It's not f*cking easy, is it?

[Guitarista]

It's not f*cking easy, is it?

broken halo;1553138 wrote: breathes....

thank you so much everyone. I didn't drink. What's causing this? I wish I knew. I never want to go back to that, thank you all :l:l

:l:l:h

[MossRose]

It's not f*cking easy, is it?

I am so glad to hear you are doing at least a bit better. I think Byrdie said it all - it's that sneaky rat-bastard AL trying to seduce you with his lies again. Be proud - you gave him the boot. Stay close. Will be around for a while if you need to talk.

[lifechange]

It's not f*cking easy, is it?

I'm so glad you posted and asked for help when you were feeling weak, Bhalo!
That is EXACTLY what I hope I'll be able to do when that sneaky al tries to pull me back in.

[FlyAway]

It's not f*cking easy, is it?

Great job!

[Lavande]

It's not f*cking easy, is it?

BH,
Glad you are fighting back!
Whatever is going on to cause confusion won't be resolved by drinking.....but you already know that

Keep up the good fight!!!

[available]

It's not f*cking easy, is it?

Stay strong BH and if you need swearing at I have a full range in my vocabulary i can throw at you. Keep breathing and not drinking. I for one am very proud of you for your thoughts that you have shared. I think i will be way more vigilant with AL from now on.

[C-Developer]

It's not f*cking easy, is it?

BH,

I have an internal dialogue with myself very similar to yours on a fairly frequent basis, sort of similar to vintage cartoons where you have the devil on one shoulder and an angel on the other, both fighting for control. Thus far, the angel appears to be winning, but that does not mean that the devil has become a deaf mute.

We all need ways to vent frustration in a way that is not self destructive like that bottle of gin is, and that is different for every person. One thing I do know is that the path of alcohol is a dead end road and you already know where it leads.

[sanchez]

It's not f*cking easy, is it?

Good for your resolve BH! Nothing left to say that hasn't been said already but thank you for reaching out to give others the opportunity to support you as this God awful beast tried his damndest to drag you down his rat hole. Sorry for your bad week but nothing and I mean nothing is worth returning to the dark side of al addiction. Nothing you don't already know.

Tonight, the strength of this site sure shined and hopefully tomorrow ( if not tonight) you'll be past this crisis and back on track stronger than ever. But, please stay close and keep us in the loop.
Hugs

[broken halo]

It's not f*cking easy, is it?

Thanks again everyone. I feel a lot better today. I don't know where I'd be without this place. Well, I do, and I am not going back there. I am sorry for my 'fuck it' post, I really hope it didn't upset anyone, looking back it was incredibly selfish, but just how I was feeling at the time. Thank you all again

[available]

It's not f*cking easy, is it?

BH we were all worried and it definitely got everyones attention . I dont think we are selfish saying how we feel at times and hey it made you stay on the straight and narrow so to speak. And the best thing is you are AF woo hoo. Good woman,, stay strong

[little beagle]

It's not f*cking easy, is it?

Not selfish at all. These are the moments we live for. Seeing mwo actually serving its purpose.
Starve that beast. I had a struggle myself Friday night. That al sure is going to use every trick he can to get to us, isn't he?
I'm so glad you made it.

[spiderwoman]

It's not f*cking easy, is it?

Glad you're on the up now BH