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[3June2013]

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CROSSPOST - reteacher thanks for the reminder that we are really never "cured". I have those fleeting thoughts, it's been 4 and a half months for me, I know I can't ever have another drink.

[retteacher]

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Yes, as soon as alcohol hits my bloodstream, the obsession takes hold. I cannot control myself. I watch normal drinkers. They don't go over their limit of 1 or 2. A whole evening can go by, & all they drink is a little bit. They aren't always chasing that high.

[SoberSoul]

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daisy45;1569230 wrote: Thank you all for the welcome back - means a lot! Sobersoul - how come the name change? Good idea on getting Pinksters going again. Started swimming again last week and intend to do more.

To answer your question, Tipplerette denoted that I was / am a Tippler. Sober Soul embodies the woman I am striving to be. I also got sick of myself as Tipplerette always failing in my attempts to abstain. I have found more success as Sober Soul so it was worth it.

[Pinecone]

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Daisy, it's great to see you! Welcome home.

[daisy45]

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It is so good to hear from you all again!!! Mary, I remember your relapse like it was yesterday - can't believe it was over a year ago; well done on getting back on track.
And Sobersoul is a great name - you are what you think and you are now attracting that sober life!
Hi to Pinecone, NoAlco, K9, Birdie and Scotlass.
Scotlass, hope you've decided to give it a go again.

[daisy45]

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DreamThinkDo;1569082 wrote: Daisy
Remember these?
It gets better!'
You've come to the right place - read about here and you will be inspired. Believe in yourself that you will do this. There is a better life - AF time will show you this.....

Everyone has to start somewhere and you will slowly but surely feel and look better; the thing to be aware of is when you do feel good, you can be tricked into thinking you're ok and you can have a drink ............. you know already where this will lead.
A long walk is great for you exercise-wise and will help you feel good.

I have to say it is so good to see such positivity on the boards again....supportive, light-hearted and understanding; this is great!!!!
Well today I got my first 50 lengths in about 3 weeks - it was great. As soon as I get in the water I am so thankful; I feel a relief. I know the exercise will not only keep my weight and shape in check, but a much deeper thing is that it helps with my moods and how I feel.
I set my alarm early this morning and intend to from now on; the earlier you rise, the more productive your day and genuine tiredness takes over at night. For anyone dealing with insomnia, I would recommend it.

Yip, your own words, from last year in the Nest. Lots of advice and wisdom there - from Daisy to Daisy.

(I'm on Day 2 here - shall we hold hands and stay on the right track? See you in the Nest then, ok?)

Thank you for that Dream! It was so funny. When I read this I thought it was you describing how you were getting on - I was thinking OMG, this person is soooo like me -must be my soulmate! Then I realised you were quoting me! Haha. Weird feeling but good.

[daisy45]

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Nursie;1569085 wrote: Daisy I'm back too and I'm so glad you're here. Day 3 here.
We can and will do this once and for all.
It's not the last drink that gets us, it's the first!

Hey Nursie; didn't say hello yesterday. Good to see you back too. Thanks and well done. Here we go......
Satz, Brokenhalo, Sake and Lifestyle; thank you all for the welcome back!

[I'm Strong and in Control]

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retteacher;1569472 wrote: It's so true that getting back to sobriety after a relapse is very difficult, but it can be done. I just celebrated one year sober after a relapse during the summer of 2012. I was devastated about the relapse, because I had put together 3 years of sobriety. I will now protect my sobriety w/all that I have. As soon as I took that first drink, the obsession was on me immediately. I had been taking my sobriety for granted & let some alcoholic thoughts take hold. "Maybe I can drink normally now that I've been sober for 3 years." or "Maybe I'm not an alcoholic after all." or "I'm not as bad as some people" etc. So, bottom line for me: I have to do whatever it takes to stay sober. I like the sober life, as I don't wake up hungover & feeling ashamed of myself. Mary

Wow - that is a powerful post. Can anyone tell me how to bookmark it so I can find it when I start thinking like this?

[I'm Strong and in Control]

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daisy45;1569060 wrote: I remember coming here in October 3 years ago and I done so well. I had a drink on Christmas Day after being sober for almost 3 months. As I struggled over the next couple of years I got stretches of sobriety but never went back to as bad as I was before October 2010.......until now!
Since Easter I have had 1 to 2 bottles of wine most nights. It is how I felt when I originally came here. I always regretted messing up my first quit as I felt so strong in it. I am completely starting from scratch again and when I get my life back I intend to protect it!

2 days ago was the first time I realized that I can never drink again. I FINALLY got it - all my other "quits" there always was hope in the back of my mind - a KNOWING that I would drink again. On Monday, I KNEW for the first time that I cannot drink. I can't moderate. I will always, always, always drink until I pass out, and do it again when I wake up and continue the endless cycle until it ended, voluntarily or involuntarily. That's why I'm astounded that I am already beginning to entertain drinking again "someday"! I'm not drinking again. I'm not drinking again.

[scottish lass]

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Hi - yes, decided to give it a go again, hence back on the boards! Day 4 today - have managed a couple of 30 days and got to over 60 - nothing like some of the other posters here - but yes indeedy, ready to try to reclaim my life and not have a huge focus on to drink or not to drink - and how much to not enough - spending waaaaay too much time thinking about wine.....

[DreamThinkDo]

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daisy45;1569786 wrote: Thank you for that Dream! It was so funny. When I read this I thought it was you describing how you were getting on - I was thinking OMG, this person is soooo like me -must be my soulmate! Then I realised you were quoting me! Haha. Weird feeling but good.

Daisy, I'm backreading the Nest posts, and was at a point where you were quite active there last year when I saw this thread of yours. I thought that your own words would be helpful - glad it was of some help.

Stay strong, ok?

[K9Lover]

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Hi Daisy!

How are you doing today?

[daisy45]

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Strong and in control; that's you - just keep focused! Your name by the law of the universe, is what you have chosen and therefore will become - it is all in how much you believe! Hey K9 and Scottish lass - doing ok. Although I have to say I have the added help that I now have a 2 and 4 yr old brother and sister in my care and the youngest is beside me right now at 2am after another bout of vomiting and diarrhoea for the second night. Responsibility takes over when a child is sick.
I am also 12 days into quitting cigs. Lost my vaping e-cig tonight so a new one first thing tomorrow!

[K9Lover]

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I'm Strong and in Control;1569796 wrote: I will always, always, always drink until I pass out, and do it again when I wake up and continue the endless cycle

So will I....that's why the first drink is not even an option anymore! Drinking for me became a game of Russian Roulette, I was lucky...but eventually I would have found the bullet.

[scottish lass]

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Daisy - 2 wee ones! Oh my - now that would be a good excuse TO drink as well in the past!
As I manage to have more and more free days, it is so great being able to do kid stuff, heaven knows how I managed when they were 2 & 4!!
So, groceries bought and put away before noon, with no wine - first step for a wine free weekend, which has been my falling point last few weeks....
Hope all is good with everyone