always thought that my alcohol abuse was because of issues that I had never dealt with. Now I see that I used al to numb myself and in the process I became addicted. Now I need to learn more about how to deal with the addiction piece of the, which seems a little overwhelming.

[K9Lover]

I am hopeless.

Miley;1548846 wrote: I always thought that my alcohol abuse was because of issues that I had never dealt with. Now I see that I used al to numb myself and in the process I became addicted.

Well said, Miley. Same here. I guess at first I drank because I had "problems" (got married young, got divorced young, ended up being a single-mother, etc etc). Before I realized it though, my "problems" weren't really so bad, but at that point I couldn't imagine NOT drinking. And my "relaxing" drinks at night soon turned into a 12 pack of terror...blackouts, bruises, DUI's, jail time, fines, and atrocious behavior. Don't let yourself be too overwhelmed, think on it for a while but don't obsess. As you build up some good solid sober time things become much clearer. You're doing great! :h

[Miley]

I am hopeless.

K9

Thank you so much for your input. I needed to hear not to obsess over it. I was totally doing that this morning and got all up in my head about it on the way to work, to the point I felt like crying. I don't have to think about all this stuff right now....I just have to stay sober!

Moss....sorry for highjacking your thread.....How are you doing today?

[K9Lover]

I am hopeless.

Yeah Moss....how are ya today?

[carsula]

I am hopeless.

The main thing is to start again. As Winston Churchill said 'Never, never, never give up!' You can do it and it is so worth the effort!

[MossRose]

I am hopeless.

Miley - no worries, my friend. I've been lurking at work, and have enjoyed reading your thoughts today. K9 - doing better. Yesterday was rough, but I'm going to look at this as a real chance for a new beginning. I really wanted to drink last night. Almost had myself talked into it. I really needed to shut down. But I decided to just go to sleep instead. Probably not the best long-term plan But it got me through an emotionally difficult night.

I also need to learn how to deal directly with issues rather than try to numb them. I did that for years and destroyed my life.

Hi Carsula. Welcome. Glad you are here!

[witts end]

I am hopeless.

carsula;1549007 wrote: The main thing is to start again. As Winston Churchill said 'Never, never, never give up!' You can do it and it is so worth the effort!

I quiet agree the main thing is to keep trying

You can do this .....miley,moss rose, and available