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[Starfish1]

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Hi Ann,

I am doing well. I made it home without any booze so I am safe. Cooking a big supper!
You know, it seems all those counselors push AA....I went to a couple of meetings and was intimidated. I think it's because I am such an introvert. I really don't like being put on the spot, especially in front of a large group. But I understand that there are all kinds of meetings and some are smaller than others and some are run differently, so I really didn't give it a fair try. I know AA helps a lot of folks and I hope you find it helpful.
I had a little trouble getting on the site earlier so maybe some of our friends are just experiencing technical difficulties! I hope everyone is doing well...we almost have day 2 dusted!

[acadiaofmaine]

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SF,

Well, I am also an introvert have always had a fear of speaking in groups. I am a one -on- one kinda gal. But everyone swears you don't HAVE to talk until you are ready. I am going to try and see how it feels. I dread it. DREAD IT.

Ann

[Starfish1]

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I dreaded it too! It took every bit of courage I had to go there, but it was not as bad as I thought it would be, actually. The folks were very friendly and had a good sense of humor, in general. I just didn't like the fact that they would "call on you" for an answer. I know you could "pass", but I felt I would want to "pass" every time and they would get tired of that...Like I said, I really didn't give it a fair try...I really hope you like it, Ann. BUT I am VERY HAPPY that you are also with us on MWO!!

[Kailey]

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Just got done with a long out of town meeting, and now waiting a half an hour for the group to go out to dinner. I know I'll be fine, but I really didn't need this kind of a test today! I had planned to hole up in my hotel room, but instead will be spending an evening watching everyone drink.

The people I am going out with are high level executives so I'm a bit nervous anyway... It's certainly the type of situation that would be easy to have a drink to toss off the jitters. Does it sound stupid that I feel kind of dumb not being able to join in with everyone?

This may be the only time in my life (except when I was pregnant) that I haven't drank if others were drinking. I wish I didn't have to go, but I said I would, and it's too late to back out now. I'll probably take the easy way out and come up with an excuse about why I'm not drinking.

I'm actually a little panicky trying to come up with one on the spot like this. I think I'll just say I've started a diet. Or something! Shoot! My heart is racing. I guess it's a good thing that I'm actually scared by this threat to my sobriety. It shows how important it is to me.

Sorry, for the ramble. I'll be fine! 11/12/13 will remain my quit day!

[scottish lass]

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Oh Kailey - I feel for you! Sorry it took me a while to drive home today - I feel you reaching out, and hopefully you have managed....
I have always said that I needed dutch courage to make my pace, and I have avoided situations because I wasn't drinking....I have always hidden behind my wine, and in all seriousness I will have to find a new way to be to be able to socialize.
I hope you made it Kailey ....
Hi Ann, Coco and Star...

[Kailey]

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Guess what? I made it!! I was still in a panic about what I would do while the waitress was taking drink orders . The first person ordered wine, so did the second. The third ordered a beer. My heart was sinking and I felt so off balance. I hadn't had time to mentally prepare and I really could have caved. But then the person before me ordered coffee, so I just did the same! I am soooooo happy!

I can't believe I made it through this unexpected challenge. I won't lie, it could have gone differently, but it didn't! Now there is nothing for a few weeks that should be so hard, so I'll have time to get stronger before I have to face a night like this again!

[acadiaofmaine]

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KAILEY!! That is completely awesome! Great job and you must be sooooo happy. I am! It's very hard in these situations. I am debating the same issue, though more "how do I handle this with friends with whom I usually have at least two glasses of wine?" There are many ways to handle but part of me wants to be honest (and part of me doesn't!) I think I am going to say that AL has been bothering my stomach a lot lately (so true) and I'm taking a break for the rest of the year. That gets me through the holidays!

Or, I can say my blood sugar has been a little high. Also true! (of course, then I can't order dessert!)

Anyway, you did a fabulous job and we are all sending you hugs and congrats!

Ann

[Starfish1]

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Kailey :goodjob::thumbs::wd:

Sorry I couldnt support you last night. I was having computer problems. We are SO PROUD of you....We all know exactly what you went thru with that situation, but you came through with flying colors. Now next time it will be easier.

I have an eye doctors appt this morning and so I will probably be pretty blind (from the dilation) for the first part of the day, but will check in as soon as I can.

S.L., great job on getting thru that long drive home without stopping.

We are doing this, ladies

[Starfish1]

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Hi Ann, Cross post! I think the blood sugar one sounds good. I always use the "hot flash" one myself, but you may not be as OLD as I am

[acadiaofmaine]

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SF,

Let's just say hot flashes for me are a distant memory! I am 57!! Too old for this drinking foolishness!

Ann

[Starfish1]

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Haha. I bet your look MUCH younger
Have a great day, daisies! I am waiting on the doctor

[Kailey]

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Starfish1;1584919 wrote: Haha. I bet your look MUCH younger
Have a great day, daisies! I am waiting on the doctor

I hope the doctor gives you some guidance that you are comfortable with regarding your daughter!

[Starfish1]

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Thanks, Kailey, but it was my optometrist that I was waiting on, not a doctor to talk about my daughter today. But, hey, good news is, he said my eyes look GREAT!!! A girl's gotta get a little good news sometime, right
Hang tight everyone! Coco- where'd you go?

[Kailey]

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Star, Now I see your post about your eye appointment. How did I miss it? It's in red!

[scottish lass]

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Morning all - and jolly well done Kailey!!
As to hot flashes - I had som the other night after having that wine - my hot flashes pretty well disappear when I don't drink...yet another great reason not to do it...