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Pauly I could not have contemplated giving up drinking or even consider it if not for this site and its support. I stumbled upon it by mistake and when i do get some sense about me and want to try again then the support of MWO is a godsend. Dont pay attentiom to the negativity which I, like Unwasted find suprising. Keep on here is my advice for sure and I hope it all works out.

[hadit]

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PAULY Please don,t let any negatives comments take you down. I drink 2 bottles of wine a day. What you are drinking does not seem that much. Please stay with us, we have all hit rock bottom on more than one occasion and understand your hurt. The fact you are here and posting shows strength and takes courage especially when one is struggling................ I have sent you a big :l

[JackieClaire]

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Pauly, me darling I just don't know where to start.

Please let it go, easier said than done,I know. I still wince when I remember being called 'holier than thou'. Cheeky fecker.

Now to feeling defeated that was me. Defeated, beaten and drowning in booze. I honestly thought that when my Dr saw my name on her patient list in the morning yet again she'd go screaming to the hills.

I thought I'd tried everything doing it myself, white knuckling, AA and it wasn't until a locum Dr mentioned he'd read about MWO and had I heard of it that I started to use it.

Every single one of us here should be applauded for our commitment to posting, coming back after a blip or even just logging in just to say hello. You'll never know how much or why you may help someone.

MWO was my last chance saloon. I also have support through my voluntary work (drug and alcohol place) and my very close family.

Many here use AA,SMART and Women for Sobriety for extra support. It might be worth a try.

But judgement, absolutely none from me. I've been in your shoes more often than I care to mention.

[3June2013]

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Pauly you are not beyond help, you're strong and you're determined, or you wouldn't be here. Keep trying, keep posting. stay close, we want to help.

[spiderwoman]

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Pauly if you were a diabetic you wouldn't think of it as weakness seeing your doctor for insulin would you? this is not different at all, its an illness and if drugs are what it takes to get you well or a spell in a unit then its not one bit different from any other ailment. For anybody who wants to make smart comments about drains on resources etc, what about the millions of sports injuries that get treat via public funds and insurance each year, they are self-inflicted are they not? Really hope your doctor can come up with something that does it for you. Nobody reading or posting here is in a position to be judgemental so ignore the negative comments, I know its hard but hang in there.

Sylv x

[Siren136]

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Pauly, you were the very first person to welcome me to MWO when I had no hope of getting any sort of control over my drinking. You reached out to me and helped get me back on my feet. OK, so I still struggle and I'm not perfect, but everyone has struggles in their lives. Just because you can't see them, doesn't mean they aren't there.

You are stronger than this - you just need the right tools. MWO is a very good tool to have in your toolbox.

[Pinecone]

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Hi Pauly, sending you some support. It hurts to keep going down that road. I did it many times myself. I had stretches of AF time and blew it over and over. You can't tell it from my posting history though because I did all that before I reached out for help on here. That's just because I was so stubborn for years and I thought I could just fix it myself by willpower. Someone else might think to reach out for help at an earlier point in the spectrum (i sure hope they do, might save them some trouble!)and then this website will naturally record more of their attempts to "get it right".

Do you know what it is that keeps derailing you? Can you look back at your quits and see what's going on? Stay in the fight, Pauly, we are pulling for you!

[NoSugar]

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Good morning, Paulywogg

I hope you are feeling better after a night of rest and are ready to take on this big challenge.

It is possible that the person who told you about the PMs was exaggerating to support whatever point s/he was trying to make (which also is hard to understand and seems very unhelpful). Second hand insults aren't worth a moment of your time.

Pay attention instead to all the people who came here and posted directly to you that they care about you and think you are worth whatever it takes to get free.

:h NS

[paulywogg]

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the person who said they got pm's isnt even around no more anyways,mwo is a blessing,i wouldnt even have 1 day sober if not for coming here,thank you guys for all the support,ill get it together,just gonna have to try a different approach to STAY sober,im telling anybody who reads this again,hold onto every sober minute,hour,day,week,month etc,drinking is not living

[NoSugar]

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You are helping people right now with your honest and direct posts! Thank you :l.

[K9Lover]

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Pauly :l
I have been where you are MORE times than I can count. For some reason day 40 always triggered me back into drinking. Maybe because I felt like I had "solved" my problem or I wasn't really "that bad" after all. But the truth is, I always ended up just as bad, usually worse, each time I drank. You are NOT beyond help, and you are definitely worth it, so please do not let anyone derail you! If someone as hard-headed and stubborn as me can finally accept the fact that it's just easier to not drink, then anybody can do it. I have complete faith in you. Just stick close to us and don't even think of leaving!
Love,
K9

[sanchez]

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Hi Pauly,
You were one of the first to make me feel at home here too. Not sure that I can give you any advice, but sure can give you support to help you through this. Stick close and let some of the senior members and ones that have experienced the same help you with what to try and do. Just know that you have a lot of people behind these screen names pulling for you and wishing you the best. You are worth it and you can do it. Stay strong and stay close to the nest and keep posting your progress. I'll help in any way possible.
XO
~Sanchez

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Hope today is a good day for you Pauly, it is a good day for me being Day 4 and I am feeling so much better. If not for MWO i would be as hungover as shit and trying to function through another day which would be a blur. Today the sun is shining and except for the slight fog and headache I feel great.

[Kradle123]

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Pauly, my sweet Pauly :l

I've been with you since you've arrived and inthink you have been meeting your challenges with tremendous courage and strength. I mean it. I know your family (like many of us here) has not been your greatest support system and now you have your Aunt, suffering, to console and consider.

You stay with us, you give support here, you are always there with kindness and perspective...that s not the makings of a mess... I know this is a tough journey but Kuya's words are right on: companionship is what will save us. No matter what's going on in our 3D world, I know our 2D world is so special and necessary to our health and well being.

You are loved here and an important pillar of our community :h I cant imagine this place without you. :huggy

[Mr Vervill]

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Pauly,
While we haven't spent much time corresponding, I've always felt a strong vibe from you. Not really sure what that means, except that you have a very strong presence here. Whether you realize it or not, your presence here makes a big difference to many of us. your fight, your struggle is the same as the rest of us. We're all fighting for our lives. keep up the fight, it's worth it.