I no longer fear relapse

[TheSunFlower]

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[Darkest Diamond]

I no longer fear relapse

Thank you for posting this. I completely understand the points that you are making. At this stage I am on day 2 but am feeling stronger than ever as I can really see what alcohol does to me and how much better my life is without it...... also I no longer think of it as a treat but as a poison.... there are so many other things that really are treats... nutritious food etc as they deliver what they promise, where as alcohol for people like us takes every good thing away ....merely delivers darkness, then death!

[available]

I no longer fear relapse

Very well said Sunflower. I am up to Day 6 and tonight is Friday and i feel I should be having a wine, why for gods sakes as it is only the weekend but instead I am having a coffee and on MWO. I dont have the craving of wanting just the habit but the habit was drinking every damn day. I have had the best 6 days AF that I have had in a long time. I think of the positives of no hangover everyday, being happy and smiling instead of grumpy and shaky and a banging head, the money I am saving, everything is so much better.

[Miley]

I no longer fear relapse

Well said SunFlower!!!!

[Samstone]

I no longer fear relapse

Once the realization that you are poisoning yourself hits home, there's no looking back. I enjoyed the thought behind this topic

[TheSunFlower]

I no longer fear relapse

DD....I posted it because I want people to know it gets better. Not always easy....but so much better. I think everyone ultimately knows this....but, it is hard in the beginning to imagine life being fun and exciting being sober. The only way it is miserable is if you live the "pour me" mentality. Fast track to relapse.

Hello, Miley!

Available....our minds are programmed to click into that mode on a Friday. For the longest time leaving work I would get the same feeling. It passes as well.

Sam.....you summed it up. If it were not poison....you would not feel like hell the next day

[MossRose]

I no longer fear relapse

Thanks SunFlower. These are the types of posts that keep me going and make me realize that it's worth the struggle. As Sam said, I need to keep reminding myself that it really is poison...to the body and the soul.

[available]

I no longer fear relapse

Sunflower yes our minds do click to its the weekend mode and even last night my daughter came over and said a scotch would be nice mum and i'm like yes it would be very damn nice but one scotch is not enough so i just came on here and read. I didnt want AL until she suggested it. But I won so I woke up feeling just fantastic which is the first Saturday in years that I am motivated and loving the day.

Day 7 here I come and the poison is slowing leaving my body. No shakes, no sore gums, no hangover, no fog, remembering what I did last night, the list is endless and I am loving it.

[little beagle]

I no longer fear relapse

Sunflower I agree with you. When I first started this journey I felt so sorry for myself that I could no longer drink al. But that quickly changed when I realized that I have so much more from life when I leave out that one thing. I sleep almost every night, wake up refreshed ready to face the day without that terrible anxiety that was my constant companion for so many years. My skin is clearer, my mind is sharper. I really cannot think of one single thing I miss about drinking. I thought I was drinking to relax. Now I know true relaxation.
My dog is so much happier, too. Funny, huh? I guess they really are a reflection of how you really feel. My daughter has committed on her change in attitude and how much more cheerful she is.

[available]

I no longer fear relapse

Beagle well said. Its the feeling we are missing out on something when really the only thing we are missing out on is life. My anxiety is so much better also which is just great. Normally I wait to the afternoon to go shopping as I dont like crowds and blamed my anxiety now i realise it was AL so shortly I am off to the shops to see what normal people do on a Saturday morning. My children just accepted that mum was a piss head and i have not really told them I have given up drinking even though I live with two of them. Boys is all I say!

[Newbeliever]

I no longer fear relapse

I enjoyed your post,I no longer fear relapse. Baclofen took all the cravings away when I did drink after 3 weeks of sobriety.Now its been 5 more sober weeks with emotionally ups and downs but no alcohol. :goodjob::

[lifechange]

I no longer fear relapse

This post really helped me today, Sunflower. For months I've been contemplating my next and final day one. And of course, being that it should be my last, I binged like hell then tried to moderate, to convince myself I didn't really need to have a last day one. All the excuses in the book, running away from the truth. This morning I came here again.. just to read a bit. I decided that today should be the beginning. Not tomorrow or next week or...... I am a bit shaky today but feeling good. Lots of work to do still on changing my mind set.! But I see the possibilities.

[3June2013]

I no longer fear relapse

Sunflower bravo!

I totally agree, getting your head around the fact that you are making a healthy choice, not giving up but getting more, that's the key.

The romanticism of alcohol is hard to resist. But all we need to do is take a look at the reality of it. The ugliness. The deceit. The hurt. The pain. The sadness of it all.

I chose to quit. It was a tough go at first, but after the dust settles it's well worth it.

[witts end]

I no longer fear relapse

good for you sunflower and thankyou for your post
I totally agree with J3 it is tough at first but the key is we have to want to ...really want to

[TheSunFlower]

I no longer fear relapse

Definitely not easy at first. Deciding its gonna kinda suck for 30-60 days.....or it can REALLY suck forever.

LC....we all know waiting for the perfect day to quit.....will never come. The best day is always today. Then do it the next day and the next. One hour, one day at a time. I did the exact same thing....for freaking years!

Alcohol Lied To Me....really helped me with the change in thinking. It wasn't a magic cure....but, it certainly had truth in every sentence. I had read Carr and Vale...this was the book that helped me the most. So much so I felt compelled to write the author and got a nice response back.