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[Kradle123]

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Hi sweet Daya. :l

I remember you and am so glad your back home with us. :h

I can't add much more to everyone's perspective. I too have been in the "what the hell just happened" camp but I am wondering about the person who put champagne in your orange juice! I find that very disturbing!
Perhaps down the road of explanations (if you going this route) you may want to mention this.
I don't know how things work in Australia but I don't believe anyone has been sued for getting toasted and acting up with a business associate.
Here in the states, think have of copraate America would be in the courts

Stay close,
:l:h

[Daya]

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Thanks LB

little beagle;1559357 wrote: Alcohol definitely is not my friend. I have done something very similar. Minus the making out. Hubby was with me. Don't beat yourself up too bad. Other people tend to forget our mistakes way before we do. Take care of yourself.

[Daya]

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Hi Kradle, Its nice to be home

The orange juice guy is a good friend of mine, that has no idea i have a drinking problem...that was in the very beginning of the night anyway. My special friend just told me that he doubts the drink could be spiked, as he saw the waiter pour it from the bottle.

Im still confused as to why I was fine on the way there, then suddenly very very drunk?

Its the inside info i gave my competitor (I think) about another company that could get me sued...

I am staying close here.

Kradle123;1559421 wrote: Hi sweet Daya. :l

I remember you and am so glad your back home with us. :h

I can't add much more to everyone's perspective. I too have been in the "what the hell just happened" camp but I am wondering about the person who put champagne in your orange juice! I find that very disturbing!
Perhaps down the road of explanations (if you going this route) you may want to mention this.
I don't know how things work in Australia but I don't believe anyone has been sued for getting toasted and acting up with a business associate.
Here in the states, think have of copraate America would be in the courts

Stay close,
:l:h

[Daya]

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Hi Sake, I have had a drink spiked once when i wasn't drinking any alcohol, just tonic water...unfortunately, if I didn't have a drinking problem in the first place, it would make it much clearer about what actually did happen.

I dont regard alcohol as my friend, and actually said that to my husband before i developed problems..

Sake123;1559417 wrote: Daya - I'm glad that you shared your story. I had a similar night happen years ago to me. Although I had a lot more to drink than you did. I was pretty sure that someone slipped me something. I spoke with someone I trust about it because it bothered me for a long time. She pointed out something important "If I had not been drinking, I would have never been in a situation where someone would have slipped me anything." That hit home for me. I found her truth to be staggering (no pun intended).

I hope that you can use this situation to strengthen your position on alcohol. It is not my friend, it's a horrible, dishonest, cheating SOB that will ruin me with any given opportunity.

[allankay]

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Dear Daya,

I feel your pain. There is a whole thread on MWO dedicated to "The worst thing you have done while drunk". Some stories are truly horrific, like driving your kids and there friends drunk, married people having sex with strangers (even though they are very conservative when sober), ruining their friendships in one night, getting arrested......

The only good thing that I can think of in this situation is that it takes a really low point like this to get the proper motivation to stop. In my case for example, I had to go through a night of shameful behaviour, some very poor social conduct to hit the very bottom of the drinking well. Every time I got a craving I thought back to that night and it helped me through.

I am now almost 13 months sober and think the reason for my success is that horrible night.

Hope you can also look at this situation as the point when you turn everything around and extract maximum value from a bad decision.

Allan

[Daya]

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Hi Allenkay,
this would have to be the worst drinking night In have had, and thats saying something. I know it can only get worse from here on if I dont stop. My friends are also sick of my drama..

Congratulations on the 13 moths sober!!! How do you feel?

allankay;1559546 wrote: Dear Daya,

I feel your pain. There is a whole thread on MWO dedicated to "The worst thing you have done while drunk". Some stories are truly horrific, like driving your kids and there friends drunk, married people having sex with strangers (even though they are very conservative when sober), ruining their friendships in one night, getting arrested......

The only good thing that I can think of in this situation is that it takes a really low point like this to get the proper motivation to stop. In my case for example, I had to go through a night of shameful behaviour, some very poor social conduct to hit the very bottom of the drinking well. Every time I got a craving I thought back to that night and it helped me through.

I am now almost 13 months sober and think the reason for my success is that horrible night.

Hope you can also look at this situation as the point when you turn everything around and extract maximum value from a bad decision.

Allan

[little beagle]

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Daya I too look back at that night out with the company party as one of the main reasons to stop drinking. Just the shame of behaving that badly makes me not want a drink.
Like you I had a coke problem. I just quit that at the same time I quit al. I tell you I feel so much better. I am a new person with my self respect back.
I really hope you don't get sued. If you don't remember that much maybe you didn't really say anytime damaging?
I know sometimes al would hit me harder then other times. My body was just weaker or something. One drink and I wouldn't remember the rest of the night.
And my daughter never knew the extent of my drinking because After awhile I hid it. We have a lot in common!
Take care. Get some rest and at know that you can go forward proudly because you don't ever have to do anything like that again.

[Forgotten Night]

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Hi Daya

I'm an Aussie too from Melbourne. Red wine is definitely "black out" material, especially for women it seems. I read somewhere that red wine has a rather high % of GHB which is what is also referred to as the "date rape drug".
Wine drinkers may be imbibing illicit drug - National - NZ Herald News

If I start drinking other stuff, and end up on the red, I will not remember the evening from the first glass of red onwards. Even though, I can be carrying on conversations or even doing dishes, etc. Aussie wine is very high in alcohol as well, higher than European wines.

In saying the above, I foolishly thought that if I just avoided the "red", I would be fine. Well a bottle of red found its way into my hands a few days ago and the fallout from my drunken behaviour still continues.

I intend to sign up to the 30 Day Challenge but reading the stories on this Forum in the past few days, 30 Days might have to be forever as it seems to me, once you reach rock bottom on drinking, there is ultimately always a new rock bottom if you start to drink again.

Good luck with your husband and the alcohol in the house. My partner is a good drinker as well though has said he wants to stop having it in the house. Hope he can live up to the bargain.

[allankay]

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Daya;1559548 wrote: Hi Allenkay,
this would have to be the worst drinking night In have had, and thats saying something. I know it can only get worse from here on if I dont stop. My friends are also sick of my drama..

Congratulations on the 13 moths sober!!! How do you feel?

Daya,

to answer your question, I feel strong. Both physically and mentally. I think fear and experience keep me grounded. Fear of doing something horrible to myself or someone else, under the influence. Experience of how to deal with social situations, physical and psychological cravings...helps a lot too.

I truly believe that I will stay sober for the rest of my life as I do not see a single benefit of drinking. But the benefits of being sober are immense: more disposable income, better mood, better relationships, better sex, better physical appearance.........

I really do not understand how the society accepts drinking as a norm...it causes misery for so so many.....



Allan

[Daya]

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Hi LB, its the shame I feel about being publicly (apparently) all over someone in front of collogues that also stinks.

I got lulled into a false sense of security with myself, as nothing like this has happened in ages...The coke I battled with for many years, then i just sort of got tired of it? Im hoping this will happen with the booze also.

little beagle;1559560 wrote: Daya I too look back at that night out with the company party as one of the main reasons to stop drinking. Just the shame of behaving that badly makes me not want a drink.
Like you I had a coke problem. I just quit that at the same time I quit al. I tell you I feel so much better. I am a new person with my self respect back.
I really hope you don't get sued. If you don't remember that much maybe you didn't really say anytime damaging?
I know sometimes al would hit me harder then other times. My body was just weaker or something. One drink and I wouldn't remember the rest of the night.
And my daughter never knew the extent of my drinking because After awhile I hid it. We have a lot in common!
Take care. Get some rest and at know that you can go forward proudly because you don't ever have to do anything like that again.

[Daya]

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I really like your response Allankay...its inspiring. I started a thread here a year ago, when i did feel pretty clear, about what we liked about being sober, I may try and find it again.

allankay;1559611 wrote: Daya,

to answer your question, I feel strong. Both physically and mentally. I think fear and experience keep me grounded. Fear of doing something horrible to myself or someone else, under the influence. Experience of how to deal with social situations, physical and psychological cravings...helps a lot too.

I truly believe that I will stay sober for the rest of my life as I do not see a single benefit of drinking. But the benefits of being sober are immense: more disposable income, better mood, better relationships, better sex, better physical appearance.........

I really do not understand how the society accepts drinking as a norm...it causes misery for so so many.....



Allan

[Daya]

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Spoo the most special person in my life has just told me he's leaving, can't deal with the drinking anymore.... My heart is breaking...

[allankay]

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Daya;1559895 wrote: Spoo the most special person in my life has just told me he's leaving, can't deal with the drinking anymore.... My heart is breaking...

Daya, it is hard to believe it now but time heals everything. Stick to your convictions, stay sober, be positive and he will notice the difference. After all drinking is an illness and the person you become is not the real you. You would not blame a paraplegic for not playing tennis with you...The good thing is that you can do something about this illness and if he is truly your friend he will recognise it and come around in due time.

Unfortunately when we feel down we seek an immediate relief to our emotional pain. Alcohol provides a short term solution but causes even more emotional stress later. So be strong, find a relief for your stress (best I found is comfort food and gym) and give it time.

And remember people here are amazing and know exactly what you are going through, so use us any time you need to.

Best,

Allan

[available]

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There is one way to get Spoo back Daya and that is by giving up AL and proving to him you dont need it. I pushed my friends away it was a lot easier doing that and i think they got sick of the drunken phone calls etc and my opinions.

Give him time, friendships arent easily broken and he probably hates seeing you the way you are and feels he cant change you. He is your friend for a reason as you are a good person. He has had enough just like you have had enough of AL or you would not be here.

Keep going and be strong and focus on yourself and getting better.

[Daya]

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Thank you everyone... I have been up all night crying... This man is one of the purest and most beautiful things in my life.. Or was. He wants to stay in touch, be friends, but due to the nature of our friendship I can't do that..... I don't believe my drinking is an illness Alan... It's just a really destructive selfish indulgence.
I keep tuning of the expression" you only change when the pain of not changing becomes too painful"
It is good he has done this.. For himself and me. I am just so sorry I've hurt someone who only tried to constantly help me. Plus I think he was pretty shocked, we both thought I had a handle on the drinking.
It's time for me to grow up, and once and for all take responsibility for myself and my actions.