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K9Lover;1595115 wrote: Uh...NO! Someone just asked me the other day why I don't have a man? I said "Because I'm a bitch". LOL :H Seriously, I am just too darn independent for my own good...but that's OK cuz I am loving being single right now! I'm old and set in my ways!

Keep plodding along Change...that's all any of us can do. Just get through THIS day as Byrdie says...that's all you gotta do!

How are the rest of the Daisies doing today?

Love yer respone K9! Make 'em work for it i say!

Day 4 i think it is for me I think. I had 2 Kahlua and cokes last night, which i don't want to count, maybe it's cheating, but it's nothing compared to what i could have done, so i'm kinda happy about that.

Next step will be to tackle the sugar issue, which will be far more challenging for me than alc. Also, the cigerettes have creeped in too. Figured they were the lesser of the two evils right now!

Nice day here in hometown. Kinda looking forward to getting in the car and seeing some sunshine.

Hope everyone's doing okay.

Daisy, where are you??

[mama bear]

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Welcome HOME Daisy!!!

[K9Lover]

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Where IS Daisy at? She hasn't posted in a while and I'm worried about her. Yoohoooo....Daisy! :h

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Well, i'm gonna blame Daisy for my five days sober.. Yo, Daisy?

Ok, ok, she'll come back.

Must admit, i triggered big time today: tiredness... Then that false sense of security kicked in on the way home, but i talked myself out of it. Imagined myself all tired and slurry, that did the trick!

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Right, had 5 days under my belt, was starting to feel rational. Fell off the wagon for two days. am back on the wagon and more committed than ever.

[K9Lover]

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Change -
I JUST posted this in another thread:

I had a scary thought earlier. I figured my daughter will be going to her dad's over the winter break and that if I quit Antabuse now I'd be clear to drink! I'm not trying to scare anyone, just pointing out how VIGILANT we must stay, no matter how long we've been sober. If you are like me, your first thought will always be "Oh good...this and that is happening so I can drink!"....remember girls....I didn't go to jail 3 times because I was singing too loud in the church choir!

5 days, 5 years....we still have to keep our guard up, always!

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K9Lover,

It's weird the tricks our minds play on us. I think i had one of those devious thoughts earlier tonight. One thing for certain, i do want to quit this monster. I think it's our irrational childish brain that wants to be naughty when our parent, more sensible brain is taking a break!

Good spotting and over-riding of that naughty part that wants to run wild. You certainly showed it who's in control!

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Day 3 again, don't even feel like it.

[K9Lover]

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:goodjob: Change! I always found days 3-4 to be the hardest...so just hang in there and you won't have to go through this again! How do you feel?

[daisy45]

Decided to resurrect this thread to record my progress as I make my way into a sober life.
After about 5 months of the usual old drinking routine I just could not get a start....fresh start that is!
Well, after being back on this site for just a couple of weeks, things are definitely getting better. It takes a while to get the mindset into sober thinking again. I have had a few day 1s and a few AF days, more than in recent times, so I see that as progress. Right now on day 3. When I find it hard to get a good start I would hide and the result is 'always' the same.
So I will stick this out until I get the job done.
So far, so good.
Back to exercise, hyno cds, progressing.....

[scottish lass]

Yeah Daisy! You can do it, it will stick....took me forever, and sincerely hope that this time IS IT for me and for you too!

[daisy45]

I hope so too Scotlass! I will just stay put until it happens.
Woke up happy today - great peaceful sleep, no wine breath, clear head. Now isn't that a great start to any day?!
Getting my nails done at 11...a treat from my daughter for my birthday. Only had my nails done twice before.

Then I hope to get to the gym and maybe a swim....see how that goes....
Also, no anxiety pills for 3 days now...strange.....not!!!

[Knitty]

Well done Daisy! That makes me smile. The peaceful sleep and clear head feels amazing doesn't it?

Interesting what you have noticed about your anxiety. In the past, I always felt I needed wine to calm my anxiety/panic problems that built up every evening, but the anxiety seems to have vanished since I stopped drinking the wine. I have been wondering if it may have been due to blood sugar swings, getting too low in the early evening which made my cravings for wine unbearable. Now with no wine, no sugar/sweeteners/anything sweet (except for dessert about twice a week when I have 2 pieces of chocolate that I eat with plain yogurt/walnuts to balance any sugar swings), my favorite healthy foods, and the anxiety gone, I have no cravings at all (although I think the AllOne vitamin powder helped me initially too - ran out a few days ago and I'm still ok). This seems to be helping me a lot - just have to deal with the habit/ritual rather than the craving. I do have the odd fleeting thought but no real cravings. I'm still figuring out how my body works - I'm only on day 28 so am new at this - but nothing has really worked for me before so I wanted to share in case the blood sugar-swing thing helps you

[daisy45]

Knitty, I have never really suffered from anxiety until an incident in the family in Feb/March this year....I became bedridden for a few days. Ended up very secluded and depresses after it...again, not like me. The hurt and shock took a real toll on me physically and mentally. I was shocked that something so mentally stressful could have such an effect on my life. Thankfully my daughter works with me so she carried the load. It has taken me a long time to get to this point....each day a little better....now I know it is time to get back to looking after me.
To any other do-gooders out there....be careful to not give too much of yourself....you always need to care for yourself in helping others. I realise now and thought it was all about love...actually I let myself be used.
But that was before....now for getting back on top.
Knitty, this time I am going to be more careful about the sugar issue.....never ate sweets until I stopped drinking.....very obvious sign of the connection! Thank you!

[daisy45]

Did the alcohol help my stress? No, makes it far worse, but there was nothing and no-one who could stop me at the end of that day when those tensions were building. Re-run of that day and day again.....stress gets worse, drinking and the effects get worse...yet I continue the madness....nuts!
Anyways, got acrylic nails today.....feels weird...they are so long and thick. I don't do this sort of thing usually. Been to the gym and walked on the treadmill and listened to bubble hour while doing it. Off work for the rest of the week.