Fresh Start!!!!!

[paulywogg]

You sound positively radiant Daisy don't forget this feeling my friend

[daisy45]

The usual.....had a great day, feel great, changed furniture, put my winter fire in......and now I feel like a drink!

[paulywogg]

So drink a hot chocolate

[scottish lass]

Hi dear Daisy!
Isn't that the truth - why does a great day feel the need to tempt us with a drink - I try to look back and see how great I felt and want the same for the next day, so drinking can't happen.
I am also feeling so dang good today, and know that the little whispers will get stronger thru the day - but I am so looking forward to feeling great tomorrow, so they will just have to bugger off won't they!

[daisy45]

Thanks SL; I know some say it passes after so many minutes, but this has been with me for 3 hours. Feel better just now as I ate an almighty feed. Sent my girls to get it as I didn't trust myself downtown.

[Guitarista]

Stay the course Ms Daisy. You are worth it!

It sure is a head game for me. I have to get out of my head anyway I can when I'm tempted. And not by boozing. Distraction distraction distraction anyway anyhow can help.

Have a gr8 weekend. Break that useless life sucking no good for nuthin cycle. :happy2:

[scottish lass]

so I am not in witching hour here - how can I help you??
Just think how happy you will be tomorrow morning!
I totally get how you are feeling, but I KNOW how you will want to feel tomorrow - me too!!!
Let's do this and let's be extra chipper come Saturday...

[daisy45]

Thanks so much SL. I know I am ok now. It is 10.20pm. I am full, tired and so relieved. Had I drank I would be probably happy in the moment right now, but I know the reality is I would drink more, make a phone call, probably fall asleep with the window open....wake up at all hours, crawl to bed, forget how my night went after this time and kick myself for giving in.......and waste tomorrow recovering from it.....and then repeat.
Phew!

[scottish lass]

Sweet, happy dreams! Another win for Daisy vs Al!
:goodjob::sohappy::welldone:

[daisy45]

Yeeha! That day 6 feeling is one of Thank God I did not give in.......which makes a great start to today.
Got breakfast in bed today....for my non 25 anniversary! My daughters are so cute.

[daisy45]

Another good day ending in me wanting to drink. Getting home and a night ahead when all I can think of is wine. Damn!

[scottish lass]

Hi Daisy - woke up wonderfully today, full of smiles and happy about last night too. Took me, myself and I for a good long walk and really enjoyed it. Now thoughts start to build, but we will win again won't we...
I do have an evening out tonight, and girl #1 will be driving downtown in the dark (on her learners permit) so it will be great that I will be sober to be there for her...trying to think of all the reasons to be happy that the wine gets drunk by others and not me, but yes, it is tough.
Happy un-iversary...not where we planned to be, but better than where we were....

[daisy45]

Thanks SL. Riding through it but really agitated right now. Another very close call!
Tonight was worse than last night. Last night was a slow build-up where tonight came on quickly but more intense. Taking a few deep breaths. I know now I won't but wasn't so sure when I wrote that post only a while ago.
Your response helped SL......thanks so much.

[scottish lass]

Lets hope if this came on quickly it will go as quickly - last night you were surprised how long it lasted. I am hoping it goes just as quick as it came j-vo!
Love seeing "I know now I won't" - I know you won't either - well done for posting!

[paulywogg]

Daisy,I sort of had thoughts too I took an l glutamine,think it helped but I don't like thinking of drinking/not drinking,I won't drink of course, I had hubs run and grab me a big burger,I know too that I'm overly tired and that sure as heck doesn't help,grrr,good for us for getting through this