The realization

[Fisher80]

I apologize for starting the same thread in two different places, but I was recommended that Newbies Nest is more appropriate place for sharing my problem. I am happy I found you, guys. I need someone who understands what I am going through.

I realize that I am in deep trouble. So deep that it seems almost endless. I never thought I would tell it to complete strangers, but after five days of heavy drinking, I must admit that if I will not quite drinking, the drinking will quit me.

I am 33 and I have been a heavy drinker for the past 14 years. I am starting to have serious problems at job, with friends and family, with health ...

I am sitting at home, shaking, sweating, tired, but unable to sleep ... I want to get out, guys, and with help from you and God, I hope to NEVER drink again. I?ve not had a drink for 15 hours and I feel so crappy ...

So, I intend to quit drinking now. Wish me luck.

[oakley]

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Hey Fisher...hang in there and please, please stick around! If you are looking for the support to quit, you've found it.

I popped into this site off and on over the past 6 mos or so...usually on days when I was sick, hung over and trying to recall who I pissed off the night before! It took me until this past weekend to finally find the courage to post and to admit that I cannot deal with this demon alone. Reading the words of the members here has inspired me to change my life. It's scary opening up to strangers but easier than opening up to family and friends.

Here, you will find inspiration, support and love from kindred spirits. It's a soft spot to land. My first step was coming here, reading, posting and receiving feedback...my second step was seeing a doctor who reinforced so much of what I read here. Don't give up. We are here for you!

Blessings

[Dave_]

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To all those who are struggling, it gets better. All you have to do is keep going, don't give up. Time is the master healer of all wounds, just keep going.

[Unwasted]

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Fisher, there is a saying that goes around this site a lot, which I think is true. The only way out is through. So, yes it's hard, but there are lots of people here who have successfully stopped. So, we can too. Are you reading in the Toolbox under Monthly Abstinence? Lots of good advice about ways to eat and drinking lots of water, etc? Post and read as much as you can. It really helps. We just have to keep trying because the alternative is unacceptable!

Sending you peace and strength.

UN :lilheart:

[K9Lover]

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Hi Fisher and Welcome!

I can completely relate to the way you're feeling right now. I went to work many times feeling exactly like that, and I'm not sure how I made it through the day. Can you eat some crackers and drink lots of water or juice today? Even if you can't sleep (I never could with a hangover) at least rest. Breathe deep and remember that this feeling will not last forever. Think of how you feel right now and ask yourself if there is ANY doubt in your mind that alcohol is POISON? Look what it does to your body. You have found a great spot filled with so many people that understand exactly where you're coming from. Please rest today and stick close....keep reading and posting. We are here for you and we can help!

K9

[Fisher80]

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Thank you all. Only your kind words and advice have kept me alive today. Otherwise, this day has been a complete nightmare. It is 8pm and I am still shivering and sweating like a true alcoholic.

Although I feel a bit better physically, I am so afraid of tomorrow as I finally need to get back outside. That second day will be even more difficult than the first. Meeting people after a five days drinking session is ... ah, you know it yourself, guys. I feel fragile, I have no confidence, I am deeply ashamed of myself. Tomorrow I will be finding out how much I have missed over the last days, how all my projects are more behind schedule and how my life is getting more and more messy ...

But I am happy I found this place. Now I just need to go and get back on track with my life. Once and for all. Many of you seem to have done it. So why can?t I?

[Unwasted]

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Fisher,

Good luck tomorrow and stay strong!

xx,
UN :lilheart:

[NoSugar]

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Fisher80;1554270 wrote: So why can?t I?

You can !

But it takes a plan that you commit to with all your being. Maybe you could post your ideas about what you are going to do and get feedback from those of us here who have "been there and done that". We probably will spot any flaws (or escape routes!). Hang in there - NS

[K9Lover]

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Fisher80;1554270 wrote: Many of you seem to have done it. So why can?t I?

Why do you think you "can't" do it? You CAN! Believe me, if I can quit a 12 pack a day habit, then you can too. Change your mindset. You CAN do it! :l

[Softy]

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How did you get on with day two Fisher? Not being mosey, just want to help. It feels natural to help when so many on this site have offered help to me recently and in the past. (I am a serial dipper in and out of this place) Day 4 today and i am feeling more positive. The weekend will be a challenge but this place will help. Keep on keeping on!

Fisher80;1554270 wrote: Thank you all. Only your kind words and advice have kept me alive today. Otherwise, this day has been a complete nightmare. It is 8pm and I am still shivering and sweating like a true alcoholic.

Although I feel a bit better physically, I am so afraid of tomorrow as I finally need to get back outside. That second day will be even more difficult than the first. Meeting people after a five days drinking session is ... ah, you know it yourself, guys. I feel fragile, I have no confidence, I am deeply ashamed of myself. Tomorrow I will be finding out how much I have missed over the last days, how all my projects are more behind schedule and how my life is getting more and more messy ...

But I am happy I found this place. Now I just need to go and get back on track with my life. Once and for all. Many of you seem to have done it. So why can?t I?

[Fisher80]

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NoSugar;1554276 wrote: You can !

Maybe you could post your ideas about what you are going to do and get feedback from those of us here who have "been there and done that". We probably will spot any flaws (or escape routes!). Hang in there - NS

Very good idea, though it is still my first day with the idea that I must quit drinking NOW and therefore I have no grand master-plan yet. I just a few first thoughts.

- I decided to have no alcohol at home. I poured out all the remainders and I will gather all my strength to buy no more. I can?t have a bottle of wine at home for accidental guests. The guests will have to bring their own drinks.
- I need some hobbies that keep me active and away from the bottle. Years and years of drinking have led me to a situation where my only hobby is drinking and I have no other alternative for spending time. I need to understand what interests me and start doing it instead of looking into the bottle.
- I should not be ashamed to tell my friends and family that I do not drink anymore. There is nothing wrong with it.
- I should finally understand that I am an alcoholic and that I will never be a responsible just-one-glass drinker. Therefore quitting is the only way.

But now I will try to get some sleep. Tomorrow will be brighter, I know.

[Fisher80]

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Softy;1554300 wrote: How did you get on with day two Fisher? Not being mosey, just want to help. It feels natural to help when so many on this site have offered help to me recently and in the past. (I am a serial dipper in and out of this place) Day 4 today and i am feeling more positive. The weekend will be a challenge but this place will help. Keep on keeping on!

The day two hasnt started yet, it is still 9.15pm on day 1 for me. Ill let you guys know. Day 4 sounds like a dream. I dont think Ive seen more than Day 3 in the last four-five years.

[Softy]

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Day four will have been and gone before you know it - hang in there!

[K9Lover]

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Your first thoughts on a plan sound good to me!

I went back to being an avid reader after I quit. Oh sure, I'd "try" to read while I was drinking but you can imagine how that turned out.

Also, I picked up crochet and recently (with a broken foot) tried needlepoint (didn't get very far) but my point is that I'm sure it will come back to you what you used to enjoy.

Congrats on getting through day 1...9:15pm sounds like bed time to me!

Be sure to come back first thing tomorrow!

[broken halo]

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Fisher80;1554270 wrote: Thank you all. Only your kind words and advice have kept me alive today. Otherwise, this day has been a complete nightmare. It is 8pm and I am still shivering and sweating like a true alcoholic.

Although I feel a bit better physically, I am so afraid of tomorrow as I finally need to get back outside. That second day will be even more difficult than the first. Meeting people after a five days drinking session is ... ah, you know it yourself, guys. I feel fragile, I have no confidence, I am deeply ashamed of myself. Tomorrow I will be finding out how much I have missed over the last days, how all my projects are more behind schedule and how my life is getting more and more messy ...

But I am happy I found this place. Now I just need to go and get back on track with my life. Once and for all. Many of you seem to have done it. So why can?t I?

Fisher, I am so glad you got through day 1. I understand what you are saying about day 2 and the shame of facing the consequences of what you've done these last five days. I hope you get a sleep. You have come through hell today and you are stronger than you think. Day 2 hopefully won't be as bad as you anticipate. :l