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[Darkest Diamond]

Now on day two and feel so much better, so far have only needed 2 valium over a 36hour span, they really have shielded me from the horrendous withdrawals that I used to have.

Lots of work from home today, then back to work tomorrow.So far on this forum I have started lots of different threads, responded to others etc , this one I will keep going regardless of what does/does not happen. I need to be accountable.

Everyday I read Newbies Nest but find it hard to post there as so much is happening, but reading it is good, very helpful.

Have decided on a plan that this time I am going to stick too, a combo of being on here, AA, in London there are so many meetings I can cherry pick! Also exercise, for me this will be walking or dancing. Also will continue to have counselling and do the things he suggests. Finally prayer and meditation, I do believe in a loving spiritual force in the world that I know I can tap into, perhaps this should have been listed first!

Also I know I need not to look back, just live in the moment and look forward. Looking back for me is damaging.

Thank you to everyone on here. This is a wonderful forum.

[Wine-no!]

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Hi DD
Congrats on day two. I also like having just one thread to update and read and occasionally comment on the newbies nest but find it hard to keep up!
Wishing you all the best. I will keep coming back to see how you're doing x

[available]

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DD hello, i had valium for a few days to get me to sleep and over the anxiety issue. Day 37 and no anxiety and life is so much better. The newbies nest is great to catch up with people and see how everyone is doing although it is hard to keep up with so a thread is good. I keep a journal on my day to day life as a keepsake, I dont ever want to go back to day 1 again and this is where this site is a wonderful place to be.

Keep on here and the benefits are amazing the longer you are AF

[treetops]

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Glad to see that you are on the road to survival DD. Best wishes

[noodle]

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Hi DD, I'm just coming to the end of day 1, and never want to feel the way I have today, and pretty much every other day for God knows how long, ever again. This is it. Look forward to getting to know you, take care and good luck x

[gingerspice]

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Well done on day 2 - A good idea to formulate a plan ,-having a way forward always helps to focus the mind .Take good care of yourself ,and spoil yourself ,a bit of TLC always helps. x

[Tom321]

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That plan sounds amazing. Just try not to be too rigid..I made so many overly ambitious plans for recovery and most just wound up stressing me out and overwhelming me. Good luck to you
Tom

[gambler]

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Darkest Diamond;1565414 wrote:
Everyday I read Newbies Nest but find it hard to post there as so much is happening, but reading it is good, very helpful.

Hi DD

I was not too sure how to post and utilize the Nest when I first arrived. I even mentioned saying something to the affect of I think I would be better off out here in the main forum threads. But Its just like anything else you have to get used to It. The flow of things is not really important. Unless you feel that you need to be a part of everything..which you dont then just use it as a Tool and as much as a social gathering spot as you are comfortable with. Its actually a good outlet for self expression as well. So please dont feel like you have to be up to date on everything or pressured into getting into a daily posting habit just for us to think your there or something. I used to feel that I was just talking to myself.. but I didnt care. What I cared about is getting AF. It helped so I USED it. Now Its a part of me and I feel like a part of it.

Do what you feel is right for you though at Any Given Moment. Thats whats important Hell tomorrow you might feel the Nest is the place you want to be...Its all about the Moment. ( well for me it is )

[C-Developer]

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Hiya,

It can be a tad confusing at first, coupled with the fact that coming off the alcohol is just a confusing time in general. I posted in the Nest religiously for the first few weeks, in the morning before work, when I got home from work, and pretty much anytime something was on my mind or I got an unhealthy impulse.

I think you will find that your physical health with start to recover in about a week, but psychologically may take a bit longer depending on your personal circumstances.

My main problem initially was extreme boredom, particularly on the weekends, so if I were you, I would consider either taking up a new hobby or reviving an old one. There for awhile. it was like an ongoing battle between me and "gambler" (who posted above) as to who was the most adept home improvement/interior decoration guru. It was pretty sad to see a couple of guys comparing notes on curtains and living room organization, but it at least kept my mind off of things. I doubt very seriously my apartment is going to be showcased on MTV Cribs anytime soon, but it is still pretty miraculous for a single (non-gay) male to have such a tidy living space.

I wish you all the luck in the world on your journey, and if you ever need anything feel free to hit me up. I have not been posting as much lately, but I always check in to read stuff.

[Kailey]

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Hi DD. This is my Day 2, also. I joined this site last month and posted on the Newbies Nest that I was quitting. It was so hard to come back and post again after falling on my face. I even thought about continuing the count as if I hadn't stumbled. I decided, though,to do what I knew would help me the most. Post the truth and not worry about what anyone else thought. Like Gambler said, at this point I'm just really posting for myself, because it helps me stay on track.

Noodle, you sound just as determined as I feel! I agree, this is it!

[noodle]

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Sure is Kailey - day two, and feeling much better x Hope you are all doing ok! x:h

[spiderwoman]

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Glad to read you're on the up again DD, stick with it all you lot on Day 2, the worst is done and you'll soon make that first week, that gives you a boost and then the good bits really start to kick in, Don't worry about anybody else - this is for you.

[Darkest Diamond]

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Failed, have drunk this eve, arrived at work at 7.30am left work at 7.30 pm all sorts of big challenges during the day........ really big, came home and have been working ever since, apart from eating standing up (and sadly drinking) .... not at all drunk, just drunk to relieve the monotony.... plus the feeling of I don't earn enough to work these hours (resentful feelings) nearly midnight and have just finished working at home.

This is a pattern that has to break for me to stay sober.
Thank you all for your help and tips this far,
Darkest Diamond x

[Tom321]

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It's only failure if you stop trying. Tomorrow is a new day. Hang in there please.

[K9Lover]

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Start over again today DD! I can't count how many Day 1's I've had, and honestly, I'd be suspicious of anyone that succeeded on their first try! You can do this...just don't give up!