my poor daughter,i wanted the ground to swallow me up

[Queenbug]

my poor daughter,i wanted the ground to swallow me up

Tree and K9....wise words. Bimble stay with it.....I dedicated one month AF to one of my daughters who moved out to be with her dad in what seemed like a flurry of teenage anger....but when I sobered up for a day or two and asked her to tell me again....it hurt like a stab wound but her 'anger' really did come from her fear and worry for me....when I had managed a few weeks I thanked her saying that the next month AF would be the least I could do...and I managed and her relief was so sad to see, but inner fuel to me to stay with it. Even though I've slipped a bit again recently, being back here and knowing I'm not as alone as I think helps. Someone said to you to keep reading and posting....that's a good plan...sending you good wishes xx

[bimble01]

my poor daughter,i wanted the ground to swallow me up

Thank you so muc,k9 i know that look so well,and the just tonight!
Yep mum,whatever you say that everynte!havnt quit yet,but have
cut down,no day drinking etc,and abstaining when i can,tho on my
first af nte,i over slept and was late for school and work!ha wots that
all about.xx

[Daya]

my poor daughter,i wanted the ground to swallow me up

Hi Bimble, I only started drinking when my son was in his early 20s, but he absolutely hated it...I embarrassed him at parties, in front of his friends, he would come home and id be passed out. One night he got a drunken call from me at his work,saying not to worry about the blood all over the kitchen, as i had hacked through my fingers cutting a sandwich (thought it was a chicken bone and didn't feel it I was so drunk)

The wakeup call for me with him, was last year, when he said he didn't want me to come to his birthday dinner if i was going to drink. I haven't drunk with him ever since .

have continued getting plastered elsewhere though

Bimble, your kids are young enough for you to make a big change and as K9 Said (Hi BTW K9, super pleased to see you again they will forgive and forget. If you stop now, if only for 30 days, nothing worse will happen. And you will stop the cycle of shame/ drink/ shame/ drink/

Most of us here with kids have done awful things, and we are all here for you when you need it.