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[Darkest Diamond]

Have been to A and E today. It was awful, I went as I was frightened about alcohol withdrawals I have been given some diazepam very low dose and hardly any. Feel I need more. Feel so sick that I don't feel I can keep the diazepam down, wish I had asked the doctor for anti sickness meds as well, on Monday will go to my own doctor.It has been horrendous this weekend. I feel utterly ashamed . I feel so full of fear right now.... too frightened to sleep

[Kradle123]

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Hi DD.

First a big hug. :l you have been truly courageous these last few months as I have followed your journey. I too am regret central...sometimes I almost paralyzed with memories.
It is awful. And telling myself not to live in the past just doesn't cut it for me.

Here's a thread you started about Fear:
https://www.mywayout.org/community/f19/fear-78870.html

I think a lot of good things are said in there . Have a prousal before bed.
Put on some hot water and make mint tea. That is very soothing.

I don't know where you live but if it's warm, just open a winow in the bedroom and then buy some flowers for the house tomorrow...
I could think of more but it's really late here
Will checks in tomorrow . :l:h
Get some Sleep, please:l

[treetops]

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DD - I guess you live in London so you have another day and night before you can see your own doctor.
Try to take the diazepam and try to rest or sleep. I guess that if its really bad - you go back to the A and E. You may need more supervision for AL withdrawal.
Another option would be to ring AA - or an AL helpline - to get you through the next 24 hours. Those who live in the UK may have better ideas

Thinking of you

[hadit]

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DD, So sorry you are having such a bad time of it. JUST wanted to let you know we are all here for you. :h

[Darkest Diamond]

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Thanks for support. Just wish I could sleep but I can't I am drinking lots of water as I feel so dehydrated, I actually feel a little better now than previously. I really am going to make this my day one and build on lots of days.

[spiderwoman]

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Can't advise on the withdrawal DD but definitely keep on drinking the water, be very kind to yourself and rest, even if you can't sleep. Try NHS Direct if feel any worse, they may be able to advise, in some places there are emergency GPs on duty. This is going to be so worth it in the long run.

[JackieClaire]

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Oh DD,
I feel for you, I really do. I've gone through what your going through today too many times to mention.

Sounds like the valium has kicked in now and you're doing exactly the right thing keeping yourself hydrated. If you have any bananas, cut one up into slices and try and nibble at them. I know, I know the last thing on your mind will be food in any way shape or form but it's something to do with the potassium.

Here's the AA helpline.........0845 769 7555, they'll put you in touch with some one near you. Believe me they won't drag you off to a meeting kicking and screaming unless you want to.

There are plenty of other help-lines out there but I'll let you do it. It'll keep you busy googling.

Now to the shame, me lovely. You are ill and needed medical help. There is no shame in that at all. Be done with beating yourself up and get on showing them you can and will get better.

J x
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[broken halo]

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DD, please take good care of yourself. Take on board all of the previous advice about the withdrawals, you don't have to go through this alone. We know exactly how it feels. Keep posting and keep in touch :l

[little beagle]

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Diamond :l
sending you healing thoughts.

[Darkest Diamond]

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Feeling a bit better, have eaten. Going out for a little walk later as weather is so beautiful.