I am sure I have posted something similar before, but indulge me. It's something I have been thinking about a lot over the last few days. Why did I struggle so much with cravings over the weekend? I forgot about my choices.
Oh, I made the choices about not giving in to my desperate cravings for cigarettes and alcohol. But I didn't practise what I preach to just about anyone who will listen to me everyday about internal choices. We get to choose our mood.
We get to choose how we feel about denying the cravings and not giving in. Does it feel, awful, like you are totally deprived and it's the end of an era. Do you feel sad, lonely, depressed, regretful?
Or do you rejoice in another hard fought victory to add to your armoury? Do you delight in the fact that you have kicked that bastard firmly in the arse once again and that no matter how hard he tried, you were strong, resilient, and very thankful for yet another day of the sobriety you are loving more as each day goes by? What a difference a change in outlook and internal language can make!
I forgot myself, the rules I live my life by, because I made the wrong choices when it came to handling my reaction to those cravings.
I coach people daily on these things, yet sometimes I forget! My best ally is myself, and I get to choose.
Yes there are regrets and realities about the damage we have done. They have to be recognised, acknowledged, dealt with. So deal with them and change things. Learn from the past, live for the future.
I choose the positives. AL was killing me slowly. I am happy, strong, healthy in spite of
that demon. I look fantastic, I am firing on all cylinders physically and mentally, I am losing nothing and gaining everything. No one else can influence your mind, your mood, your attitude. These things are yours to own, no one else's..
Oh, I made the choices about not giving in to my desperate cravings for cigarettes and alcohol. But I didn't practise what I preach to just about anyone who will listen to me everyday about internal choices. We get to choose our mood.
We get to choose how we feel about denying the cravings and not giving in. Does it feel, awful, like you are totally deprived and it's the end of an era. Do you feel sad, lonely, depressed, regretful?
Or do you rejoice in another hard fought victory to add to your armoury? Do you delight in the fact that you have kicked that bastard firmly in the arse once again and that no matter how hard he tried, you were strong, resilient, and very thankful for yet another day of the sobriety you are loving more as each day goes by? What a difference a change in outlook and internal language can make!
I forgot myself, the rules I live my life by, because I made the wrong choices when it came to handling my reaction to those cravings.
I coach people daily on these things, yet sometimes I forget! My best ally is myself, and I get to choose.
Yes there are regrets and realities about the damage we have done. They have to be recognised, acknowledged, dealt with. So deal with them and change things. Learn from the past, live for the future.
I choose the positives. AL was killing me slowly. I am happy, strong, healthy in spite of
that demon. I look fantastic, I am firing on all cylinders physically and mentally, I am losing nothing and gaining everything. No one else can influence your mind, your mood, your attitude. These things are yours to own, no one else's..
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