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[Starfish1]

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How are you feeling this afternoon, S.L.? Well, I hope!

[acadiaofmaine]

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yeah, how are we all doing this afternoon? It's 3 pm my time. The witching hours begin.

I had to go out to do some errands, and felt the familiar tug...but bought a brownie instead. Better head to the running store next time and get something to help me increase my motivation to run!

This is not easy. I wonder when it becomes second nature to NOT drink?

Check in if you can, Daisies!

Ann

[Starfish1]

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Hi Ann :l

Good job on nabbing the brownie, rather than the brown bag:H:H:H

I am okay atm...it's 2:00 here, but my witching hours were continual, so it didn't really matter to me what time it was :upset:

I think you will feel better in a couple more days. Let's just stick close.

I admire you for being a runner. I just can't do it...matter of fact, I am totally unmotivated to do ANY type of exercise. I know that is bad, but one thing at a time.

[acadiaofmaine]

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SF,

well, I have a rather loose definition of running! I am slow like a snail, but I keep moving. It makes me happy to be outdoors, see the people and dogs...the older I get, the more it hurts, but hey! It still helps my mood overall!

Ann

[Starfish1]

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Good for you, Ann! Well I made it home without stopping, so I think I am pretty safe now. No alcohol in the house. I'll keep busy with cooking, eating and trying to chill. Hope your evening is restful!

[Starfish1]

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Well girls- here is a problem I didn't anticipate..: my husband just asked me to drink with him tonight. Why? Why? Why? He just can't get it. I turned him down but I think he's coming home with a bottle. He asked me if we had orange juice (to mix with the vodka). Darn! I will not drink, but I didn't need that temptation. Thanks for listening

[acadiaofmaine]

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Oh no, SF, that's not fair! Maybe just tell him you don't feel well and that having drinks will make you feel worse, which of course, they will! Try to transport yourself to 3 am-you don't want to be waking up full of remorse, guilt, anxiety. And you don't want to wake up that way, either.

I don't know what to say about hubs and what he may or may not be thinking. What do you think is up?

Hang with us! You are a strong woman and you can do it. We can do it. As K9 says, you won't wake up wishing you had had a few.



Ann

[Starfish1]

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Thanks, Ann. You are right. I don't want to wake up at three feeling horrible about drinking. I know I don't want that but I am terribly tempted right now. I hate this!

[acadiaofmaine]

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Yes, it is hateful, unfair and downright hideous. we really want what we just can't have. I am struggling with this, too. Why can't I have a couple of drinks with my husband, and just not have any tomorrow?

BECAUSE THAT"S NOT WHAT WILL HAPPEN FOR ME. If I have a couple, I will start thinking about drinking by noon tomorrow, if not earlier. The desire will be stronger than ever. Plus I will feel like crap about myself and "what the hell, screw it" will kick in once again. And down the drain I start to go...again.

If any of this sounds like you, try to stay AF. Have the juice. Have the conversation, relax. Just don't restart the madness! Maybe I am being overly dramatic and obnoxious, but that is how it feels to me. Madness.

Ann

[Starfish1]

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That's exactly what would happen to me. If I drank tonight I would be back at square one. He hasn't made it home yet but I went ahead and poured a glass of pomegranate/cranberry juice and am sipping on that. I wish I had a brownie and some ice cream!!! I would eat myself silly. Thanks for your words of wisdom, Ann, I really needed someone who understands to talk some sense into me.

[acadiaofmaine]

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What, no brownies? Good grief, NEVER be without chocolate!

Reading the thread below this about boredom...the last post by Moss Rose..."it takes some time to ease into the new normal." Now that's one to tattoo on my forehead.

SF, you are doing a great job and the evening will pass. Your juice sounds tasty. You can do this!

Ann

[Starfish1]

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Thanks, Ann! Couldn't do it without you though. I am calm and collected now thanks to you! That one just hit me out of the blue. And i will remember that about the chocolate. I won't be without that again! Thanks for the pep talk
Have a great sober night daisies

[acadiaofmaine]

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Well, believe me, I am struggling with the same feelings. I nearly cracked one of my husband's beers today, and I don't even like beer! Crazy.

Heading to bed soon, I am worn to the bone. Hope you and all the daisies have a good Thursday night!

Ann

[Kailey]

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acadiaofmaine;1585104 wrote: Yes, it is hateful, unfair and downright hideous. we really want what we just can't have. I am struggling with this, too. Why can't I have a couple of drinks with my husband, and just not have any tomorrow?

BECAUSE THAT"S NOT WHAT WILL HAPPEN FOR ME. If I have a couple, I will start thinking about drinking by noon tomorrow, if not earlier. The desire will be stronger than ever. Plus I will feel like crap about myself and "what the hell, screw it" will kick in once again. And down the drain I start to go...again.

If any of this sounds like you, try to stay AF. Have the juice. Have the conversation, relax. Just don't restart the madness! Maybe I am being overly dramatic and obnoxious, but that is how it feels to me. Madness.

Ann

Bless your heart Ann! I had a 150 mile drive home from my meeting with lots of time to start thinking about drinking. The moment I got home I read this post, and it just did it for me! Of course I won't drink! Why would I restart the madness?

I hope you made it safely through the night, Star!

I have to say I'm a little worried about how precarious things have felt the last few nights, but bottom line, a win is a win! I'll worry about getting through tomorrow tomorrow!

[scottish lass]

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OMG - me too - just got home and feeling sad/mad! Would love a drink, need to relax - would be fine if I could just have A drink, but I know that won't happen - thanks to you all for being here, and as your clocks are in advance of mine, you are paving the way - so off to get supper and try to focus on feeling good tomorrow morning......
Kailey - is it the change in weather? I am so wobbly this time around, the last couple weeks were fairly smooth but this is a fight again..
I will go do what needs to be done and check back later...
(did we scare Coco off???)