Fresh Start!!!!!

[daisy45]

Eating more chocolate than I should right now but figure it is better than wine.
Pauly, I went through HALT and none of them applied to me tonight....I just wanted a drink. Glad you and I will be waking up sober tomorrow.

[daisy45]

12.40am and at last feeling grateful. While in that mist of 'wanting' it is so hard to see the bigger picture. I can now but it is scary how my thoughts can change so dramatically.
I can convince myself and really believe I can drink in that moment and it will be ok. Yet right now that I am through it safely I am back to wanting sobriety.
I want to account for my thoughts at every turn....to know better this time what I am dealing with and to do it better.

[scottish lass]

Bring on the chocolate - whatever works for now!
Hope you are able to get sleep now ...see you for a sober Sunday, the very best kind...unhung!

[daisy45]

I will SL.....here's to an 'unhung' Sunday! Nightie night!

[scottish lass]

We did it - and loving my unhung Sunday! Congratulations on a week - here is to another one, with a clear start on Monday!
I'm up for another week - how about you???:hug:

[NoraC]

Great thread! Great job!

[daisy45]

So sorry.....drank! Went out for lunch after mass today. Mid-lunch I ordered a glass of wine,,... As you all know, that was that....
Came home and did not even enjoy any further drinks...ended up in tears to my daughter. She told me she could not help me and then how? I realise it is so unfair. She told me she never seen me wanting it so bad. She knows I am desperate. I told her I might drink tomorrow and not sure how to stop it, and how hard it is to face you all again. She read some of my posts and just said 'do day 1' again.
She believes in me....told her the seven days were wasted and she was able to see differently......let's hope I can see that way in the morning.

[Guitarista]

Hiya Daisy,

I think your daughter is right. Do day 1 again tomorrow. You can do this and never ever forget.....you are worth it! G

[daisy45]

Thanks G. F##ked up between 4 and 9 today..... Sobered up now. I hear you and am glad I posted tonight. ... My daughters believe in me. They know I will get there. I will check in tomorrow....intend to keep on checking in no matter what

[Guitarista]

Thanks G. F##ked up between 4 and 9 today..... Sobered up now. I hear you and am glad I posted tonight. ... My daughters believe in me. They know I will get there. I will check in tomorrow....intend to keep on checking in no matter what

Good to hear Daisy. Maybe a cup/bowl of soup to round the evening off?

You have every reason to believe in yourself. You are one of the good people on this planet. We don't want to lose you.

[daisy45]

Had a McDonald's, chicken burger and chips......that done the trick. So glad of you tonight....otherwise I would be hiding tomorrow.
Admitted so much to my daughter tonight. Anxiety pills... Have not taken one since not drinking. I am a fairly stable person as long as I don't drink....who would have thought?

[abcowboy]

You can do it Daisy! A "fresh start" tomorrow, you know it's never to late to be the person you can be, and who your daughter believes you can be! :hug:

[starty]

Daisy, stick with it. I promise it does get easier. Along with the physical cravings the habitual behaviour begins to take over. Have you tried Glutamine or protein shakes for managing the cravings. They do help. There is a lot of research around it. Do not give yourself permission for that drink. Take the choice away from yourself.

Let us know how you are doing today OK?

[lifechange]

I agree with the others, Daisy..
Don't let this get you down. Don't let it get a hold of you again.
Don't let one mess up lead you astray... it doesn't have to go on. YOU know what you want.. do like your daughter said and make this day 1..
You have it in you.. we all do! xx

[daisy45]

Thank you all. Ok, back to day 1. I already have 6 days free of the poison so flushing out yesterdays damage should not take too long. Going to exercis for an hour now.
I was mad to mess up and also realise I was silly even to go out for a meal, romanticising that the glass of wine was a nice thing to do with good company. The company went home and I ended up at home drinking alone. No enjoyment....just disappointment in myself, feeling deflated and hopeless. Those feelings had gone over last week.
I know I can get that back right now.....need to be even more aware.
Day 1