Fresh Start!!!!!

[daisy45]

Feeling great Starfish....it's hard to push yourself to exercise but so worth it. My energy levels go up, better mood, skin glows.....get yerself out there!
Stay close and we will push through this together.

[daisy45]

Yesterday my mum told be horse-riding is on her bucket list. I rang today and booked her in. She is 74.....she can't wait! Let you know how she gets on.....she is excited

[daisy45]

Bit of a stressful day....a lot of paperwork. No exercise today. First I have really had thoughts of a drink.....stress, sunny day, pissed off....I don't know. Was actually thinking I had turned a corner.
Felt so good and positive all week....annoyed that I feel this today.

[LilBit]

Daisy, feelings and moods come and go for many reasons. No one said it would be all Skittle-pooping unicorns, only that life without AL is infinitely better. Trust me, it is. It's worth it. Get busy and do something -- even if it's just resting -- until this mood passes. Don't blow your great progress. You do not have to act on your feelings!

[daisy45]

Thanks LilBit. I know I won't drink tonight.....pulled out the 'eat until you're full' tool. Now I feel bloated......but bloated and sober. Hopefully the morning will feel different.....

[Starfish1]

:welldone::welldone::welldone:

Good for you, Daisy!!!! That's the girl!!! I need you to stay one day ahead of me so I can keep track :newhere: haha!!

[jane27]

Congrats on 7 days in the bank-a-rooni Daisy!:blowkiss:

[daisy45]

Thanks Jane.
Still here Starfish....wee bit of a funk yesterday but cannot tell you the relief that I did not give in! Happy to be sober this morning. Need to really stay focused over the next week.....one day at a time.
A drinking friend wants to call tomorrow night....I wrote and told her she is welcome but I will not be drinking.....she was great about it even though I felt bad and a bit awkward about how to say it to her. Just shows how we can sometimes read people wrong.
I really want to be sober for life. Yet, even feeling that, those feelings come in and having a drink can override that......this is where I have to recognise that I know better and in the moment 'belief' has to take over to carry me through. Last night was a good trial for me....reminds me that alcohol is ready to come knocking when your defences are down.

[daisy45]

And congrats on day 7 Star!

[daisy45]

Really had to force myself to exercise today. Done 10 k on the exercise bike, then felt so much better. Went for a mile swim. As I nearly finished my laps I thought a bottle of wine is well deserved......out of nowhere! These thoughts can pop up anywhere, any time.......
But all good...busy couple of days ahead

[daisy45]

Day 9. Feel so good I want to keep going....just very aware that the next few days have been stumbling blocks in the past 6 months. Need to keep a steady focus and keep that bigger picture clear in my head.

[daisy45]

Happy to see day 10, especially after getting past last night. My children were out at a family wedding. My friend called for a long visit. After talking to her about drinking I found myself just wanting to drink when she left. So as much as it was good to talk it out, I have discovered a trigger. I was so tempted....really had to play that first drink through to the end...and it worked. Eating until I got full eventually put a stop to any thoughts.

[abcowboy]

Daisy, double digits!! Congrats!

[lizker]

Hang in there Daisy45. I have friends who used to be powerful triggers but they longer are. The key is to avoid them in the initial stages when you are most vulnerable. I see them when I have built several days if I have to and only for short periods of time. Great job and stay strong

[Starfish1]

Doing Great, Daisy! I am so so proud of you!!