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[Starfish1]

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Thank you, S.L.
I hope you have a good afternoon. Good for you for getting your shopping done early today. Maybe you can think of another way to reward yourself for such an excellent week. Just take the afternoon off and relax.
I have really been struggling today. I hope I feel better soon!

[acadiaofmaine]

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Hi Daisies, and welcome Katty!

Yup, the Friday afternoon doldrums have really descended here in New York. I was going to try my first AA meeting at noon but got caught by a client and had to do something for work. I did manage to walk by just as they were getting out...what a lurker I am. It might have been a good day to try it as my cravings are pretty high right now!

Ann

[Starfish1]

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Is it time for a snack, Ann? I am having a hard time too. REALLY stressed.

[acadiaofmaine]

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SF,

Gonna go out for a walk and pick up some snacks! I really need to get out of my very stressful (home) office environment. I work, eat and sleep in the same little room! Craziness. But beats getting dressed up and going on the subway somewhere....

What is your plan for your daughter? Don't answer if you don't feel like it. I wonder if you are making a plan, and that's why you are so incredibly stressed? Hang in there. I'm around all weekend...

ann

[scottish lass]

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Eating lunch - hoping that helps.
How can we get each other thru this - think how happy we will be tomorrow if we succeed.
Let's make this work - imagine hot flashes in the night, thirsts, gagging while brushing teeth, feeling blah to start the weekend off, wondering how to admit what we did on here, trying to remember if we did anything we wished we hadn't, what other reminders do we have as to why not???
Then the opposite, a restful night, feeling good in the morning, a great weekend, another sense of accomplishment, another friday sorted out and the knowledge we can get stronger with every friday, the ability to get things done tomorrow instead of feeling depressed....
come on - add in....let do this!

[acadiaofmaine]

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Putting off everything on my to-do list, trying to figure out how I can get out of cooking even though daughter really really prefers homemade food, not take- out, eating crappy food myself, watching myself spend all my time drinking and watching TV, probably skipping my morning run or feeling crap if I do go, wondering what in the heck I will say to Shrinkage when I see her next week, wondering if I will have to drink through Thanksgiving when son is home from college...and feeling really scared and like I can't control anything. That I am on a serious, downward spiral that may not ever reverse.

HOLY CRAP! Best not start now! I'd laugh if all that weren't true!

Ann

[acadiaofmaine]

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Woops, almost forgot the positive side!

Getting up for a run, it's going to be pretty out, making daughter a nice breakfast before she takes practice SAT tests, GETTING A MASSAGE, a gift from family from last mother's day. Cooking some yummy soup. Slogging through at least one set of financial aid forms for daughter's school. My most hated thing but has to get done!

Sleeping like I'm in a coma, and seeing a friend or two for coffee (not cancelling or making drinks happen instead!)

Feeling a ray of hope. Coming on here and sharing the hope.

Ann

[Starfish1]

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Thank you so much, gals. I am pm.ing you

[Starfish1]

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I need help to stop the madness!

[Kailey]

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So this is hard. I think it helps me to just acknowledge that. But, a lot of worthwhile things are hard. So, I will make it through tonight no matter what. It's just mental chatter, after all. Tonight I'm going to try thinking as if it's me (the REAL me) vs. the drinking me. Like it's a battle between the two of us and that I'm going to win. It might be an epic battle, but I'm going to come out on top. And pray that it gets easier.

Still at work so I'll check in later. I really felt my resolve slipping and needed to shore it up. This site always provides that for me.

Daisies... give it everything you've got tonight. We are not used to depriving ourselves on weekends so this is new for us. If we have a miserable night or two so what? It's not like we haven't had miserable drinking nights before.

I'm rambling here! Just gearing up for the big battle I guess!

Welcome Katty! Don't let me scare you off! I'm not normally so war like!

[Starfish1]

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Wow, your lists are great. and so true! Wish I had thought of all that

[Starfish1]

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cross post, Kailey, sorry! I will pm you too

[scottish lass]

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Star - we are here, you are ok....

[Kailey]

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Starfish1;1585465 wrote: cross post, Kailey, sorry! I will pm you too

I wrote you back. Hang in there. To continue today's analogy this is just a skirmish, a battle. We are in a war, and there will be setbacks. Just be sure you come back tomorrow ready to fight another day!

You're on our minds, Star. We all care about you!

[Starfish1]

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Thank you, so much, Kailey!