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[finallydone]

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Day 5. I head back to work tomorrow. I hopefully have cleared the AL WD danger zone. I am being medically detoxed so I feel safe. So now I have to have a sober living game plan. First thing is first. Do whatever it takes. Most chronic ALers die in there mid 40's to mid 50's. I don't want to die that young. But fear won't keep me sober. So here we go. Number one I am attending 2 AA meetings a week I comfortable and like going to. I called and arranged to do outpatient treatment long-term for awhile minimum 6 months to process and get me threw this rough patch. I have bought some books on relapse prevention and will dig into them and learn more tools. I set-up a exercise and healthy eating plan for myself. I will go into more details tomorrow night on the exact plan. Hope everyone is having a GREAT DAY!

[K9Lover]

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Ahem...."when I feel shaky I will reach out for help..."

I'm sure you MEANT to say that too...right FD? :l

[finallydone]

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K9Lover;1554361 wrote: Ahem...."when I feel shaky I will reach out for help..."

I'm sure you MEANT to say that too...right FD? :l

YES!!:h

[Byrdlady]

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Sounds like a great plan, FD! All there is to do is to do it! We've got yer back!! Hugs, B

[finallydone]

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Byrdlady;1554412 wrote: Sounds like a great plan, FD! All there is to do is to do it! We've got yer back!! Hugs, B

I know you do Byrdie! I am here for you too bud! You and another poster who I shall not name. And she knows who she is. Have picked me up when I felt devasted. Thank you both of you. I love you guys! And I have your back too!

[K9Lover]

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finallydone;1554413 wrote: I know you do Byrdie! I am here for you too bud! You and another poster who I shall not name. And she knows who she is. Have picked me up when I felt devasted. Thank you both of you. I love you guys! And I have your back too!

Awwww....don't mention it! :l

[finallydone]

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K9Lover;1554422 wrote: Awwww....don't mention it! :l

"oh yeah, and you too K9":H

[K9Lover]

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[jenniech]

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Wow FD
I can totally relate to the AA experience. I was going every day and then people got comfortable with me and began gossiping. Vicious stuff. I HATE THAT> everyone there has one purpose....to stay sober and yet I started noticing the cliques and the gossiping and it was such a total turn off. I don't mean to sound superior, but I am SO ABOVE that. I mean come on, everyone has their own unique struggles...there is no need to judge. I hate people who judge others. I thought AA would be a nice reprieve from that....but no!
So i stopped going to meetings and sure enough, i started drinking again. But the thing is, I don't want to go back to AA at all because of the aforementioned issues.
So I have MWO and I feel the pull ..... MWO is pulling me back slowly but surely.....and someday in the very near future I will be ready.

[finallydone]

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jenniech;1554427 wrote: Wow FD
I can totally relate to the AA experience. I was going every day and then people got comfortable with me and began gossiping. Vicious stuff. I HATE THAT> everyone there has one purpose....to stay sober and yet I started noticing the cliques and the gossiping and it was such a total turn off. I don't mean to sound superior, but I am SO ABOVE that. I mean come on, everyone has their own unique struggles...there is no need to judge. I hate people who judge others. I thought AA would be a nice reprieve from that....but no!
So i stopped going to meetings and sure enough, i started drinking again. But the thing is, I don't want to go back to AA at all because of the aforementioned issues.
So I have MWO and I feel the pull ..... MWO is pulling me back slowly but surely.....and someday in the very near future I will be ready.

I very much relate with everything you said. And yes AA can be very gossipy and cliquey. I know exactly what you are saying!

[finallydone]

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Didn't sleep well last night which is to be expected. Packed a good healthy lunch for work today. I really want a pop bad but part of really changing is learning to avoid any possible AL triggers. After work going to go for a jog and do my 50 push-ups for the day. Sticking with a plan is tough, but having a plan I am really learning is essential. I really believe alcoholics crave structure and sameness. I believe AL provided that sameness to us. Learning to create a structure in life will be key in preventing another relapse. Have a great day MWOers!

[Queenbug]

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Hello....I have read this thread avidly...so much relates...I rambled on and on in another thread about why I think I started to guzzle the wine again...and I worry that in my ramble I sounded as if I feel sorry for myself...I don't...but I am angry that I fooled myself that the fuzzy warm feeling and perhaps some resentment towards others that can drink 'normally' meant that I somehow deserved those glasses of red.
Am sticking close and have big respect xx

[finallydone]

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Hi queenbug! Relapses are gut-wrenching to say the least when you were commited to sobriety. But there is good that can come from this. A re-commitment and using every tool there is to maintain it. Don't take it to hard about it. I am over it already. Onward and upward!

[bran new day]

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Hi FD , this is a great place , the best I've ever managed was 2 months in 30 years , 7 months sober is awesome , I think diet and leaving out the sugar are great tactics , and you've got some great support here .
day 2 but feeling strong ,

[finallydone]

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Hi bran new day! I am about to head to bed. Nice to meet you. We have to keep supporting each other and we stay sober. There is so much more I am bringing with this thread. Failure is not a option anymore. We stay sober to fight for our very own lives. I am not giving up.