I messed up again

[MikeInMass]

After going to rehab and saying to myself I will not drink again, here I am again back on Day 1 for today..
I feel so ashamed and guilty at myself.. I can barely type, shaking so bad, all ive been doing is drinking for the last 2 weeks.

I need to stop, it all starts when I start thinking about the past and get all depressed.

[Lavande]

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Welcome back Mike!
Sorry you decided to drink again, it never does us any good.

Jump back in the Newbies Nest for a while. You can do this again, we'll be around for support. Please take good care of yourself, get medical help if needed, OK?

I finally found success when I stopped dwelling on the past. Today truly is the only thing we have. Keeping our focus on today is the best thing for all of us

Wishing you the best!
Lav

[lifechange]

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Yes, Mike! Come and join us in the Nest--
lots of really nice people there who can help you along, support you on this journey. Do you have a plan for the day? Lots of non-al drinks, some good food? Is all the AL out of the house, down the drain? NOW is a great time to start. Today is a great DAY 1, really it is. Like Lav said, we only really know about the moment we're in -- and we have the CHOICE not to drink in this moment. Hope to see a lot of you here!?

[Wine-no!]

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You're back and that's the main thing.
Wishing you all the best xx

[broken halo]

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Mike, I am so sorry you feel so bad. Please seek help with withdrawals if they are really bad. I know you've had health problems a while back, please take care of yourself.

I remember back when I felt like that in the past, and one of the worst feelings for me apart from the horrible physical withdrawals was the terrible feeling of isolation and loneliness. You don't need to suffer that, at least. You have us, and we understand. Please take good care of yourself.

[noodle]

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Hi Mike, I'm in this very sad boat to, looking forward to a new start. Strength and love to you, that's all we all need, I think this is the most likely place we can find it. x

[treetops]

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MikeInMass;1565124 wrote: After going to rehab and saying to myself I will not drink again, here I am again back on Day 1 for today..
I feel so ashamed and guilty at myself.. I can barely type, shaking so bad, all ive been doing is drinking for the last 2 weeks.

I need to stop, it all starts when I start thinking about the past and get all depressed.

Hi Mike now is not the time to look back but to concentrate on the present and then the future will take care of itself. One day at a time. Nurture yourself and see this as a healing period.
Best of luck

[available]

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Hi Mike and welcome. The past is the past and we cant change it, we can accept it and deal with it the best we can and move on. The days are much better without AL and we have all gotten to that point where we dont want to do it anymore and that is why we are here to be with people who know and understand what we are going through and feeling. The stories all involve AL, and include shame, embarrassment and everything else thrown in for good measure. The cycle can be broken and when you get those AF days up things start to look better and that includes yourself.

Keep on here and MWO makes this journey so much easier to deal with with people who have "been there and done that" and are still fighting the battle.

[Guitarista]

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Hi Mike,

Good to see you back buddy. Yes, dwelling/focusing on the past is a killer. But we don't have to dwell and live there. It will do our heads in.

Have you tried mindfulness? meditation? Google mindfulness and get into it. The techniques are simple, and will help you focus on today, the now.

Well done on the rehab. Keep it going. Hope to see you around.

G bloke.

[3June2013]

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Mike so sorry to hear you feeling sick, and down. But today is day one, you're here, you're done with AL, you're on the mend. Hang in there, you know the drill, one day at a time.

[Darkest Diamond]

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I am in the same place as you, I do believe with the people on here I can do this and so can you!