Almost a month ago I made an appointment at a local spa to get a facial. I haven't had one in years and never really bothered with it. Anyway - I made the appointment, I think the first or second day AF. I remember thinking...ok, October 1st is almost a month away and it will be a gift to myself for staying AF. Honestly, I said it in a half assed way because I figured I'd never make it this far. But here I am!!!
I can't believe that I haven't drank in 27 days. It doesn't seem like very long at all..My struggles for a long time were "just don't drink during the week" and I'd get to about maybe wed if it was a good week and each day was a torture!! And those resolves were few and far between. Now I have 27 days put together. The only thing that has changed in the last 27 days is everything! Well actually the only real change is that I'm not drinking...but what comes from that is monumental. And I need to remember that. I wake up tired but NOT hung-over or worse yet still DRUNK!!! I hated that feeling. And Right before I quit..I remember leaving a friends house in the am with my husband and daughter in tow and I felt so horrible. And I had run out of smokes. The nearest store was a good 40 minutes away. Anyway - I just remember feeling like death warmed over. Just waiting to get to the store and waiting to get to our next destination so I could have a drink. And then having my Mormon friend show up at our campsite and thinking...oh please hurry up so I can start drinking! LOL!!! Anyway - what I'm trying to say is why do we give alcohol such a front and center stage in our lives?!?!? I'm going to be 45 in January and I'm feeling somewhat regretful that I've wasted so much of my life. But mostly very thankful for these 27 days!! I would not have made it without the help and support of this forum. I'm sure of that!
So happy day people! I'm off to get that facial...without having booze ooze from my pores!
I can't believe that I haven't drank in 27 days. It doesn't seem like very long at all..My struggles for a long time were "just don't drink during the week" and I'd get to about maybe wed if it was a good week and each day was a torture!! And those resolves were few and far between. Now I have 27 days put together. The only thing that has changed in the last 27 days is everything! Well actually the only real change is that I'm not drinking...but what comes from that is monumental. And I need to remember that. I wake up tired but NOT hung-over or worse yet still DRUNK!!! I hated that feeling. And Right before I quit..I remember leaving a friends house in the am with my husband and daughter in tow and I felt so horrible. And I had run out of smokes. The nearest store was a good 40 minutes away. Anyway - I just remember feeling like death warmed over. Just waiting to get to the store and waiting to get to our next destination so I could have a drink. And then having my Mormon friend show up at our campsite and thinking...oh please hurry up so I can start drinking! LOL!!! Anyway - what I'm trying to say is why do we give alcohol such a front and center stage in our lives?!?!? I'm going to be 45 in January and I'm feeling somewhat regretful that I've wasted so much of my life. But mostly very thankful for these 27 days!! I would not have made it without the help and support of this forum. I'm sure of that!
So happy day people! I'm off to get that facial...without having booze ooze from my pores!
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