why am I doing this again?

[baby_shambles84]

I'm on day 1 again, shaking like crazy, hearts beating out of my chest, intense back pain, vision keeps going blurry. Theres no one in the world that wants anything to do with me after all the horrible things i'v done when i'm drunk. I'm trying to convince myself not to drink but I think i'm fighting a losing battle. I don't know why I would want to be sober. I know i'm feeling sorry for myself I just need to rant to something/anything.

[Suesue]

why am I doing this again?

I'm sure it's not as bad as yiu think. It always seems so black when yiu first wake up but as the hours pass so will the blackness. Chin up. It will be ok.

[Samstone]

why am I doing this again?

Baby Sham
hang in there. Keep checking back in. Drink water, perhaps an Emergency powder, gatorade or some such to help get some electrolytes in you.

Ask yourself "Does it feel like hangover stuff or something worse?" Act accordingly.

As far as not knowing why you'd want to be sober, I suggest that you reread your post, some of your answers are right there.

Sam

[little beagle]

why am I doing this again?

Babe the question is why would you want to go through what you are experiencing right now ever again! Good News!! you don't have to. Hang with us here and you will not regret it.