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How to use HALT. Hungry Angy Lonely Tired
Hungry. I was Hungry all day long and I ate all day good healthy food.
Angy. I am always angry at the world. I prayed to God every moment today.
Lonely. I could be in a crowd of people and feel lonely. I listened to music and did the above and prayed.
Tired. I am really tired out. I so want to have a great sleep so bad. So I am going to take a sleep aid tonight to finally sleep.

Alcohol does changes our minds in a very profound way. It's going to always be baby steps for us. Tools are there. Life does change for the positive.

[K9Lover]

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:h:h:h

I'm proud of you!

[Queenbug]

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Hello FD...thank you for your reply...I hope you are having an ok day.
Liked what you say about HALT ...used that loads to remind myself to stay away from the wine shelves....especially on the way home from work. I have moved house recently...very rural and remote...and once I get home without stopping for drink...I stayed sober.

Then I lost it for a while.....

I feel better now after being back on MWO for a while....sharing honestly and making contact with others really does help to get a sense of perspective...
2 days sober and steady....back on it....and I'm sticking around this time.
:thanks:

[finallydone]

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K9Lover;1557578 wrote: :h:h:h

I'm proud of you!

I am very proud of you too!!! :h

[finallydone]

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Queenbug;1557669 wrote: Hello FD...thank you for your reply...I hope you are having an ok day.
Liked what you say about HALT ...used that loads to remind myself to stay away from the wine shelves....especially on the way home from work. I have moved house recently...very rural and remote...and once I get home without stopping for drink...I stayed sober.

Then I lost it for a while.....

I feel better now after being back on MWO for a while....sharing honestly and making contact with others really does help to get a sense of perspective...
2 days sober and steady....back on it....and I'm sticking around this time.
:thanks:

Queenbugs! Congrats on two days. I am here if you need support. We CAN do this!

[finallydone]

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Okay! After being lazy. I have set up my first phase of a relapse prevention plan.

1. Today I wrote down a exercise plan instead of winging it.
2. I set-up a daily healthy eating for the week.
3. I set once a week support group meeting that involves being physically around others in recovery.
4. I will read a chapter a day a inspirational book on recovery and a chapter on learning the science behind addiction.
5. I will reach out everyday to help another person either on this site or in life in general to pay it forward.
6. I will take my medications no matter what and listen to my great doctor.

This is the start of rebirth. We can do it!

[Byrdlady]

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That's a great plan, FD!! Staying connected here is the key, I am convinced!
Onwards and upwards!! Hugs, Byrdie

[sanchez]

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finallydone;1557794 wrote: Okay! After being lazy. I have set up my first phase of a relapse prevention plan.

1. Today I wrote down a exercise plan instead of winging it.
2. I set-up a daily healthy eating for the week.
3. I set once a week support group meeting that involves being physically around others in recovery.
4. I will read a chapter a day a inspirational book on recovery and a chapter on learning the science behind addiction.
5. I will reach out everyday to help another person either on this site or in life in general to pay it forward.
6. I will take my medications no matter what and listen to my great doctor.

This is the start of rebirth. We can do it!

Hello FD - Nice to meet you! I like this thread you started and what a great and specific plan you've devised. We can all learn from this. Perhaps the toolbox might be a good place for this too.

[finallydone]

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Thank you everyone for the great support! So happy to be alive today and have great friends on MWO!

[Byrdlady]

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Yes, Sanchez makes a great point, that's Tool Box material! (good eye!!)
Hope you all are having a ducky day!! B

[finallydone]

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I got back from my run. Wow I feel great! Making salmon and green beans for supper. I have a eye appointment after work tomorrow. So sticking to a plan means everyday. No cutting corners. Drank no pop or coffee today. I feel so much better. I slept better last night. I already know I will sleep great tonight.

1. From yesterday keep working the plan. Everyday for the rest of my life is working the plan.
2. Structure will keep me sober. And talking to others who struggle will give me another day sober.
3. Keep on guard. AL is one sneaky bastard.
4. Took my meds. I just have to stay on. Like point one.

Love you all! Another day whipping the beast.

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I wanted to add what I am reading. Staying sober by Terrance Gorski. My inspirational book is the recovery bible. I having taking a multi-vitamin and a B-Complex. Also L-Glutamine really does help with cravings. No matter what. I am drinking at least a gallon a water a day. I sweat a lot in my job so it gets threw me. Treat yourself too. Tonight my treat is popcorn before bed. I appreciate everyone on MWO who has commented on my thread.:thanks:

[finallydone]

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Eating my lunch on work break and wanted to post some thoughts I had this morning. I am not sure if this is in the toolbox but if it's not this a great read. My Reclaimed Life - Alcohol: The Last Drink

I also wanted to state a little of my drinking history to not scare people but to realize how destructive drinking is. I started drinking at the age of 19. Between 19 and 24 I drank maybe once a month. For a full year and a half I didn't drink at all. About 24 I started to drink more often. Maybe 4 to 6 beers a few times a week. By the age of 25 I drinking 6 beers everyday. Fast forward to my 30's. I was drinking at least 6 to 15 beers everyday. With about 2 years of sobriety mixed in. What has been the result of this all? I will list them.

1. 22 days in jail for a DUI.
2. Many failed friendships and relationships.
3. Loss of self-confidence and sprituality.
4. Too many jobs losses to count.
5. Health problems were becoming obvious. Bad stomach and was having issues with my liver. Thankfully my liver issues are not to late yet.
6. 3 stints in rehab and one of them was court ordered.
7. If I get in trouble again over AL use I am facing a possible civil commitment. Yes that's right I could be locked in a mental ward or a very long term stay in a rehab facility and half way house.

Why I am saying this? Because AL destroys lives. It will take everything you have and than kill you in the end. I believe accidents and suicide kill most ALer's outside of withdrawl which is no laughing matter. Or if we keep drinking our livers will give us the finger and we end up with cirrohsis which from what I hear is one terrible way to die. I remember this guy who was about 55 and he turned yellow from years of heavy drinking. He had cirrohsis of the liver. He by some miracle lasted two more years all of them sober. I heard yesterday he died. From what I understand though was the last two years of his life were his best ever. Let's make the rest of our lives our best and let's do them sober. Thanks everyone! Hope you are all having a wonderful day!

[K9Lover]

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Thanks FD! It's good to be reminded of the TRUTH of alcohol...

Thanks for sharing your story

[finallydone]

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I had a doctor and optical appointment today. I can't believe my eye site got better and these new contacts will really help me see better. The doctor was not as great. They are worried about my red blood cell count. That is what happens from years of drinking. No I won't die. But it's a reminder that AL is gone and done for me. I have white spots on my skin which could be from b vitamin defiencey which could be a result of years of heavy drinking. Another reason why I can't ever drink again.

So this is why I can't stress enough to not drink. It does nothing but harm.