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[Kailey]

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Good for you, SL, you enjoy those chocolates!!

Well, something amazing happened this afternoon. My husband was making himself a rum and coke and said something about how "my problem" isn't that I can't drink, it's that the sulfates in wine bother me. He said "Quit being so hard on yourself. Let me make you a drink". Before I knew it I said okay and had a drink sitting next to me. I let it sit there for a minute without touching it. A minute turned into ten and I finally realized I had NO DESIRE whatsoever for the damned thing! I asked my husband to dump it, which he did. I think this is another sign that I've finally broken free from the hold that alcohol has had on me!

I have to take a minute to defend my husband, because I know this doesn't put him in a very good light. He has literally heard me say that I'm quitting drinking hundreds and hundreds of times only to start right back up again. He has no way of knowing that this time is different, and I've been pretty closed mouthed about it. He's really supportive of me when he notices I'm not drinking. I think he just doesn't know how big a deal this is for me! I'll have to have that conversation with him soon. I think I'm just superstitious that if I tell him that this is finally it I'll jinx myself!

[scottish lass]

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Kailey - wow!! That is wonderful! I am jealous - I know I would not have the same response!!! That is just fabulous, I am so happy for you.....

Well closets clean, lots of laundry done, bags for the donation stores - drawers and linen closet tomorrow - I am beat, and of course first thought was a reward...if I had a husband who offered to make me a drink it would have been down the hatch in a second for sure!

Hope everyone else is doing well this Saturday evening or whhatever time of day (or whatever day) it is for you all...

[SoberSoul]

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Happy unhungover Sunday. Our first snowfall last night that actually stayed is making the trees glisten. Was at a dinner party with 12 French speaking woman, I was the onlY non- French one there. When I drank I was pretty fluent but last night, I had fun but was quiet among the others feeling a little alone. But it's a small price to pay for this mornings pleasant awakening with no regrets.

Kailly I have a hubby just like yours and because we constantly give in, of course they offer us drinks. No one knows how alcohol destroys our souls except us.

Scottish Lass. I could use your expertise here. Come sort out my cupboards. Just trying to help you keep busy.

[scottish lass]

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Morning all - love Sunday mornings like this:l:l
SS - ha, no expertise for sure - if you could see all the bags to go out (trash, donations etc) you would see that I am not an expert!
One girl in bed reading, one still asleep (popped flannel on her bed last night - snug as a bug in a rug!!) - Sunday brekkie then onto next step of clean out....
See you all later,

[Starfish1]

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So proud of you all! Keep up the great work

[SoberSoul]

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Got a nice meal on the table and having a do nothing Sunday night. Feeling great.

[scottish lass]

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Yah SS! Happy for you feeling great....:goodjob:
Hi Star :l

Have tummyache - think I ate too many chocolates yesterday:H

[acadiaofmaine]

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Scottish Lass,

ME TOO! Nauseous and very upset stomach. Definitely too much chocolate, I had a huge bar all by myself! (:

Happy Monday, everyone!

Ann

[scottish lass]

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Well now - must be it Ann - it carried on into last night...
where are all the other Daisies??
Looking for some insight - or just griping here, not sure what. So today I am at 15 days and I am feeling pretty blah...can't be bothered, not really craving - probably depravation...as so many say, AL is everywhere - in the book I am reading, on the TV, on the radio - can't escape..I have been taking it ODAT, and not trying to think about the future - because I know I have not got over the fear of forever.
In the shower i was looking for some introspection - I would be at the elusive (to me) 30days if I had not slipped a couple weekends ago, so the fortnight mark is a problem - I looked at my calendar and this happens more often than I realised - is it that the first couple weeks are more a challenge? Get to day 1, then 2 and one to 7, then double digits, then two weeks.....then what? It is a while to 30 days, and then what the heck after that???
Reading back this looks pretty pathetic, not sure what I am asking, or what I want - but this is how I feel today..I am all out of sorts - sleep problems, tummy problems, apathy problems - I am sure it is all my body de-poisoning, but golly gosh what a downer....
Sorry for the download - I will keep on this path (yes, the little voice did poke up with an "I hope") - I wish the memories of why I want to do this were stronger than the voice who says that I can achieve moderation....I really do wish that...:upset:

[Byrdlady]

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Hey Scottish...when I have found myself in a wobbly place, I take a look at those Rain In my Heart Documentaries that are under the general discussion page. It doesn't take long for me to find some of myself in those people!! Gulping wine out of a tumbler, trying to wipe my face and missing! Starting, stopping, starting, stopping it's a nightmare. I can only tell you this from bitter experience: The only way to make all of this go away is to STAY sober. I repeated the cycle over so many times I was sick of myself. It wasn't until I stopped and STAYED stopped that these feelings went away. As long as you feed this addiction, it's yours. Keep the memory of the pain and despair closeby, because it is only one drink away for all of us. Try spending some time in the Newbie's Nest, it keeps me grounded. Using your experience to help others may help you, too. It keeps the thoughts of 'just one' at bay. Anyway, don't let the Euphoric Recall get the better of you....it's all a LIE. All the best, Byrdie

[acadiaofmaine]

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SL,

I feel for you. Based on my many quits over the years, I think there are lots of times that pose difficulties. At two weeks, you feel much better physically, and in many ways, emotionally. But as you said, "What now?" I don't know the answer to that. Maybe some of the long timers can answer. I think it comes down to an intense belief that life is truly better without AL. And that as much as we want moderation, it's next to impossible to achieve. I have tried a zillion times, after months of sobriety. But for me, it's hard to internalize that 100%.

Ann

[scottish lass]

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Thanks Ann and Byrdie.

Byrdie, you have been on my shoulder, you often talk of the 13 day push, and I was wondering if my thoughts were behind that struggle.
I do watch the rain in my heart documentaries, and I know the reality of what we are facing if we chose to drink - I just wish it was not so easy to forget the bad and think of the good! You are also the one who comments on how often alcohol is shoved in our faces.....

[scottish lass]

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Where have all the daisies gone???
Queen, Kailey, Daisy, Star, SS, Ishy - where are you all? Ann and I need company or she will get really fed up of me

[Ishybit]

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Hi daisies!
Sorry for not posting. We had a busy day today. One of my girls had 4 teeth pulled and then We brought home two kittens!! The kittens have been a great distraction from al tonight.

SL, I TOTALLY understand how you feel. I too become complacent, apathetic, blah and ho-hum about it all. What am I trying to prove and who really cares anyway, then I remind (or try to) myself of what kind
Drinker I am; I'm not a sipper, I'm a chugger, I obsess about the next drink as soon as I've poured the first one. The good buzz only lasts through the first glass but by then the cycle has already kicked in for me. I've come to realize just how depressed and insecure I become the night after I drink.

I love Byrdie's posts.she always tells it like it is, she has such conviction and she believes that we are all capable of getting through this day! Let's not look at next week or thanksgiving or 30 days. Let's just get through today and we'll worry about tomorrow tomorrow.

I think this is another Byrdie's-ism I read a long time ago, You'll never have two bad/blah days in a row. It will pass.
Hi everyone!

Checking out for the night.
Ishy

[SoberSoul]

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I've been around but have a hard posting from my I-Pad. My old fingers need a keyboard to feel comfortable.

I love Byrdie and K9 for their commitment to helping us achieve our goals. They really tell it like it is.

We have some family drama going on and I am managing to keep my drinking to an almost dead stop... I am finding that because of my sobriety my moods have swung pretty low lately. I know it's all part of the healing but I like masking the emotions and therefore not feeling them.

So far so good.