Already thinking about controlled drinking!!

[Sake123]

I already know the answer to this but am posting because I can't let these thoughts sit alone in my very sick little mind. I'm on day 7 and feeling awesome (which is probably a part of the problem). I'm starting to think...I can have some one the weekend. Just quit during the week. OR I'm going on vacation Nov 5th and am already arguing with myself about staying sober until then will prove that I can drink on vacation.

So pissed that these thoughts are even entering my mind. What the hell??? Addiction sucks so much.

[Unwasted]

Already thinking about controlled drinking!!

Sake, go here:

Rational Recovery | The Crash Course On AVRT

It's where 199 started out and he is now coming up on 2 years sober.

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[Sake123]

Already thinking about controlled drinking!!

Hi Unwasted - I will check it out. Thanks!!

[Byrdlady]

Already thinking about controlled drinking!!

Sake, there are 7 years' worth of tales on this very site of folks with the same thoughts! I was one of them! I tried to moderate for a dam year and I never drank harder! It seems like whenever I was able to be AF, when I allowed myself to have it, it was like I was drinking out of panic! I made up for lost time or something. It NEVER WORKS! Never! Remember, even on this site that got started with that notion, that it is only advocated with the use of those high powered medications...and they carry all kinds of side effects. Even the founder of this site, to all accounts I've been able to find, is now AF. After all, haven't you tried to moderate before? Didn't you always tell yourself you were going to control it and then BAM? Even the notion doesn't make sense...what happens after you have a couple drinks? You relax your standards and BAM. Yes, BAM.
Maintain your quit! A normal drinker wouldn't have joined this site....we googled problem drinking for a reason! Please don't do what I did...I just prolonged the agony!! I got a lot worse before I finally got better, and that's get AL out and move along!!! It's just Addiction Head talking....(Dick Head) he'll tell you anything to get back in...don't fall for it! It's a trap! XXOO, Byrdie

[finallydone]

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Sake!!!!!!!! Please don't do this to yourself again. I have tried SOOOOOOOOOOOOO many times to think I could control it. I can't. Do whatever you have to do. Don't take the first drink. PLEASE. I feel so much better when I am sober. I love life. Don't do it. PLEASE!

[broken halo]

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Sake, switch your thinking to planning how you are not going to drink. I have a corporate night out next month and have a plan in place already, I am actually looking forward to it as an AL free night. Don't give yourself excuses.:l

[Sake123]

Already thinking about controlled drinking!!

Byrdie - LOL! I'll have to tell dick head to take a freaking hike!!! Yes, I've tried it before. I even have a post from you from just a couple months ago where I wanted to do some controlled drink on vacation. It took me from early July until now to even get back to square one. I know it's a bad idea. I know it doesn't work, I just wish I could be stronger about tuning out that stupid arse voice!

Finallydone - Thanks for the reminder. Me too!! I love feeling alive, hopefully and NO hangover.

Again...that's why I posted this. I just need to keep listening to the people on this site and telling dick head to shut the hell up!

[Sake123]

Already thinking about controlled drinking!!

broken halo - another great idea. I'm going to Kauai for almost 3 weeks. I know this island well but have never been there without drinking. I told my husband I wanted to try some hikes etc. so yes, I need to make a very solid plan on what I'm going to do instead drinking!!

[K9Lover]

Already thinking about controlled drinking!!

Sake -
It's every alcoholics dream to be able to moderate. Successfully moderating would make you a normal drinker. Normal drinkers don't Google "how to quit drinking". Normal drinkers don't end up on MWO....see where I'm going with this? :l

[Sake123]

Already thinking about controlled drinking!!

Yes...Yes...I do see where you're going! Hugs to you!! You're so flipping right!

[Byrdlady]

Already thinking about controlled drinking!!

Ok Sake, I'm willing to take one for the team....I will go with you to Kauai... I'll swear, I have to do EVERYTHING around here!! Bahahaha, can I stow away in your bags???

[finallydone]

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Sake. I made a bad decision when I got the thought in my head I could just drink one more time. Than my life turned into a pile of horse dung again. Will you just not drink today and just sleep on it and think about it all. You can drink tomorrow if you want to. But today just see how it keeps feeling being sober. Give it time. You are worth more to this world sober than drinking. And your life is precious. We want you around for a long time. I am not perfect. I messed up. But you can do this. And so can I. We need you here with us.

[K9Lover]

Already thinking about controlled drinking!!

You did good though, you came here when the thought hit you rather than coming back after a relapse. Good thinking, I'm proud of you! :l

[Sake123]

Already thinking about controlled drinking!!

Byrdie - You are a giver, aren't you! LOL! Yes- you can come along!! I might just need you there! Thanks!
Finallydone - I will keep the plug in the jug for now. I'm hoping by the time I go I will have exactly 60 days under my belt and just won't feel the same way I do now. And Thanks!!
k9 - Thanks! I'm just trying to be an open book so I don't have to come crawling back wondering what the hell happened.

I've been wandering around the house saying "I don't drink" and then came up...with "I think, therefore, I don't drink!" Thought it was rather catchy!

[K9Lover]

Already thinking about controlled drinking!!

Hey, that is catchy! We can keep adding lines and make it into a song:

lalala...I think
therefore, I don't drink (don't drink)
therefore, I don't stink (don't stink)

(musical interlude)


take it from here kids...that's all I got.