Hi all,
I am new to this. I am really struggling with addiction. I really started drinking hard about 4 years ago when I realized my marriage was failing. The relationship was doomed whether I drank or not, so I used that as my escape to not deal with the situation at hand. Since then I progressed from beer to wine to whiskey. I have gone 2 days without drinking one time. I want to stop and seem to not have the will power. I quit smoking several years ago and envisioned quitting alcohol to be as easy, but it is not. Quitting smoking I got a bit aggressive but held it in, which was tolerable. Alcohol is wholly different. I get uncontrollable shakes which at work, I get questioned on. I get cold sweats, just thinking about a drink makes me go to something like a happy place in my mind for a bit until I ?come to? and remember I am at work and that I need to get a grip on reality at least until I am alone. Also, times when I would normally bite my tongue and not comment when someone pisses me off, if I am drinking, I say things I regret or at least, say things I know I shouldn?t.
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I am new to this. I am really struggling with addiction. I really started drinking hard about 4 years ago when I realized my marriage was failing. The relationship was doomed whether I drank or not, so I used that as my escape to not deal with the situation at hand. Since then I progressed from beer to wine to whiskey. I have gone 2 days without drinking one time. I want to stop and seem to not have the will power. I quit smoking several years ago and envisioned quitting alcohol to be as easy, but it is not. Quitting smoking I got a bit aggressive but held it in, which was tolerable. Alcohol is wholly different. I get uncontrollable shakes which at work, I get questioned on. I get cold sweats, just thinking about a drink makes me go to something like a happy place in my mind for a bit until I ?come to? and remember I am at work and that I need to get a grip on reality at least until I am alone. Also, times when I would normally bite my tongue and not comment when someone pisses me off, if I am drinking, I say things I regret or at least, say things I know I shouldn?t.
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